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the openin of PS!

Written @ 4:28 PM

2day is the offical openin for PS.. waa.. finally.. so hapi lor.. aft so much work, so much effort, so much time.. nw finally officially open liao!!! had lots of fun 2day.. staff were humerous n managers were funi too.. lolx.. time past so fast. luv workin in PS.. =P

hmm.. my back reli hurts mi to tears.. lawson n lucas kip on callin mi to see doc.. tml ba.. see hw la.. reli reli beri pain ar!!! lucas ask if i wana go on court, he'll pay for the lawyer fee.. i can get alot of money in return for the compensation fee.. lolx..

tokin to yu zhi nw.. he's down again.. but well.. wif mi ard.. i'm the lite in the darkness!!! wakaka!!! he got cheered up by mi.. kees..

k la.. i turnin in soon.. 2day workin frm mornin till late nite.. more den een 12hrs.. haiz.. so tired.. tml still gona work up early.. starin work at 10 till nite again.. everiday oso like tat. argh~ but sure alot of money de!!! haiz.. cumin mth i pok ar.. mummy, yanglin n mui bdae.. mui wanted adidas voncher.. den dono wat to buy for yanglin leh.. *tink tink tink* discussin wif yu zhi nw.. pocket sure got hole de.. not jus a hole.. is a BIG BIG hole!!!

k la.. i rlei beri tired le.. zZz..

tat day n 2day..

Written @ 3:55 PM

wow.. JJ's concert was fantastic!!! so sad u noe? he cried wen he sing 'zhi dui ni shuo'.. i bein to luv him more n more.. but.. er.. cant compare to yanglin.. guess yanglin dedicated herself to him liao.. =x JJ is reli talented.. he looks cute, wif his 2 BIG dimples.. he voice is nice, his beatboxin is cool, n he composed melodious songs!!! wen the concert abt to end, everi1 was shoutin ENCORE ENCORE!!! waa.. yup.. he sang 3 more songs aft tat i guess? he ended off wif jiang nan.. i like his last costume.. read jacket-like shiny clothin.. so nice..~ thx God we bought the ticket for yanglin.. if not she reli reli gona miss alot of JJ which was sumtin tat cld b prevented.. she always says tat JJ is onli PART of her life.. hmm.. hw PART is her PART? hmm.. no1 noes.. haas..

a day aft his concert, he held a signature singin session at century square.. hmm.. yanglin was last min informed abt it.. despite she was 2hrs late, still, i rush wif her like tats no tml in headin for it.. wen we reached, hmm.. the staffs n workers r tearin down the stage oreli.. haas.. wen she reached hm, she msg mi tellin mi tat her heart sank upon seein the scene.. well.. hmm.. even if she doesnt say, i knew it in my heart.. .. =) its ok.. i'm sure we'll make it for his nxt concert or even his signature singin session! don b dishearten!!!

reach PS carls at 12 sharp to help out in settin up for the branch.. waa.. so many tins needed to b done.. stocks r cumin in.. frm an empty branch at the beginin of the day, till a filled n complete one at the end.. cant u guys picture hw much tins we've done?.. lawson was drivin mi ard wif him to buy wats lack of, den aft tat still nid to go other brach to collect stocks.. lawson brought mi to maxwell market there, he park the car WITHOUT parkin coupons.. suay enuf.. other cars nv kena.. but.. he tio summon.. haiz.. nvm.. there's onli small case.. oh.. btw.. the car belongs to lucas papa, not lawson's.. wen we finishin buyin the tins, we got back the car, click on seat belt n drove off.. jus wen i click on the seat belt, BOOMP~! accident occurs.. sum1 knock into our car.. the impact was so big tat it hurts my back so much.. i was in great pain n lawson was so scare.. lolx.. he kip askin if i'm ok n insist in sendin me to see doc.. haiz.. bad tins happen aft bad tins.. wen i got back to branch.. seein adeline havin a hard time choppin the beef meat, hence i offered to help.. i took over the chopper , wore on the gloves.. chop chop chop.. was i day dreamin? or m i too tired workin frm mornin till nite? i dono.. but i reli minced the beef meat, together wif my hand.. its not CUT.. its CHOP.. i don sense ani pain thou but blood were flowin n it covers the entire glove.. wen i took the glove off, it was like.. drippin? haiz.. wat a day.. lawson help mi put plaster.. aww.. lawson leh! haha.. cant imagine rite? lolx.. he treated mi dinner to.. aft all, he nice la.. er.. (gif a second tot).. hmm.. ya la.. he's NOT BAD la.. wakaka!~

tml its the official openin for PS carls.. hope everitin go on well.. gona workin frm 9am to 1am.. means.. 16hrs? haas.. don even noe if i cld hang on.. my back reli hurts.. if the pain conts, i'm gg to see a doc.. haiz..

er.. i'm chinese cant u guys see tat? y is everi1 speakin canto to mi? lolx.. tot i wun b speakin canto aft i left RT.. hu noes.. nw in PS got suit yee.. ahh.. canto again.. nw my hockkien sux leh.. still rem my days in KFC, waa.. my hockkien fi li feh leh.. nw? go down stream liao la..

finish tokin to yu zhi on the fone.. sharin wif him abt JJ.. he nw gg to youtube to watch JJ.. lolx~ waa.. haas.. more n more ppl like JJ.. wee~!!

k la.. gtg le.. tml mornin still goto work.. will blog again.. hw soon? i dono.. will b bz for the cuminwk.. haiz..

stuck at hm..

Written @ 5:49 PM

was at hm the entire day..surprise hor? 1stly, no money to go out.. 2ndly, don feel well.. 3rdly, no1 to go out wif..

was boilin water, washin clothes n dishes.. aww.. so nan de hor? haas.. no choice.. reli got nth to.. slp slp slp.. went to take a nap jus nw.. hmm.. so energetic nw.. lolx..

stupid WMP.. dono y cannot function.. den owyong send mi a webbie, callin mi to redownload it.. nah.. once i restart my com, it's able to play le.. but since owyong help mi find the webbie liao, don waste ma.. lolx.. i reli go download.. version 11.. wakaka.. newest version.. so cool.. get rid of my last time tat version 10.. was it version 10? or 8? cant rem.. wanted to upgrade my msn oso leh.. but no time.. haas..

tml gg JJ concer wf lin.. aww.. so excited.. guess she's more excited den mi? but i beri pack leh.. go JJ concert wif her tat means we not gg for sat svc.. den sun haf to go for make up svc.. n i cannot make it for sun CG oso cuz got meetin.. argh.. gif mi a break.. haiz.. nvm.. last wk for strivin hard liao.. the wk aft sch reopen le..aww.. earn alot alot alot money!!! AHHH!!! pocket so empty nw.. haiz..

will b havin a totally packed day tml n the day aft. tml mornin meet yanglin, aft tat meetin dear.. dear haf CG at 12, so once he leave, i'm headin towards expo to meet tai tai.. aft which i goto meet yanglin again for tml's nite concert..

