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Here are the items!
~~1) Itouch~~
~~2) Skull Candy~~
3) Fred perry button shirt
~~4) Watch~~
5) Gucci wallet
~~6) Crumpler sling bag~~
7) Skaters Cap
8) Digital Camera
~~9) Clothes~~
~~10)White shoes~~
11)Accessories (tie, bowtie, brouch, vest etc..)

rot at hm..

Written @ 3:24 PM

sat again.. sianz.. was editin my new blogskin wen ze called, wanted mi to help him get frieda n glenns' bdae present.. is like.. y mi? i don mind doin it, but.. 1st, i don haf money wif mi.. 2nd, i'm not gg svc.. is like.. weird? he wans mi to meet up wif jas, get CG fund frm her den go buy.. wat a news.. CG fund onli left 20 over bucks.. where will b enuf for the presents of 2 person.. iyo.. .. fine.. i cancel off everitin in the templates, logged off.. since meetin jas, since buyin presents, i tot of makin my way down for svc.. we suppose to mit at 2.15.. den jas change it to 2.30.. den 3.. den say she'll rush down asap.. in the end call mi go but myself.. i was reli dame furious man.. is like.. if i got the money, do i still nid to go wif u? dso i still nid to wait for u? piang eh.. i was done preparin n stuff, each time i was abt to step out of my hse, tats wen her 'delayin' msg came in.. in the end i got so tu lan, i change back my hm clothes n msg her, tellin her to get ze to buy frm attributes, i DON WAN to meet her animore.. dame.. if i noe, i jus cont wif my edition of my blog man.. nah.. i went to take a nap aft changin.. all the way slp till evenin.. still rem at ard 4.50, jas msg mi to apologise.. i mean.. ya.. she do haf valid reason, so is like.. .. haiz.. forget it ba.. *simmer down*

bro handed us a project.. makin CG t shirts n CG directory.. seems cool huh? i was rather xcited abt it at the beri beginin.. but as days goes, my passion dimmed.. not as in i'm no longer interested, but is like.. everi1 is doin sumtin.. wat abt mi? i cant drw.. reli cant draw.. i spent everi of my nite designin but yet all rubbish came out.. i tore paper aft paper.. yanglin did alot.. reli alot.. aizhen too.. i noe she's started.. but mi? wat m i doin?? nth.. simply nth.. yanglin had even designed the t shirt for mi.. .. her design is cool.. nice.. i luv it.. but is like.. bro wanted mroe design.. i got no idea wat to do le.. i dono hw to use com to draw.. not even usin hand.. xin you yu er li bu zu.. (got the wills to do it but don haf the strength).. i've check out the price for the shirt n prints.. is like.. the nike shirt looks nice.. tats the lowest i can get le.. $25.90.. include the prints will b like $30 plus minus? its nike u noe? its oreli so cheap.. other shops sellin at $30.95.. yet in the end, bro wanted everitin to b below $20.. i reli haf no idea hw to go accordin to his words.. den CG fund got no money.. piang.. BBQ i pay.. don tell mi in the end all the printin oso i pay.. its not abt money.. its not even the 1st time i'm payin tins for CG.. but is like.. wen can CG eva stop owin ppl money? wen can mems b regular at payin CG fund? i'm beri pek cek.. the 'heat' is hittin at the top of my head le.. boilin point man.. ahhh.. i'm busy.. aizhen busy.. so is yanglin.. hw to meet hp doin tins.. all along i wanted to meet dem up.. but is like.. we don haf a chance to.. even if we do, i was askin myself 'meet liao den do wat?'.. i dono.. i reli dono.. is like.. if dis yr Easter were to b like last yr, celebrated in march, i'm gona b doom.. design not out, shirt not yet buy nor even print.. money not collected.. everitin not done!!! but at least, i'm pleased.. durin the project, there'r reli arguements btwn mi n yanglin.. but bro says 'as a gd leader, plz settle it in a Godly manner..' yep.. i tried.. i mean.. both gave in? :) i'm please tat we noe hw to settle la.. ya.. aft small quarrel, we cont workin 2gether again.. *smile*

liang call mi to wat changin appetite wif him tml.. plz la.. hw many times i told him tat i no money.. I NO MONEY!!! NO MONEY NO MONEY!!! i reli dono hw to scold him.. got money dono hw to save up.. everiday tok on fone.. his is not incomin free lor! he usin top up card.. 1 card can onli use for 1 to 2 days.. mine can use up to few weeks ar! y don he noe the importance of savin up.. if he reli haf money, den contribute to CG fund can? ahh.. i don wish to scold him everitime he calls mi out to haf fun.. its gd.. but wat i wan is onli for him to control his money.. tats all.. the way i see him spend money is like throwin tissues into the bin like tat.. ahh.. pek cek ar!!!

