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God is not a toy.. ..

Written @ 1:01 PM

God is not a toy.. neither is salvation a toy too.. aft viewin the webby tat siok had given mi, i was greatly impacted.. thou its jus an anime, but it shows n tells hw impt we r to God.. hw He put us 1st in His priority.. Hw he protected us.. it was touchin.. frm tat min onward, i den begin to realise hw much i luv Him, n i cannot do without Him in my life.. it was contradictin.. i luv Him, yet i cannot obey Him.. sounded ridiculars.. others will tink tat i'm tokin crap, but yet wenting blif n trusted in wat i say.. thx wenting..

wen i log in to my frenster, read the testimonials tat others had wrote to mi, i pause wen reaches bel's.. .. 'i'll brave the storm wif u! wen i say it, i mean it! we'll run the race together! we r worrior of Christ!' bla bla bla.. .. her tstimonial so much so touches mi.. but yet.. its all lies.. .. haas.. where is she nw? not even a sight of her.. my attitude toward her remains unchange.. but hers towards mi was far far far away at north pole.. (COLD).. well.. i don haf a nid to feel upset.. aft all.. i oreli noe at the beri beginin tat she's not the one for mi durin my hard times.. .. so.. nth reli to b upset abt.. ..

ppl ard mi all leave 1 by 1 le.. prom reli lies on mi? i ought to do sum reflections.. my webby add is nice.. it suits mi.. 'esther in the wonder land'.. all along i'm leadin my own life.. haas.. life is meaningless.. y eatin so much panadols do no help.. y slashin my wrist do no help.. the amount of panadol i ate was not enuf? or i did not slash deep enuf to end dis sucky life of mine off? i shall work harder on it then.. ..

so vex so vex.. wana jio ppl out for a drink of vodka, yet.. haas.. i can tot of no1.. .. tat day call raine up.. wana tok to her.. but she was tired.. she say to tok other day.. called joanne up.. same tin.. sum more promised to call mi back the nxt day but as usual, she din.. .. bro reprimanded mi.. sayin tat i face computer too long hrs? sms ppl, no1 reply, call ppl, no1 wana tok, find ppl go out, found no1, at home, not even a soul ard.. of cuz i face computer.. as least i m doin sumtin den to lie down on bed rottin n mouldin..

amazingly.. my fone had not been ringin for long.. .. its time to put it in the coffin le.. pst kong say onli dead person not doin anitin.. nor.. my fone die le.. ..

i nid more courage to end off dis life.. .. its hell-like to mi.. i don mind gg hell.. noein clearly tat i wldnt b gg to heavenn either.. wats the diff den.. cont to stay n suffer, mite as well end it off earlier.. .. tat time ate 8 panadol a shot doesnt help.. dis time round i mus try out wif 12.. .. den 16.. till i succeed.. .. life is so empty.. haas.. endin it off soon le.. fear not.. away frm all suffers.. ..