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Wishlist

Here are the items!
~~1) Itouch~~
~~2) Skull Candy~~
3) Fred perry button shirt
~~4) Watch~~
5) Gucci wallet
~~6) Crumpler sling bag~~
7) Skaters Cap
8) Digital Camera
~~9) Clothes~~
~~10)White shoes~~
11)Accessories (tie, bowtie, brouch, vest etc..)

Written @ 4:40 AM

was chattin away wif chris.. he was makin remarks abt bro not lettin mi to go dora's party.. he said 'ur cgl is unreasonable! even God gave man freewill, y isnt ur cgl givin u tat? i made the rite choice by backslidin, church is so controllin!!!' i don like the way he said abt bro, but he made a point abt sayin bein a christian is filled wif restrictions n constrains.. i jus wanted to support dora.. i don intend to club there.. but since i bother to ask bro abt it n his ans is NO, there's no means for mi to argue or even negociate wif him.. his words r final to mi.. times n again he said tat we r not bein accountable, dis time round i did account myself to him, but it was rather a regretful step i've made.. its ok.. i jus wana b TEACHABLE n OBEDIENCE.. .. don go den don go.. it wun kills..

everitin doesnt seems to b rite.. perhaps the centre of my life wasnt Him animore.. was feelin super low ytd, throwin n slammin tins ard to vent my anger wen wenting call.. haven even scold her.. told her not to run away frm hm so many times, dono hw to listen de leh.. say wana cum my place stay, i say ok liao den she hang up my call.. abit abit onli wana run away frm hm.. dono the mother will worry de ar.. sigh.. .. onli God changes ones' tinkin.. i cant.. hu will listen to mi? no one does.. ..

receive a call dis mornin.. haf a news to share.. but its not the time yet.. fri ba.. ya.. will announce on fri.. it sounded absurd n unbelievable.. i cldnt accept it either.. ya.. guys, prepare ur heart to receive the news.. ..

i got all worn out, all dried out.. all i told myself was ' i need an encounter wif Him..' but i cld feel Him no more.. no more.. my spiritual senses got all shut.. i was worried abt buildin fund.. i'm so afraid tat i cldnt fulfill dis yr.. money money.. so many tins require money.. i was makin a din ytd nite.. whinin n whinin.. liang told mi 'papa our alot of money u noe? He's our provision, trust tat He will provide u'.. at tat moment, i was tinkin 'piang.. hu dono..' but my ans to him was 'yes, He got alot of money, but He hapi hapi den throw den ma..' liang added 'He hapi anot oso will throw down de..' erm.. sounded like a childish conversation.. but it AINT ok~ went to bed carryin a burdened heart.. but God reli doesnt short change us.. reli.. He showed Himself up umpteen times weneva i yearn to feel n see Him most.. .. many ppl call mi to leave Him.. but i noe i cant afford to.. let mi dwell in His presence.. 'God, don go.. ..'

'into ur hands.. i commit again.. wif all i m.. for u Lord.. ..'