jus finish tokin to bro.. hmm.. he aint hapi.. but it was a nice chat aft all.. nw tokin to yu zhi.. he aint hapi too.. haiz.. haas.. but thx God.. managed to cheer him up.. tokin abt songs nw.. at least he felt much beta aft tokin to mi.. =)

oh.. lin called.. hmm.. tokin to her on the fone nw.. she so hapi tat he alice finished liao.. wakaka~ she reli sounded HIGH.. both of us reli grow alot.. still rem the days of us quarrelin.. haas.. tink back is like so childish lor.. but nw both of us r gettin along well.. hmm.. yup.. last time i do everitin except to pray for the frenship.. nw no longer.. haas.. jia you! we can go much more farther den wat we tink! =P

break my record liao.. whole day nv eat.. haiz.. can i go slim in dis way?! haas.. if can i don mind starvin myself.. lolx~

tokin to raine nw.. haas.. one day i can tok to so many ppl.. hmm.. simple sentences created a tremendous diff.. tats y i always make a point to chat wif dem.. understand dem.. once again i say, i'm not FREE!!! time is all abt forkin out.. hate ppl tellin mi tat dey r bz.. so? i'm bz too.. yet i still can fellowship wif mems, work n go sch.. wats the big deal?

haiz.. beri tired le.. wana slp liao.. tblog for ard 4-5 hrs yet the entry still so short onli.. haas.. cuz i kip on tokin to ppl ma.. lolx~ kk la.. wan an bloggy!~

pleasant day..

Written @ 1:50 PM

met up wif lin in the mornin.. er.. seein her use lappy again? lolx.. had breakfast together den proceed to work.. same area ma.. haas..

hmm.. no up no down durin work.. but i shld make 2day my last day in RT.. bye..

took uncle's lorry to novena!!! wakaka.. uncle kept his promise, let mi take his lorry.. ah boy too! kee.. saved our fare! not bad leh.. haas.. took carl's lorry.. got face sia!!! muhaha!!! oh? y i go novena ar? hmm.. k la.. lin, if u happen to see dis, den u will noe wat mi n owyong r upin to liao.. lolx.. we bought u JJ's concert ticket!!! excited??? wakaka!!!~ la la la.. we noe u wanted beri much to go but yet don bear to buy.. so nw we haf u wat u wan!!! hmm.. sori.. i reli no money.. all i cld afford is the $88 ticket.. i mean.. at least we din place u at the $68 colume rite? haas.. n is a last min tin tat owyong find mi n discuss abt it, so.. no more beta seats le.. both mi n owyong r excited abt it.. we almost jump in joy the min i manage to get the ticket.. we reli spend alot of effort, time n money in plannin dis surprise for u.. hope u will b hapi abt it.. *smile* =/

hmm.. too long to say, so i'll cut it short.. jus wana say tat God will nv short change us!!! weee!!!~

lin went chalet play liao.. threw her lappy to mi.. well.. nth beta to do, so go mac use her lappy lor.. helped her changed her blogskin, dono if she like it.. hmm.. if she don, guess i'm gg to do it again le.. haas.. but i tink is quite nice? lolx~ yaya.. i tink..

nw tokin to owyong.. haas.. still gg on wif our surprises.. lin still dono yet.. wakaka.. shhh!~

haas.. kk.. yanglin called liao.. gg to meet her to pass her back her lappy.. end off here ba!

tired day..

Written @ 3:59 PM

was late for work 2day.. too tired to get out of my bed till yu zhi msg mi.. lolx.. was still tinkin of saborin shift.. thx God i din.. 2day short stuff sia.. even ppl frm MS kana attach to RT.. sianz sianz sianz.. lin suppose to meet mi but eventually she din turn up due to her sickness.. n for mi? my schedule was rather packed 2day.. aft work meetin lin supposely, den aft meetin her goto meet yuzhi, i gg his place.. but hor.. haas.. lin sick ma.. dono if she eaten, so buy food, herbal tea everitin to her hse lor.. call her she nv ans, msg her she nv reply.. tink she slpin.. n i was like.. stand outside her hse? thx God went i look downstairs, ee lin cumin hm!!! wakaka! heng ar~ i pass those tins to ee lin n get to pass to lin.. =)

hmm.. countin down.. last 2 days in RT le.. thou don enjoy much nw a days workin there, but i still mus make my last few days a memorable one.. *smile* palani beri nice.. he's famous in his OKAY~ haas..
'palani, i will b late hor!'
'OKAY~'
'palani, i go hm early hor!'
'OKAY~'
'palani, i eat dis n tat hor!'
'OKAY~'
even the last tin he oso OKAY..
'palani, 2day i not cumin hor!'
'OKAY~'
lolx.. go PS everitin oso cannot do.. well.. as u guys noe, lawson beri strict de.. hmm.. he's nice aft all.. lookin forward workin in PS..

haas.. i'm lazy to work, but workin can allow mi to earn more money, n can save money too! cuz not gg out ma.. haas.. my $20 bucks had been in my wallet for long, had been workin so nv use.. till 2day, buy food n herbal tea for lin den manage to open the money slot in my wallet.. lolx~ din wana return mi.. iya.. is like.. is not she call mi buy de, is i ownself buy de.. nah nah.. don wana take frm her.. >.<

tokin to owyong nw.. lolx.. he's reli a nice frenz.. at least.. i noe he's reli faithful n truthful to lin.. we're buyin JJ's concert ticket for lin.. shhh~ she dono.. lolx~ hmm.. ya.. nw tryin to contact the person sellin the tickets n at the min time.. raisin money.. thou the tickets not beri ex, but its not cheap either.. not to mi at least.. haiz.. hu call lin is our best frenz? willin to do anitin for her.. =P

jus like dear willin to do anitin for mi like tat.. muackz! luv u!

hmm.. endin off soon.. still goto call lin..

back to work..

Written @ 3:01 PM

back to work 2day.. hmm.. so tired.. suppose to work at 12, den tat stupid nelson nv tell mi, make mi cum at 11.. =.=" no choice but to start work.. sianz~ carls got more tins to eat le! new milk shakes n new patty for bacon swiss crispy chicken! hmm.. had a hard time learnin hw to make the milk shake.. lolx~ thx to frieda, she taught mi hw to do it..

hmm.. leavin RT le.. dis wk is my last wk in RT.. gona miss ah mau, soo an, daniel n all there.. aft all, i've been in RT more den half a yr.. got gan qing de.. once i transfer over to ps, i can no longer wait for yanglin to dismiss frm work, can no longer go hm together le.. *sad* i mean.. i reli din wan the frenship to b like.. er.. meet once a wk n tats onli durin svc hrs? its a beri sad case u noe.. haiz.. dono wat more to say..today jeffrey n dominic was there tokin abt yanglin, sayin she beri chio bla bla bla.. i was there 'fuck off man' i mean.. sori lor, yanglin is not meant for dem to see!!! na buay.. beta kip a dist frm her i tell u.. argh!!!

