wen tins r beyond control, i let it all go.. thou the pain n hurts r there, yet tats the onli way.. .. it marks a special day 2day for mi.. does it count? i dono.. .. i take it so.. .. i seems hapi isnt it? but deep down in my heart, i'm bleedin badly.. .. the feelin is jus as thou it was stabbed by a shrap knife, piercin rite thru my heart.. ..still rem yanglin gave mi a bu dao wong sum times back.. .. she wans mi to b like the bu dao wong, nv fall.. but does ani body noes tat there will b a day whereby bu dao wong can fall too.. ..? aft all it doesnt stands always.. .. i luv mui.. alot alot alot.. on the surface, we're crappy, rah rah wif 1 another.. but without fail, she always spare mi tat few of her precious msg wen i nided most.. all i nid is jus tat few msg at times.. tats all.. .. yet not everi1 can spare mi.. .. mui listens to mi.. yes.. she does.. ze too.. i felt fortunate to haf ze as my helper.. he's jus so understandin.. ..i'm so tired.. so worn out.. all i wan is to hide under my blanket nest n haf a BIG cry, let everitin out.. .. .. *sobbin*
but aft dis cry, i gona stand strong again.. yes.. my OM card is cumin le.. i'm enterin into a ministry.. finally i find myself useful.. i'm contributin to God n to church.. yes.. jia you Esther.. u can de..