i got no money.. reli no money.. i still nid another $100 for CHEC.. i din reli spend much dis mth.. but a huge portion goes to CHEC.. haiz.. i've nv been so thrifty in my entire life sia..
nah.. cumin up i nid to make my spect.. reli cannot see tins le.. everiday play com.. degree shoot up to 200 over le.. den i nid to buy an addidas jacket b4 sch reopenin.. if not i'm gg to freeze inside my classrm.. oso nid to buy new clothes.. i cant b wearin all my 'kiddin' shirts to CHEC ba..?.. den i nid to set aside $100 for BBQ oso.. ahh.. so much money gone.. 'God, plz throw a huge sum of money down to mi on my bdae hao ma...? plz..'

stayin at hm is killin.. i begin to hate my dad more n more.. seein him makes mi puke.. stayin under the same roof as him makes mi feel like runnin away frm hm.. everiday i hear vulgarities.. door slammin session.. n at times, my hse turns into WWF stage.. sori.. no more WWF.. is WWE.. world wrestlin entertainment.. its a daily routine.. try if i slam my door as well? haas.. sure got beaten up by him.. he can slam, but don allow us to slam.. he can scold vulgarities, but don allow us to scold.. seriously, i rather stay in homes den to see his face everiday.. mummy always call mi to go down to her work place to brin back wateva she had da pao for him.. i don mind bringin back the food.. but sori to say.. not for him.. i will jus take my own sweet time down.. he got hands got legs.. dono hw to go downstairs eat ar?! wun starve to death de la.. yes.. i consider him still my dad last time cuz he reli did pay for my sch fee.. but frm nw on.. he no longers.. i pay for my own fee.. i'm workin.. i'm on my own.. u r nobody to mi.. i don call him dad.. even wen i tok to my mum, i will always say 'eh.. ni de LAO GONG.. .. bla bla bla'.. her husband.. but not my dad..

i had enuf.. reli enuf.. wen can all these stop.. ..

cumin wk i noe it'll b a nice wk.. ah pa (leslie) workin mornin shift.. but on tue, i workin full shift.. gona get scoldin frm lawson again.. there isnt a day whereby he don scold mi.. .. hate him man.. cannot blame tat i always late n sabo his shift.. hu call him so kao peh.. if ah pa call mi to xtend, i don mind.. i don mind doin anitin ah pa wans mi to.. cuz ah pa treats mi nice.. but lawson? nv did i stay even if he xtended mi.. bibles says tat wateva ways u wan others to treat u, haf the same treatment to dem.. .. haiz.. soon, liang will b gone le.. he gona transfer to suntec.. our branch sellin liquor, den liang haben reach 18, so cannot workin in RT le.. sianz.. bel gg suntec too.. kate, erika, shaun all quittin le.. all sch reopenin liao ma.. haiz.. *sad*

ahh.. been havin sore throat for days le.. nono.. is a wk le.. haiz.. pain pain..

ytd aizhen n i make our way down to queensway.. den shop shop ard there.. den aft tat aizhen went to cut her.. haas.. i accompanied her.. cool.. she cut in branded 'salon' one leh.. lotsa of her hair gone.. but hor.. mike n ze say no diff leh.. haas.. actually.. i oso tink no diff leh.. but i was there in the salon wif her ma.. reli alot alot alot of her hair gone.. i can prove tat.. muhahaX~ aft tat met up wif ze, den went to cartel to eat.. waa.. i ordered the pork rib.. its such a BIG n HUGE servin!!! i cant finish.. haas.. while eatin, we waitin for mike as well.. he work in cartel de ma.. he like so shy saw us like tat.. lolx~ nono.. not us.. is saw aizhen.. wakaka!~ i din say he's a gay boy.. but he claim himself as one wen he saw aizhen appearin in cartel.. lolx!

tml meetin liang for movie.. ahh.. its a MUS!!! min gave mi a ticket of free admission in GV.. mus use it b4 march.. so call liang out for movie instead of eatin changin appetite.. cheaper ma..

no1 noes.. but my fav place is actually bedok res.. i luvs sittin there, lookin at the wavey water, enjoyin the breeze.. moreover, there isnt as much ppl as beach.. feelin low, upset, 1st tink i wana do is to go there.. .. but i will always leave b4 evein time.. hmm.. cuz.. bedok res 'not clean'.. .. bedok res is a place filled wif memories.. still rem.. i fell into the water yrs back.. was bleedin all over due to the soild rock hidden underneath the water.. .. wat a day.. haas..

i wan nth.. but jus hopin for a peaceful n simple life.. .. ..