yu zhi was tellin mi tins abt NS.. he say tat if he cldnt enter poly, he will b gg to NS straight aft he graduated frm ITE.. tats means.. its SOON.. can he don?.. he don haf a choice, neither do i haf ani say.. i reli gona miss him.. cant imagine my days without him ard listenin to mi n makin mi smile.. he promised to msg mi even he's in NS.. but.. the feelin is diff.. i mean.. i like to go out wif him, i like to chat wif him online.. haas.. speak of the devil.. he msg mi le.. lolx.. prayer meetin jus finish n he sendin sandy hm.. he everitime ask 'wat u doin nw?'.. well.. same ans always 'online..' haas.. dis is the 1s time i'm usin the word LOVE on a brother.. yup.. i luv yu zhi.. n i did told him tat.. haas.. he's nice.. reli nice.. thx God for such a blessin to mi, placin him there for mi..

saw jolene at eunos.. lolx.. suddenly tap on my shoulder n jump out, showin a weird pose.. wakaka!!! she's so cute.. wen reached hm, we were tokin in msn.. she said tat she was hapi to see mi? haas.. she's becomin more n more pretty le.. yeah..

jus finish tokin to sandy.. each time aft a serious tok wif mem, i felt so burdened.. i din wish to scold her, but jus wana hit her to sense.. we're all there for her, y cldnt she jus understand tat.. we care.. we care! sandy, do u noe tat?!.. i'm all hurt.. everi wound on mi r scratched by their words, their hardened hearts.. nasty words aft words entered into my heart, yet holy words frm mi r all music to their ears.. if dey say dey're too afraid to b hurt, den i hope tat dey noe, my fear r a thousand n million times more den dem.. yet i took my step of fatih in showin my concern.. but wat r dey doin?..

sori.. i don feel too gd.. all these while i've been hidin all my sorrows.. my wounds r too severe but ppl r still tearin dem apart n rubbin salt on it.. God is standin there wif bandages n medications.. his face shows all luvs tat he had for mi frm a dist.. had all urge to run towards him, but my injuries doesnt allow mi to.. i fell.. on the ground hard.. real hard.. bein helpless, all i cld do is to weep like a baby.. .. ..

these r all behind the scene.. hu can see into my heart n understand hw i feel? heart had broken tears had dried.. i'm all numb.. but wateva case it is.. my luv for u guys doesnt cease.. ..

worse day..

Written @ 4:06 PM

haiz.. 2day was one of the suckiest day of my life man.. sianz.. hp got cut of, den hse fone spoiled.. i ma jiam lost connection wif the world like tat.. in diff dimension.. den b4 tat quarrel wif mummy.. she nth beta to do, tok abt christians r stupid.. bla bla bla.. i haf my stand, so i fight back, den in the end she not hapi lor..

suppose to meet yanglin at 3.30.. line got cut off, don even noe hw to contact her.. i got so pek cek.. got stuck at hm.. wan buy top up card den no money.. argh.. but in the end darius n raine transfer mi.. a million thx to dem.. specially to raine (CHEC).. despite her bein sick, she still went downstairs to transfer mi the money jus for my sake.. argh..alot of tins la.. my day r totally ruined..

lin went out wif his frenz le.. in ktv i guess? haas.. as for mi? i'm nw in mac usin her lappy.. tokin to jo nw.. i mean.. it had been a long time since we last chat.. there's oreli a gap in btwn us.. haiz.. i oso dono hw to say.. but all i noe is.. i luv her.. mems r all tokin abt her.. i mean.. stop tokin abt her will guys b? the more u all tok, the more discourage she will b.. haiz.. tokin to her saddens mi.. tokin to yan chen saddens mi more.. esther, wat r u doin to all do? huh? argh~..

perhaps in others' eyes, i m growin.. always rejoicin, always hapi.. for tat long, i've nv dwell in my hurts n pain.. i've made a decision not to.. but nw.. stacks of loads r fallin on mi.. still, i'm smilin.. cuz i blif tat nth is greater den God's luv.. i don haf to pay attention to all the unpleasant feelins in mi for God takes it all.. i don feel well.. i reli don.. 'Daddy Jesus.. u sense it? u see it?' *sob*

my conversation wif joanne had ended.. everitin was so touchin, so warmin.. yu zhi too.. all of us abt to cry liao.. haiz.. at times, the best tins is tok it out.. all of us will feel beta de.. =) i luv her, i luv yu zhi.. *hug*

ming wei nw tokin to mi.. lolx~ i din noe hw to tok to him leh.. both yu zhi n jo oso say its a TOUGH job to tok to him.. wakaka.. n wen i tell yu zhi i was tokin to ming wei, guess wat he say? 'xin ku ni le..' =.=" lolx!~ he nw still tokin leh... i reli got no more ways to entertain him.. sumbody help mi!!!

er.. wats kippin yanglin neh? haas.. my butt crackin le.. still, she's not here.. lolx~

k la.. she's here le.. don tok liao.. she's lookin at the screen.. lolx~ k la.. bloggy, slp early k? muhahaX~ gg hm soon le.. wakaka.. oh ya.. i 'ill treated' her lappy.. er.. <---- she DEMAND mi to write tat.. er.. i din leh.. i reli treated her lappy well.. 'lappy hor?' wakaka.. he 'noded'.. wakak! k la.. stop all my craps.. gtg le.. she's readin everitin!!! ahhh!!!

i'm back.. hmm.. at home nw le.. yanglin said sumtin.. 'if one day u came to mi cryin, i will rush like i did today for u..' i'm deeply touched by her.. .. wen bro asked abt the best frenz tingy, she din raise her hand either.. wat r we to 1 another den..? all along i haf the tendency to ask.. 'who m i to her actually?' .. but till these days, i haf got no ans.. all i noe is.. she means alot to mi.. 'i luv u too'..

'hear the cry of my heart Lord..' *sob*

Fathers' Day

Written @ 3:23 PM

woke up early in the mornin for cell.. got woken up by yu zhi.. =.=" he woke up late, den wana take cab to bro's hse but doesnt haf bro's add.. so.. haiz.. call n ka jiao mi.. pull mi out of my dream land..

