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MIA

Written @ 5:52 PM

went MIA dis few days.. simply din wan ani1 to contact mi.. i reli cant get thru wo ji zi she yi guan.. guilt guilt guilt.. .. i cancel of my BS tat day without valid reason.. i was on my way there oreli, wif my workbk n bible wif mi.. but last min, i retreated n went missin.. .. din go for CG 2day.. went MIA too.. din wan to ans ani call.. liang called, sandy called, wenting called, ze called.. i rejected calls aft calls.. till yanglin called.. .. was rather retuclant to ans, but haiz.. din wan to reject her call.. .. so.. i picked up.. ya.. tok in a beri unhappi manner, but still, i din throw my attitude.. .. i cldnt run off wif tat guilt.. .. i cldnt.. i was far too sad, angry n guilty till i cry n cry, yet.. its of no help.. .. n had insomia everiday, jus cldnt get to slp.. cant help but my mind pictures out the entire scene.. .. it reli bothers mi.. far too much.. .. so much so i wanted to share, but i cldnt.. its highly confidential.. .. n ze told mi 'wen i say to tell no1, means no1..'.. i cant share wif yanglin either.. sumhw, i noe she felt awkward too in not noein anitin.. wanted to tell her, yet i cant.. can she read my mind? plz.. let her able to.. .. let her haf the ability in understandin wat i'm tinkin n hw i'm feelin without a single word bein sprout.. thou i noe, its imposs.. .. its jus my imaginations.. ..

i was so shrek.. so sad.. so down.. .. i acted beri well..? thx God no1 see the grief side of mi.. puttin on a smile still thou deep down in my heart, its bleedin.. .. i can nv forgive myself.. hw m i able to.. .. was discussin wif ze, both of us were actually helpless.. reli helpless.. its seems tat we've reached the edge of cliff.. we cant cross over tat boundary unless tat jerk shows up n tell the truth.. his words r the bridge tat bring us into the nxt lvl of investigation.. we cant proceed on nw.. he fleed n is nowhere to b found.. ..

thx sandy, wenting, aizhen.. thou u guys doesnt noe wat had happened, but i reli appreciate the encouragin letters frm u guys.. its means alot to mi.. thx.. n yanglin, MMS is quite costy.. not to mi, but i noe.. to u.. still, u r willin to send mi a MMS.. thx for it.. n the recordin.. i listen to it times n again.. thou i dono wats the pic, thou i dono wat song isit.. but tat MMS is valuable to mi.. bro eva told mi.. 'wen a person hu always donates, gave his money to u, its nth surprisin.. but if a person hu nv donates gave his money to u, its means alot.. ..' thx for tat precious MMS of urs.. i reli appreciated it.. alot alot alot n alot..

i wana haf a break thru in my wearin.. in my clothin, my outfit.. 2day i wore a mickey vintage skirt, a U2 top, n a zine handbag.. all branded.. nah.. i don go for branded, but i jus go for wat i like n wats nice on mi.. yup.. certain of u may not b comfortable n is unable to accept the way i wear n the way i look.. but.. hu cares? i'm gg for a total break thru for my image.. .. hello.. i'm 18! i don wan to hear frm ani1 tat i'm still a kid, wif the boi boi wearin, wif the ungirl-like clothin n all.. i had enuf.. ya.. i'm fat la.. so? i don anihw go shoppin wif others, cuz i noe i cant fit in alot of tops n even bottom.. but nw i don bother.. i'm gg fot a total make over.. total change.. i'll make sure wen i open my wardrobe, it'll mostly skirts den beggy jeans! more ladies top den t shirts!

i'm still ponderin.. still lingerin abt the incident.. i reli cant get away frm it.. .. i cant slp.. reli cant.. .. guide mi God, wat shld i do.. .. sob..