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Written @ 3:36 PM

Personal life testimony

Hi friends, I would like to take this opportunity to testify God's love for all of us.

I grew up in a rather abusive family, getting cane and beaten were somewhat both me and my brother's daily routine. My dad would always make a din over nothing, with his presence,'peace' was never around. My family were strict and we were never allow to go out with our friends for any special occasion, the worse still, not even for our own birthday celebration.

During my primary school days, whenever I was back home from school, I ought to finish my homework under the supervision of my mother, and precisely, that was how i managed to obtain all my As n Bs, and never once I was out of the 'top ten list'. I was chosen as a prefect, buddy reader, science, PE, and class monitor, I was also assigned to be the school librarian. Actively, I involved myself with clubs and sports, but life just does not seem to be fruitful to me. My parents would reward mi tons and tons of gifts over my results, but it was merely the satisfaction of my need materializing, I was not happy at all.

Things took a change when I entered secondary school. I being to rebel my parents and wanting to shake off the life of prosecution, in search of freedom. I mixed with the wrong company, watching the 'movies' of gang settlement used to be one of my favorite past time, yet it was not thrilling enough though. I then learned to steal, swear with vulgarities, drink, and even pick up the habit of smoking too. Leaving behind the nerdy me, i appeared in school with rebonded blond hair, gold fringe, blue contact lenses and with both ears filled with piercing.

Guess I was one of the toughest students to be handled by the school. Flipping table, scolding teachers, staring at others eye to eye in a form of challenge and all. My parents were called to school as many as four times a week, meetings were held with principal and HODs to discuss about my behavior. From express stream, I demoted to normal stream, and nearly was I being expelled. Thank God for my social studies and my form teacher, they are the ones that spoke out for me and have me the chance to continue with my studies.

I had shown great improvement the following year, from passing one subject to seven out of nine subjects. In the same year, I got to know a friend. This friend of mine created a tremendous change in my life. She was none other then Yanglin. Yanglin invited me to church after the first interaction we had, not being nice to reject her invitation, I went as promised reluctantly. I felt uneasy during my primary visit to the church, I was not convinced that there is a God in heaven, or I can say, I do not even believe in the existence of heaven, but still, I went to church consecutively for the subsequent weeks. As days go by, God's love n member's care touches me deeply, it was definitely a love that I never once had. Despite the reality, I refuse to surrender myself to follow Him.

I could then reject no more to their fervent and genuine love in the later days to come, I called up one of my member and requested him to lead me through the sinner's prayer. As a new Christian, there were many things for me to learn and discover. Without fail, Yanglin do her very part in guiding me, not only as a member, but she became my best friend eventually. Someone whom I confide n share my problems with whenever I was down. I was hot tempered, stubborn, showing attitude to everyone around me, yet no matter how nasty I had treated her, she takes it all and continued to show her care and concern. It was her that melted my hardened heart, and it was her that path me the way to God. Perhaps she was the little angel that God had sent to me.

It had been nearly three years since I made the decision to plant myself in church. I had been regular for services and cell groups, and am currently waiting for the admission of chorus board ministry. I am more sociable now compared to the past and had already found a purpose in life. I had kicked off most of the bad habits that I used to have, all credits go to Him, for doing such a great work of having a miraculous change in my life.

I would like to thank Brother Wen kai, for all his care, patients and concern all these while. No matter how bad my attitude was, he never gives me up, yet he was still trying all his best to offer his help.

I would like to thank Yanglin. There were countless times when I was feeling helpless when problem surfaced and when things occurred, with tears in my eyes, I would call her in the mid of the night and hoping that she will spear me her precious pair of listening ears, certainly she did. Without her, I would never have a chance to know God, never have such chance to feel these loved. It was her tat cause my dull and darken day to be bright always. A good friend is always someone who will bring you a step closer to God, surely, she is one.

I would like to thank all the members in both N106 and E376. You guys are the best friends, best members tat one would yearn for.

Last but not least, I would like to thank our Heavenly Father, the almighty God. For He is my pillar of strength, my refuge. Each time when I needed Him, His presence is always around. He had never leave me nor ever forsake me. It is Him, tat I may become who I am today, I can never imagine what I will actually turn out to be, if I have not gotten the chance to know Him.

All honor and praises goes to Him. Hallelujah!