Today is Fathers' Day.. hmm.. many went hm to celebrate for their dad.. as for mi? nah.. such day doesnt seems to b significant to mi at all.. went out wif yu zhi instead.. we've reli got alot of tins to tok.. he's a toker, as well as a listener.. a lamer as well.. haas.. so fun to haf him ard.. we sent yanglin to work, den went to walk ard.. he bring mi to thai express eat!!! ahh!!! i don like tom yum soup.. yees.. he din force, but kip on callin mi to try.. i did.. haas.. aft all.. its not as bad as i tot.. lolx~ walk walk lame lame crap crap ard, we went to pick yanglin up.. she headin to golden mile? dono where isit.. but hear frm her was sumwhere at beach rd.. haas.. aft sendin her, er.. not a single bit on confidence, i find my way out of tat place for bus stop.. waa.. sweatin all over.. haas.. yeah! i did it! i found the way hm!!! hurrraayyy!!!

hmm.. wen nw wen tokin to yu zhi, i goto noe sumtin.. rather shockin to mi.. thou i noe she wun react anitin to it, but sumhw i felt sumtin within mi.. suddenly tot of ah boy.. shh.. cannot let him noe.. its gg to b a great blow for him.. haiz.. he seems strong on the outside, yet fragile on the inside.. guess no1 understands him beta den mi le.. ..

wasnt in the mood.. mixed feelins..

in dis 'man-eat-man' society, everi1 is merely makin use of one another.. hw many ppl are makin use of mi, tat i dono.. dis mornin bro ask 'raise ur hand if u haf a best frenz!'.. i stumbled.. hu r those tat i can counted as true frenz? hu r those tat i trusted? hu r those tat reli cares for mi?.. wateva sort of Qs all came across my mind.. i din raise my hand eventually.. cuz i cldnt find the ans to my Qs..

as usual, yu zhi made my day.. past was flashin back in my mind.. still rem i always no money, den bel scare i hungry, she'll stuff up alot of food in my hse.. nw.. no1 does so le.. upon hearin mi mumblin, yu zhi was like 'nxt time i got money, i oso will buy alot of food put in ur kitchen..' aww.. so touched.. yes, money is impt, but money aint everitin.. i mean.. even if he din reli do it, at least i appreciate his effort in makin mi hapi.. *smile*

Darius jus msg mi.. he's nw over his frenz's hse.. TONNIN.. haiz.. don understand y got own bed don wan slp, like to go ppl hse to slp.. don wish to say much oso.. .. hey guys.. aft all, i luv him de k? ..

k la.. i everi tired le.. end off here..

its sat again..

Written @ 3:43 PM

well, as usual, my wk ends had dedicated to God..

was chattin wif yan chen before i left hm for svc.. hmm.. i untied certain knots in him? haas.. he said so.. well, we had a long chat.. hope he noe wat i'm tokin.. will b waitin for his return.. =)

went to svc wif a blank mind n empty heart.. jus felt uncomfortable.. 2day's svc was short, yet a beri gd one.. all abt FATHER.. aft all, its Fathers' Day svc isnt it..? so much so i wana b his beloved gal, jus like wat God spoke off frm heaven tat Jesus was His beloved son, but.. situation doesnt allow mi to do so.. he's jus the type pastor kong mentioned 'is there, yet not there'.. wen pastor kong touched on the story of little gal whom finger got hurt n her dad actually call out to his wife 'hey! get up nw to take a look at ur child!!!'.. tears begin to flow frm my eyes n down my cheeks.. once i overheard my parents were arguin.. my dad said tat to my mom.. n my mom's reply was 'yaya.. my daughter, not urs meh?!! oso urs lor!!'.. imagine both ur parents fightin over u.. not FOR u, but PUSHIN u ard.. nth can b more hurtful den to hear such tins.. .. *sob*

God gave mi the luv tat i nv had before.. so real, so tangible.. thus till these days, i'm still ard in church.. a day wif his presence is beta den thousand days elsewhere..

had a great fellowship session jus nw.. went kfc to eat.. luv is abt acceptin.. yup.. aft all, i luv everi of my mems.. dey're reli nice bunch of ppl.. no1 is perfect, neither m i.. not focusin on their weakness makes mi admire dem on their gd side.. at times, seein tins wif diff angles, we'll get a beta view..

for those tat r wonderin if i'm still wif darius, i'm ansin u guys nw.. yes.. we're still 2gether.. thou we're sumhw on the verge on breakin jus last wk, but don worry.. we noe hw to handle.. yup.. we wun break so easily de.. thx for u guys' concern..

yanglin jus msg mi, callin mi to accompany her on mon to my work place as she nid the wireless internet to do project, but wen i ask her jus nw, she said tat she'll b FULLY pack on mon, so yu zhi, jas, mi n liang decided to go sentosa play on mon frm mornin till nite.. haiz.. usually i will push away my appointment for her de leh.. but dis time round is the 1st time tat i rejected her request.. aww.. feel so bad..

kao.. freakin pek cek.. kena tuah by sum1 again.. last min say don wana go sentosa.. not the 1st time liao lor!!! plz la.. hw many times u wana put mi aeroplane den u hapi??!! if cannot go den say cannot, don always promised le den last min say don wana go!!! fat hope of mi gg out wif u again.. everitime go out wif u oso like tat! if not u did turn up, but half way thru throw mi alone n u left.. damn freakin tu lan 1 u noe anot???!! forget it.. haiz.. wats the point of flarin..

wat a day man.. feels sad at 1st, den feels bad, nw feelin agitated.. my day got so ruined.. *sob*

'Lord, can u hear the cry of my heart?'.. ..

phew..~

Written @ 4:37 PM

went to toy'r us wif chris ytd.. er.. were havin great fun in there.. lolx.. look at the fotos below!!!

knight? er.. hu is he imposin???

he there 'amp chio' lolx~

hmm.. gettin serious le..

piang.. wat a pose.. =.="

my new cap! er.. it aint tat expensive as u guys tink k..?

n dis stupid boy is wif my cap.. look like ah beng sia..

hey! dis is eunice! both chris n her were my best pal in sch!

ahh.. jus reached hm.. went to watch 'slient hill' wif ah boy n darius.. was headin hm frm sch wen ah boy called, wantin to meet mi.. lolx.. haiz.. since he requested, hw can i not meet him? wakaka.. the show was beri nice.. again i say.. BERI NICE..!~ but hor.. non of us understand the endin.. lolx~ its grusome, violence, nude, er.. everitin oso inside liao.. its a show tat u guys shldnt miss.. its a MUST to watch it.. so.. wats ya waitin for?!

met up wif raine ytd.. hmm.. aft which we head for pool center.. hey wait! i noe wat u guys r tinkin.. stop there.. raine din play ok? she merely sittin there to watch us play.. lolx.. chirs tot he's beri pro, hu noes.. .. he lose to darius, lose to mi.. the min i play, his jaw opens wide.. 'waa.. esther! hw cum u so pro??!!' er.. well.. tats by practice of cuz.. i told him 'i used to hang out in such places 4 times a wk..'.. n he was like 'no wonder i lose to u..' wif his face ---> =( lolx!~ m i reli tat pro? no ma.. i lose to ah boy leh.. thou i win alot alot alot of ppl, but for sure there'll b sum1 i lose to.. yup.. haas.. raine ask mi alot of Qs abt pool.. the rules, hw the game goes so on n so for.. mins ago she jus told mi tat she MAYB wana learn pool? haas.. yeah.. finally raine is out of her well!!! opps~ =x er.. i mean.. she's IN too! lolx~

got back report bk le.. waa.. CHEC report bk damn nice lor.. beta den my pri sch n even bedok green de.. er.. tats precise.. bedok green one like so disgustin lor.. CHEC's was in black.. so nice.. outside nice, but inside.. er.. (results) .. i blif there're sumtin beta for mi to chare den to reveal my results? lolx..

