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~~1) Itouch~~
~~2) Skull Candy~~
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~~4) Watch~~
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i'm free? fuck u man!!!

Written @ 4:29 PM

haas.. guess everi1 tinks tat i'm too FREE.. too free to view others blog everiday, too free to call n msg dis n tat person.. too free to wait hrs for ppl.. .. viewin u guys' blog everiday is to update myself wif tins tat r gg on in u guys' life.. .. callin u guys n msgin u guys is to see hw u guys r doin.. facin prob? excitement tat nided to b share? waitin for ppl cuz i feel tat 2 perso gg hm 2gether is always beta den 1 person gg hm.. .. i'm free? haas.. i'm not!!! u guys r busy.. cool.. tink i'm not? u guys CAN b busy.. cant i??? i'm not free!!! but i jus always wana fork out wateva time i haf other den my workin hrs to u all.. understand n noe u guys beta.. but sadly, i'm NEVER appreciated.. .. true enuf, appreciation is a bonous.. but there again, if no1 is bein appreciated for wat dey've done.. u tink dey wldnt b pek cek?? i don mind rushin here n there aft work jus for my mems.. my frenz..

sandy, u gif a msg sayin tat u r sad, thou i say i don wish to meet u, but upon hearin tat u r down, i meet u straight aft my work..

wenting, moet of the time u called, u will b cryin on the fone.. i was at ubin wen once u called.. i rush back immediately b got to u..

aizhen, u always face low courage n lack of confidence.. thru ur blog, got which time haf i not got to u in time?

zhiyang, u r always upset abt lotsa tins.. u don tends nor like to share wif mems.. but mi.. times n again, i stayed up late at nite, jus to keep ur msg gg n listen to wat u've got to say.. comfortin u.. ..

mabel.. used to b one of the sista tat i luv most.. .. we've gone thru so much.. .. thick n thin.. ups n downs.. happi n sorrows.. yet.. we're like strangers nw.. ..

kelvin.. .. i out so much of my trust in him.. yet i got betrayed.. ..

joanne.. i luv her.. .. i do.. but i guess i shall use back the same words she used on mi to her.. 'its USELESS showin concern abt u.. ..'

jas, durin the holidays wen we're workin n u r jobless, everi nw n den wen u're bored, u called mi out.. cool.. i went.. but tink it HARD again.. hw many time did u actually put mi aeroplane.. n i seriously tell u, i don tink tat we've eva went out 2gether n go hm 2gether.. u always left in the mid of the appointment.. isnt it? throwin mi there, sayin sori n there u go, meetin ur other frenz.. jas, mind u.. sori DOESNT cure!!!

all n all.. none of the above name mention eva thx mi b4.. haas.. sum can even say i'm too free? bible says tat everitin we do, we mus do it out of luv.. yes.. i luv all of u.. but my Q is.. m i luv my u guys as well? haf i noe done enuf??? u guys r my family, r those tat suppose to b close to mi.. not it isnt so.. .. thou the way u ppl celebrate bdae is singin bdae song, gif a simple gift, den pray for tat person, tats all.. the so called celebration nv even lasted over 15mins.. but.. yearly, i'm waitin for tat day.. cuz no1 eva celebrate bdae for mi, xcept u guys.. thou its simple, fast, but i appreciated it.. but is like.. even CJ ppl took mi as their family mems.. dey wan to make my bdae grand.. dey wanted all to go Kbox for my bdae n celebrate for mi.. i pushed all away.. jus wanted to go for tat 'simple' bdae tat u guys will b havin for mi.. .. but nw.. i find no means in all tat.. .. sori to say, but all feelins n lus had gone.. .. carin for u guys is a waste of my time.. .. i rather spend my time workin.. ppl there r nice.. i'm happi.. n i got paid.. ..

there's no reason for mi gg on break.. no reason at all.. simple bcuz i find there's NO MEANS.. .. nw, i finally understood y bel doesnt wan to show up.. .. sori to say, but i reli dislike u guys man.. .. u guys can pull ppl frm hell up to heaven, n yet can push ppl down frm heaven to hell at the same time.. .. i wanted so much to go svc, listen to the preachin.. but seein u guys jus kills all tat is within mi.. toleratin u guys attitude n nonsence causes burnin sensation in mi.. HOT..

its jus so hurtin.. fine.. God will takes it all.. *sob* n i'm sori.. i'm no longer FREE for ani of u! even if i reli am, i will choose NOT to fork out my time for ani of u!!! Esther is not free.. i'm jus makin availin myself.. don take it for granted plz.. ..

'Father in heaven,
Hallowed b ur name.
Your kingdom cum,
Your will b done,
on earth, as it is in heaven.
Gif us dis day, our daily bread
n forgif us frm our debts,
as we forgif our debtors.
Let us not in temptation,
but deliver us frm the evil ones.
for Yours is the kingdom
n the power
n the glory forever..'

Amen.. ..