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Written @ 1:34 AM

i'm finally on track nw.. thou at times, i do feel rather reluctant still to do tins n go church, but.. i force myself to! at least i noe havin an encounter wif God is impt.. each time i go, is a chance of an encounter.. so.. mus go!!!

i thx God for placin bro n yanglin in my life.. Bro.. nv gif mi up b4 no matter hw much attitude i had on him.. yanglin.. er.. proclaim tat she gave up on mi.. but.. haas.. i noe she din.. well.. er.. din mean to hurt her so much.. but is like.. i'm learnin ya? still learnin.. .. hope i wun hurt u ani further in the future..

i feel so great nw!!! reli.. the fire in mi is burnin! stronger n stronger everiday!!! erm.. havin my QT so regulary.. haas.. tokin to God feels soooo gd.. .. i always sit at 1 half of my bed.. haas.. hopin tat God will drop by n sit at the other half of my bed, beside mi n tok to mi, listen to mi tokin.. =)

bel.. i noe u wun b readin dis.. but i reli wana tell u.. no1 in the cell is tokin bad abt u.. all we hope is for u to cum back.. B.. each time i return, is bcuz u call mi back.. ask n it shall b given.. isnt it? u called, n i do as u say.. so nw.. i'm askin u to cum back.. will u..? i luv u.. i reli do.. 2day we finally toked.. u smile at mi n stick out ur tongue.. i felt so plz n happi.. i smile back n i tok to u.. i missed those days.. u, mi n liang.. we're always happi no matter wat we do n where we go.. wen can those days cum again.. ..? B.. the hug u had given to mi was the most real n memoriable tat i can eva find.. i wan the hug frm u again.. .. sob.. .. B.. cum back hao ma.. i'm waitin.. waitin for the day of u returnin.. .. ..

i've realise sumtin.. tat its impt to express ourself.. all along i din noe hw to express myself.. the best quote i like was 'ahh.. nvm la.. forget it..'.. but bro say tat its WRONG!!! he call mi to express myself, if its necessary, lecture n scold ppl tat offenced mi.. haas.. nv keep it to myself, cuz i will XPLODE!.. well.. i always do.. tats y ended up xplodin n in the end ppl tat involve r unhappi.. i'm learnin.. haas.. like ytd? tok to yanglin online.. actually almost quarrel de.. but is like.. i reli cannot stand le.. so i say everitin out.. haas.. in the end tins go well la.. .. well.. all tins go well wif the help of God ma.. God, thx u! u r almighty! *muackz!*

bro say tat actually both mi n yanglin, we holds the same character de.. is like.. she take heart of everitin i say, so m i of everitin she said.. den in the end we keep on broodin n dwellin of wat one another say till we bcum crashed.. =.=" lolx~ true leh.. well.. tats y i say.. i will learn not to take in wat other say out of anguishness! even hw harsh dey were to b, hw dey flare at mi, its ok de! cuz i'm there for dem, not there to quarrel wif dem! keke~ aft all, everi1 is like tat de ma.. angry den anihw tok.. so y mus we take in wat dey say? haf the ability to fliter wateva tat enters out ears.. yeah~ tats the way.. ..

i mus oso learn to b slow to get angry.. cannot make it leh.. i angry too easily le.. hw huh.. haiz.. CONTROL! i'm tryin to.. haas.. will de will de.. lolx~

yanglin ar.. i always blif tat God had place us in one another life for a certain purpose.. so is like.. all along i regretted 1 tin.. i do all tins except to pray for our frenship.. so nw.. everi of my QT, i will tell God hw we r nw.. hw tins btwn us went.. i always pray for a beta relation btwn u n mi.. pray for us to b more understandin 2wards 1 another.. pray for us to always b there weneva one is down n upset.. .. i'm workin on it.. gif mi time.. ..

Daddy muumy quarrel beri long le.. cold war started mths ago till nw, it haben end.. .. mummy had been slpin in the livin rm.. i tried to keep her company n i brought out all my pillow n bolster to slp wif her.. but is like.. aft 3 days, i cannot tar han.. cant leh.. i miss my bed.. .. everiday mummy cum hm frm work, she will tok non stop, share wif mi abt her day.. but is like.. weneva my frenz called, she'll b unhappi.. say tat i wan frenz, don wan her.. tats not the case.. is like.. arrggh.. she onli wan to tok, den wan mi to listen.. don allow mi to do anitin like tat.. daddy had been cumin hm slammin door.. guess the door will soon drop de la.. haiz.. slam slam slam.. slam till i don even feel like stay at home.. scold mi tat day sum more.. den is like.. not my fault? but still let him scold la..

Daddy used to beat mi n kor kor beri often de.. lock us in the rm, den cane till our skin tear?.. still rem he threw chair at kor kor, hit rite on his back.. the chair broke into pcs.. n nor.. my kor's back got 'tatto' appear lo.. bleed till jia lad jia lad.. .. he everitime tok, den wan us ans.. don ans, he slap.. if we do, he oso slap.. slap till our teeth bleed n face swollen den he stop.. pull my hair sum more.. arrggh.. at times wen i tink back.. reli beri phobia.. so wen yanglin told mi abt her proms, tins bein to flash back in my mind.. i mean.. i reli care alot for her proms.. but is like.. she say 'in the future, i don nid ur help.' .. so hurt leh.. =,( but once again, bro call mi don take it to heart.. .. so.. i try to do as wat he say.. aft all i blif tats her word of anguishness.. don reject my help can? =( haiz.. .. i reli jus wana help.. ..

God, once again i pray for wisdom in makin decisions.. let mi b wise wen i tok.. let everi sentence not b offensive 2wards others.. let mi b slow to get angry but fast in reactin.. ..

bro's exam finally over le! PTL! haas.. he reli seems beri stress for the past few weeks.. nw he can relax le.. =)

hao ba.. tml still got tins to do.. goto meet ze to discuz for the xmas BBQ tingy.. so busy recently.. haas.. goto slp le.. but hey! TV nw got jap horror movie! beri nice n thrillin!! eh? like i watch b4 leh.. but nvm.. can watch again! wakak!~ go watch TV le! aft tat go slp.. nw oreli mid nite 3 plus liao.. lolx~

oh ya.. the time stated for my blog soort soort de.. not the rite time.. cannot change even.. lousy blog.. .. arrggh.. haas.. kk i shall end here ba..!