yu zhi blessin mi a bible! he msg mi n was like 'get ready to choose the bible tml!' haas.. cuz i reli nid 1 beri small NKJV bible.. den at 1st wen he say he wana bless mi wif the bible, i tot he was kiddin.. hu noes he reli mean it.. we're gettin the bible in attributes tml, but if attributes don haf, he say to go outside find.. haas.. tat day he no money to eat, out of concern, i blessed him 1 bowl of noodle.. nw he blessin mi back a bible.. er.. the price beri big diff leh.. aww.. thx u in advance le wor? haas..

eunice call mi to join s'pore idol? *touched* means she admire my singin.. but dawn.. haiz.. she always call mi to shut up.. nvm.. at least eunice n yu zhi find it nice.. there will always b sum1 hu appreciates mi.. yup.. aft all, we can change the way we tink isnt it? it all lies within our own mindset.. *smile*

i'm havin great headache for a period le.. its killin mi.. terrible.. it jus doesnt seems to cease.. argh~ more panadols may b of help.. *pain pain pain*

it aint early le.. i'm turnin in soon.. shall end off here..

the feelins within..

Written @ 1:46 PM

was wif yang watchin world cup ytd.. he has band camp gg on, despite tat, he came out of the sch.. well.. met up wif jie min n benson too.. hmm.. so long nv see dem le.. had a long chat n went hm aft tat.. reached hm ard 1 plus in the mornin..

wat isit to feel like wen u r bein outcasted? hmm.. the feelin aint gd i blif.. jus wen events r gg on n everi1 was involve in it, dey left u without u noein it.. .. nah.. its ok.. ..

goton back my results.. i mean.. i can forget abt sayin it.. did beri well in compre, yet summary pulled mi down.. din reli do well for chem.. but surprisingly, my chem was much much beta den my physic.. i mean.. my chem teacher was more SHOCK den i m.. thx to yanglin.. she came into the 'rescue work' last min jus a day before my paper..

went to watch 'cars' wif liang n xinli.. pretty nice show.. meaningful too.. u guys shldnt miss it either..

it fit was fast the fe first first time fime tat fat i fi felt felt so fo lost fost.. all fora fe long fong, i fi tot fought tat fat im fim ve fair ri fi cool fool in fin han fan der fe ling fin re fi la fe tion fen ship fip, but fatt i fi was fas wrong fong.. to fo tal fel li fi wrong fong.. i fi do fo luv fef him fim.. i fi re fe li fi do fo.. is fis on fo ni fi tat fat he aint faint con fon ten fan ted ferd.. wen fen tins fins r far be fi yond fon my fi con fon trol fo, i fi let fed it fit all for go fo.. he fi jus fast don fon un fun der fer stand fan how fow i fi feel feel.. *sob fob*

forget it.. too upset to cont writin.. .. if u guys can break the code, go ahead n read it..

stucked at hm..

Written @ 5:04 PM

went zoo last wk.. here wif mi i haf sum pics taken over there! plz enjoy viewin!!!

so luvin..~

watcha lookin at??

jumbo elephants.. *fly fly*

cold~ *burrr~*

shhh~ its slpin.. *zZz*

sweeta~

its dinosaur!!! er.. no.. its jus crocodile..

'mary had a little lamb..' meh~

miniature hourse

stop starin at mi will u!!!

another couple.. ..

haiz.. it jus doesnt seems to bother us..
wat to do? we don look delicious to him..

hey! the cam is here!!! look here plz!!!

tok.. tok! TOK!!! stupid bird.. it cant speak..

woo.. so nice..

er.. it kip on followin us.. shoo!~

there r more pics actually.. cant b puttin all here.. lolx~ but hope u guys enjoy viewin.. aft all, animals r cute.. dey r luvly too.. =)

din blog ytd as i reached hm pretty late..

oh.. yanglin use the word 'pretty' on mi leh.. er.. 1st time SIA.. (her fav ---> SIA).. everi1 say tat i wear until beri nice, beri gorgous, beri feminine.. got meh? er.. is like.. onli dey nv see b4? haas.. n ming wei was like 'enjoyin' lookin at mi like tat.. he kip on sayin 'nice! beri nice! u shld wear like tat more!' n he tumb up.. plz la.. not for u to see!!! =.=" haas~

i luv my mems more n more.. thou certain of their acts n words r uncondonable, but yet, i enjoyed havin dem as part of my family.. =D

havin tummy ache since yet nite.. argh.. its terrible.. unbearable.. .. din go for cell 2day cuz cld hardly get out of my bed.. i curled up like a ball on my bed.. haiz.. pain pain pain..

ah boy called mi out for movie.. nah.. don feel like gg out.. haas.. since i din wan to go out, he came over to find mi.. so nice..~ but hor.. i guess he's far too bored tat he nids my company.. lolx~ he's nw down stairs n i'm here bloggin? haas.. kk.. gg down soon le.. will b back ltr to blog again.. *chao!~*

back! haas.. nw holland vs serbia? lolx.. holland won.. muhaha.. sianz leh.. we sat in kopi tiam den the tv so small.. cannot even see the ball.. ah boy pek cek, den don wana watch le.. haas.. dey came my place to watch tv programme instead.. liang came too..

yu zhi called mi.. aww.. he's reli carin k? was like askin hw m i.. ytd wen i msg him to tell him tat i had a tummy ache, jus nice aft tat msg i fell aslp.. he tot sumtin hapen to mi, lolx.. even till dis mornin he was still askin if i'm ok.. yes yes my beluved 'sista', i'm fine.. =)

jac goto noe tat i told bro abt her n the *cough cough*.. she's not angry.. but thx mi instead.. (shocked) .. erm.. she tot it was liang hu told bro at ther beri 1st place.. but i confess to her tat it was mi.. ya.. to my amaze, she thx mi.. *question mark*

'wen a guy kips quiet, he noes tat he is in wrong..' sumhw dis sentence worth mi meditatin on it.. haiz..

i always blifs tat weneva u r at the lowest pt of ur life, there ought to b sum1 tat cares for u.. yes.. look ard, he or she may jus b by ur side without ur noein.. wana dedicate the song 'frenz foreva' by vitamin C to the followin ppl..
-yanglin
-zhiyang
-samuel
dey r reli the ones tat r willin to spare their listenin ears for mi.. thx so much..

nw listenin to 'instant concert'.. lolx.. guess onli ah boy n liang noe dis song.. y neh.. cuz its a classical song.. instrumental one.. our band did play dis piece of score b4.. durin our public concert? a potpouri of senses.. its beri nice.. i tink onli ard grade 3? haas.. (close my eyes n enjoy)

din see daddy (zi yuan) for a long time le.. haas.. both of us stay so near, yet we don haf a chance to meet one another.. lolx~ saw frm jeanie's blog her pic wif daddy.. waa.. daddy changed alot leh.. his hair especially.. he cut until like JJ hair style like tat.. lolx~ cool cool..!!~ he gettin more n more handosme.. hmm.. jeanie too!!! more n more pretty!!! so competible..~ lolx~ reli felt bad.. jeanie had been callin mi out times n again, but i reli don haf the time.. far too bz le.. she's bz too, but she made the effort in askin mi out.. hmm.. sori.. haas.. but don worry! soon soon.. beri soon we'll go out 2gether!!!

ltr at 3 there'll b a match.. angola vs portugal.. ah boy say its gona b nice.. hmm.. no nid watch i oso noe tat portugal will win.. lolx.. (bias) wakaka!~ to honey, ah yuan, jaslyn n all.. 'ENGLAND wun win de ok!!!' neh ni neh ni poo poo~ GO PORTUGAL GO!!! at least i noe england will die in brazil's hand.. oh nono! i mean england will die under brazil's LEG.. lolx!~

i'm gettin more n more hyper recently.. lolx~ no ma.. its always beta to stay hapi den to b sad isnt it? i'm hapi!!! keke~

kor kor so noisy.. guess he won money over mexico vs iran match.. he nw jumpin in joy.. he jus snatched my com to check the lastest score.. 2:1.. mexico won.. zai zai de la..

wonderin wat is he doin nw.. haiz.. so many days din tok to him le.. actually i do luv him de.. is onli he aint contented.. forget it.. ah boy call mi don tink so much..

ah boy ar! y u always like to pinch my face?! my skin will sag de u noe??? thx God my face not oily.. haas.. u la! pinch till i nw so many pimples.. plz wash ur hands b4 pinchin mi in the future!!! always like to play wif my fats, den say i'm fat.. tell u i wana go slim down den u say i siao.. nw everi meal of mine r corn flasks wif milk.. hmm.. so healthy.. i beri fat leh.. cannot make it.. i wan slim down!!!

waa.. ah boy savin up for my $100 leh.. he promised to sponsor mi de.. din noe he will reli go save up.. haas.. u guys envy hor..? lolx~ don envy.. wateva u sow, wateva u shall reap.. i do admit my ah boy is nice to mi.. cuz i m nice to him too.. hw nice? er.. u will nv wan to imagine mi rushin across the whole s'pore island jus for him.. neither wld u wan to picture the scene of mi pleasin him n tryin all wills to make him hapi.. nv cld u get a frenz like mi tat once u call, i'll rush down immediately b it big or small matters.. lolx~ we're jus nice to each other.. haas.. aft all, he is my ah boy.. if i don dote him, hu will? haas.. ..

waa.. 2day blog till so long.. haas.. i not yet tired leh.. but its ok la.. bloggy tired le.. call off for 2nite.. let my bloggy rest.. wan an bloggy! muackz~!

feelin mixed..

Written @ 3:27 PM

was at hm the entire day.. called liang out, but he din wan to cum out.. no choice but to stuck on my com chair for the rest of the day.. jus wen i was abt to die due to boredness, i tot of habbo.. haas.. i went to sign up n bein playin.. thx God Jeanie was a habbo mem too.. she guide mi ard n taught mi tins.. i nv knew tat online games cld b tat fun.. ..

had cornflask for dinner.. poor mi.. lolx.. went super market to shop ard.. din noe wat to buy, saw milk, so jus bought tat lor..

had been playin habbo for the whole day.. hmm.. got liang to play too, but he find it beri sian.. of cuz la.. in his heart on li contain xinli, he where will pay attention for other tin.. ..

yanglin called.. showin off her rochor tau huay to mi, makin my saliva drippin non stop.. haas.. was tokin on the fone to her.. hmm.. she sounded HIGH.. nah.. tml she goto serve, so.. tok awhile onli n she nids to hang up.. i oso wana serve.. wen will it b my turn.. .. haiz..

i wld reli appreciate if everitin will go thru mi den to my frenz 1st.. i'm a successor in most of the tins in life, but i'm a total failure in relation.. i've said a thousand million times n i don wish to repeat myself eva again, i haf no time.. no time no time.. i place God b4 u, i place mems b4 u.. if u cant stand the way i treat u, den lets part.. all along i've treated u the same.. i'm like dis b4 u noe mi, i wun change even if my hair turns white.. stop complainin will u? i can choose not to meet u, i can choose not to reply u.. its all my rights.. i oreli say tat i'm bz, yet ur msges kip on cumin in, expectin mi to reply.. if i don reply, u go ard showin ppl wif a face of mi ill treatin u.. its sick u noe tat??? u r beri nice, yes tat i noe.. but i don nid a baby tat wine always.. .. don use my frenz as ur block board, its useless i tell u.. ..

n for ur information, bibical knowledge is for applyin, not for showin off.. ..

will b havin a great day ahead tml i guess.. jus look forward for it..

movies movies..

Written @ 4:32 PM

jus to watch 'the omen' wif liang jus nw.. which queuein to buy nachos n drink, i saw a small little cute boy beside mi whom is wearin superman clothin.. i was like.. 'so cute..~' but.. sumtin strikes mi.. 'hw cum dis boy looks so familiar???' i turned, n i look at his daddy.. no wonder.. =.=" standin rite beside mi was pastor yu zhuang.. i said hello, n he begin to start a conversation wif mi.. *so scary* but tokin to pastor is my honour, my privellage.. haas.. ppl in the cinema beri cute leh.. all scream together, den wen the part the bad women kana knock down by the car, the entire cinema clap together.. lolx~ so funi.. aft all the show is not bad la.. but like 'the nun' like tat, it left us wif 'huh?!'.. haas.. no head no tail show.. huh! it resemble the show 'final destination 3'.. ur foto determines hw u die.. .. scray? haas! stop takin foto frm nw on!!! lolx..

liang met xinli aft tat to watch 'bench warmer'.. dey called mi along.. nah.. don feel like watch tat show.. oso don wana b goose berry.. lolx~ i left PS n head toward raffles place to wait for yanglin for her to dismiss frm work.. it was a long wait.. but its ok la.. thru tat period of time, i was in Mount Zion entertainin myself wif bibical tins n listen to worship songs.. i heard a song which was rather cute, it goes 'nth but the love of Jesus..' .. no matter hw hard i tried to recall the title of the song, i jus cldnt seems to rem.. haiz.. bought teens magazine to kip mi gg for the rest of the hrs in waitin for yanglin.. i'm read the magazine inside out, outside in, can even memorise liao lor.. haas.. wait for her till my zip spoil.. onli discover wen i step onto the MRT.. *blush* pai seh leh.. dono hw many ppl see le.. aww.. suppose to haf a proper meal wif her for dinner.. hu noes.. .. she was do excited the min she saw ramli burger.. =.=" n guess u guys noe le ba.. yes.. we had all those food in pasa malam for dinner instead.. wana send her hm aft tat de.. but she met jac on the bus.. so.. felt tat i'm rather extra thus i got down the bus..

its time to b zi lian!!! haas.. jus took sum pic wif cammy.. haas.. so nice to haf a cammy.. too bad is honey de.. but thx God she's willin to lend mi.. thx honey! jus finish loadin all the pics into my com.. lolx~ samuel say those pic i took beri nice? nah.. i'm photogenic.. its not gd to b photogenic k? cuz it shows tat u don look gd in reality.. lolx!~ (power of confession) ahhh!!! i'm gd lookin k!!!

nw tokin to yu zhi.. today so nice of him cum tokin to mi? humph.. everitime so mei liang xin, tok half way den go off le.. haas.. he lendin his psp to mi.. yeah.. i nid 1 small NKJV bible ma.. den he say he blessin mi e bible.. i was like 'no nid.' n he said the same old sentence as lin n honey.. 'cannot reject blessins de!!!' =.=" k fine.. shhh~ get 1 b4 he get it for mi.. wakaka~

tokin to darius nw.. he seems so sian n sad like tat.. nah.. he's always like tat.. dono wat he tinkin.. always sad de.. complainin dis n tat.. he always pull down the atmosphere.. .. *sianz* he's a gd bf, but at times, i see tins tat others don see.. i din treat him badly.. nvm.. i don haf to xplain tat..

got mummy to write the letter tat ms clara wanted.. as usual, i write on a pcs of paper n got mummy to copy word for word.. all i nid is her signature.. tml gtg return to sch n pass the letter to ms clara, den can go off le.. sianz leh.. go all the way there to pass her the letter onli.. can she wait till mon? we're returnin to sch on mon wat.. argh~

i begin to luv mummy more n more.. used to find her so naggy, so noisy.. but nw no longer.. i luv her presence..i enjoyed tokin to her.. well.. i seldom get to see her le.. she step out of the hse b4 i wake up, n wen i reach hm, she slp le.. we hardly tok to 1 another.. but i reli miss her.. tats y i always go wait for her to dismiss frm work den we go hm together.. aft all, i noe tat she does luv mi.. =]

i'm waitin for my ministry.. haiz.. cant wait to serve.. chorus board, open ur door n let mi in!!!

yawn.. i beri tired le.. i go orh orh liao.. wan an..~

in TP.. ..

Written @ 3:52 PM

heyhey!!! i'm nw in TP!!! in their library usin internet!!! surprise??? wakaka~.. shhh~ no la.. cum here look for yanglin.. den she study n i use com.. owyong is here too.. lolx~ shhh~ m i typin too loud? yes i m.. but cant b help leh.. haas.. the keyboard is like tat, i oso cannot do anitin... wakaka!~

went shoppin wif lin jus nw.. waa.. walk frm bugis junction to icon, den frm icon to bugis street.. thx God.. aft all the long walk, she manage to grab herself a pretty nice shirt n a pants.. 2day she so feminine sia.. wear skirt leh.. so long nv see her wear skirt liao.. hmm.. bu cuo bu cuo..~ lolx~

ytd is our 3mths anniversary.. he gave mi a billabong pencil case.. n guess where we went? hmm.. doubt tat ani of u can guess it.. let the ans b reveal.. *drum row~* we went ZOO!!! lolx!!! haas.. it was fun ok.. haiz.. but too bad it rains.. .. NVM!!! i brought umbrella along wif mi!!! aft zoo, we went to watch movie.. wanted to watch the omen.. sad.. full hse leh.. no choice, so we watch the nun instead.. it was quite a nice show.. but hor.. i don understand wat the editor tryin to say.. *blur blur* keee.. there's alot of shows i wana watch leh.. x men, the omen, cars, slither.. bla bla bla.. awww.. so many to catch..

recently nose bleed again.. hmm.. oso dono y leh.. onli noe beri pain..

nxt wk result out le.. don even dare to face it.. yanglin kip on askin leh.. hw.. die liao la.. i beta dig a hole n hide b4 she cums to mi..

as all along i tot tat my classmates r angels fallin frm heaven, but.. dey aint.. i realised tat dey do tok behind ppl's back.. i no longer like to linger wif dem.. wat dey like to onli to BITCH ard.. i've learn sumtin frm eunice.. 'certain tins r beyond our control..' yes.. i understand tat.. i cant change the situation, so i change myself.. i choose not to mix wif dem.. wait wait.. gtg log off le.. the library closin liao.. cont ltr..!!!

ahh.. reached hm le.. went to eat curry fish head wif lin n owyong.. awww.. so nice.. i was like so excited like tat lor.. wakaka!~ den lin beri funi seh.. she help us flip the fish over, den hor.. er.. she left her fork in the big big pot.. she went 'where's my fork??? oh.. i forgot to take out..' both owyong n i was like ----> =.=" lolx~ cant stop luffin..

haiz.. luv is blind.. luvin sum1 is coverin up n overseein all their mistakes n faults.. goto noe dis frm yuzhi.. his words n actions tells mi all.. haiz.. its ok la.. wasnt beri hapi tokin to him 2day.. din quarrel, but diff stand la.. he's sidin sum1? obviously he is.. haiz.. not to b mention here.. .. so.. i shall kip mum den..

i've realised tat i actually don reli noe tins in bible well.. i mus go n read up bible all over again.. memorise verses n meditate on it.. i wan to b a christian wif strong faith n foundation.. i've made a decision not to linger n dwell in my sadness.. yup..

i luv God more n more each day.. jus luv Him soooooooo much.. He is always there in times of nid.. He always hear my prayer.. God i luv u!!!

haiz.. zhi yang changed alot.. he's gettin frm bad to worse.. i oso dono hw to say him.. he don listen to mi animore.. i reli felt bad tat he pick up his habit again.. all bcuz of mi.. nw i quitted le.. yet he doesnt wan to stop.. hw can i do to get dis soul back to the Lord.. .. he's still there for mi.. he still wana meet mi as we usually do.. but his character had totally changed.. i dono wat more to do.. its saddens others but it hurts mi so.. he doesnt wan mi to ask anitin, i do as he say.. i ask not a single Q.. i'm hapi tat nw he's always out wif other gals.. at least he don jus forcus on tat 1 n onli.. gif her up will u..? haiz.. he smoked infront of mi tat day.. offerin mi his cigg.. so much so i wanted to take.. the temptation is reli there.. but.. i choose not to.. beri tough.. reli beri tough.. i mus persist on.. i nid strength.. 'Lord, help mi..'

'take all of mi.. i gif u my all for all of u..
move in ur power
open the heavens door today..
take all of mi.. make us ur lite for all to see..
change dis world we live in
let ur harvest in..
let ur harvest in..'

father day is cumin.. so? i don celebrate.. last yr i bought sumtin for him.. in the end he threw the present at mi.. .. tell mi.. wat more he wans.. wat more shld i do to satisfy him..

i'm reflectin on my life.. wat is there worth rejoicin abt..? merely anitin.. but yet, i'm still hapi.. 'in order to see the rainbow, u mus 1st endure sum rain..' for He is the reason for mi to move on.. ..

Grand Finale.. ..

Written @ 3:36 PM

finally we've reach the last day of emerge.. all the queuein had came to a cease.. i can finally catch back my slp.. aww.. ..

ENCOUNTERS..
its was a long queue 2day.. haas.. i did cut queue leh.. shhh~ it was a coincident? haas.. jus nice i was at the baricade ma.. den wen i walk pass, ping ping was callin mi.. 'ESTHER!!! CUM IN!!!!' i was still gong gong at tat moment.. but the nxt sec, i saw a WHOLE FLOCK of ppl chiongin in.. ping ping shout again.. 'QUICK!!! CUM IN!!!!' she opens the baricade n i slide myself in.. lolx.. so.. was the 1st of the 2nd batch.. thx to ping ping.. oh.. hu is she? let mi introduce.. she's frm sista sheevon's cell.. thruout dis few days of emerge, she had been helpin us in bkin seats.. credits to her..

hmm.. no matter hw fast i tried to run, we're still sittin at terrace.. haiz.. i was lookin out for the rest of the mems wen i realised tat ms sally was jus behind mi.. er.. she's my chem teacher.. at the mid of the svc, she was frozin as the air con was far too strong.. i took off my jacket n let her haf it.. hmm.. ya..

its Sun again!!! Milk too!!! wakaka!!! dis time round managed to capture their foto liao.. lolx~ its reli like a concert lor.. its jus a miss tat i forgotten to take jun yang's foto.. *sigh*

at the end of everitin, we sing 'thats wat frenz r for..' .. waa.. so touchin.. yanglin was like starin at mi..? (wat is she tryin to tell mi wif her pair of high voltage eyes..?) haas.. all of us were like huggin 1 another.. den ms sally oso hug mi leh.. er.. she's not as bad as i tink aft all la.. .. =)

RECAP..
thru dis emerge, i've learnt alot.. bein understandin is not sumtin we can try.. but is sumtin we mus learn.. there's nv a nid for compromise.. all we haf to do is to pray for a greater capacity in us..

durin dis few days, i've interacted wif all the new mems.. is ALL.. amazin? haas.. such an anti social person like mi will tok to dem? nah nah.. don b surprise ok.. i still play game wif dem while queuein to entertain ourselves hor! had lots of fun wif dem.. even for mi n liang, reconciliation took place.. nth can break the hard bond frenship we had for yrs.. NOT U DEVIL!!! UR DAYS R NUMBERED.. I WILL STOMP THE GATES' OF HELL!!! HALLEUJAH!!!

there again.. i cant condone the act of CERTAIN mems.. haiz.. but shh.. pastors taught us to b acceptance, accept ppl hu r DIFF frm u.. yes.. i'm not compromisin mind u.. but.. i'm jus bein acceptin.. .. so.. guess i've nth mus more to say abt dem le ba.. haiz.. ..

CONCLUSION..
emerge is not jus an ordinary conference.. but its a life changin event.. amen..~

Emerge 06

Written @ 4:25 PM

had been queuein for the past 2 days.. so tired.. out of sudden, i felt tat all our HOLY men n HOLY women in our church had turned into babarians, pushin n squeezin 1 another..

we don 'called' to queue.. we merely do it on our own accord in volunteerin ourselves to do sumtin tat others doesnt like to.. for mi? i do it for God.. for i m a servant of Him.. for everi big event, without fail, i cld b found at the very front of the queue wif liang.. we hardly catch ani slp.. reach hm late, early in the mornin had to wake up again to queue.. if u guys say u r tired, wat abt us den.. i'm all wore out.. well, not spiritually of cuz.. but physically.. durin the process of queuein, we had to b alert at everi min n everi sec in case the usher get us to move.. tats the thrillin part.. hw to cut thru so many ppl n bcame the 1st few despite us queuein at their back? hmm.. tats the technic.. tats a skill.. well.. wana learn? queue wif us n u'll haf a taste of it..

we're bein squashed among the 'flocks of sheeps'.. facin those babarians will reli got mi furious.. subsequently, mems start to call 1 aft another.. wif our hands n n legs unmovable, hw r we suppose to ans? tryin our best in diggin the fone out of our pocket, wat we heard r usually nth other den the constance changin of the num of seats.. i'm an easy angered person.. most of the time i reacted n a harsh manner.. i admit.. there's no xcuses to it..

we hope to b the ones tat can take our own swt time in strollin down for svc too.. aft all, hu will like to b pushed? hu will like to b squeezed? hu will like to stand under hot scorchin sun? non of us like to.. but if we don queue.. hu will..?

enthusiasm without moulded characters r nth.. i haf the enthuness.. but i doesnt cum wif the characters.. everi situation tat God places us into, there ought to b sumtin for us to learn.. i've jus yet to master it.. .. i pray wif all my heart for a greater territory n a greater room of capacity in compromisin, understandun n tolerance in mi.. i nid a renewed mindset.. ..

nv take ppl for granted.. dey may seems nth to u.. dey may not even worth a single cent in ur eye.. but u will nv noe if there will b a day whereby u gona lose dem.. ur life will b in a mess den.. everi small tins others do makes a tremendous difference.. appreciate dem plz.. ..

i'm reli beri tired.. i cant hold ani longer.. bye..

Honey..

Written @ 2:53 AM

went work dis mornin.. i bein to realise tat i like lawson more n more.. last time i always tend to find him scoldin mi more often den ani others.. but nw.. he seldom scold mi.. he always gif tat black face, to ani1 but not to mi.. haas.. he let mi play wif his N80 oso.. wakaka.. usually wen i overslept, i will not feel like gg to work.. but lawson is nice enuf to gif mi mornin call.. on mon, i suppose to work.. jus nice, lawson was out to attend course.. haas.. li lin called.. 'hello? wake up!' n i was like 'hu r u.. ..' (still in my dreamland).. 'li lin la!!! lawson went on course.. he qian jiao dai wan jiao dai mus call n wake u up.. wake up nw!!!'.. haas.. got which manager will b so nice in wakin staff up to work? lolx~.. i reli enjoyed workin in CJ.. i thx God for dis job, n i thx Him for the tolerance my manager had on mi.. =}

had changed my blogskin.. spent so much of my time sia.. haas.. a simple n plain blogskin yet brought out the luv i had on God..

was out wif honey for dinner.. she jus got her pay? haas.. fightin over to bless mi.. lolx~ mike too.. she don allow mike to pay for her.. haas.. she passed mi her bao bei cammy.. aww.. cost 400 over leh.. yet she's willin to lend mi.. thx honey!.. muackz!

haiz.. my fone ring non stop.. ppl r callin n callin.. all bcuz of emerge.. argh.. out of anger, i tot of wat bro said.. 'appreciation is a bonus.. its a reward.. we cant ask for it.. ..'.. true.. no1 will serve in wantin sumtin in return, but serve for their luv toward God.. i shall b a faithful steward of God, a servant of God.. no complain Esther!!! yesh.. =)