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Written @ 3:59 PM

its not tat i din blog.. but aft a few hrs of bloggin.. the entire entry went off.. too damn freak up to rewrite.. tats all.. don bother mi..

Written @ 11:56 AM

was waitin for chengyee to dismiss frm work.. din meet her actually, jus nice i was ard PS area, so.. jus wait for her lo.. den we were like loiterin ard PS area till late nite.. haas.. took sum foto..

reached hm rather late ytd, thus i onli slept ard 3 plus.. n well.. hmm.. was late for sch 2day.. din attend 1st lesson.. *opps*

met up wif chengyee again.. lolx~ she came over to bugis den ask if i can accompany her eat lunch.. hmm.. thx for her blessin!!! she treat mi eat long john.. haas.. oh! i almost forgot! yan chen was ard too.. haas.. suppose to meet yan chen onli, but chengyee last min msg mi, no choice but to meet both at a go.. kees.. if not i guess i'm gg to cut myself up into 2.. went to walk ard wif yan chen.. he showed mi alot of magic tricks too!!! wee!!! shhh..~ our secret.. muhahax.. he tot mi hw to do it~!!! wakaka!!!

yan chen went off.. i was left all alone before i proceed back to sch for math.. nth beta to do, but as usual, sat there smokin lo.. jus den, my fone rang.. it was an unknown num.. i pick up, a deep male voice was heard..
i was like 'hu r u?'
the person went 'i m those hu catch students smokin.. u smoke in sch rite..'
i gif a little giggle n replied 'sori hor.. i oreli 18.. of legal age..'
the person added again 'but its wrong to smoke..'
dis time round i got fed up.. i rose my voice 'wei! hu r u la!'
he ansed 'i m Mr SAM! the student smoker catcher!'
lolx!!! CHAY!!! my manager la!!! haha.. i finally haf a stable income.. he hired mi as his assistance to help him manage his documents.. hmm.. i can simply go to office aft my sch hrs, den don reli haf to work till beri late.. told sam tat i sat cannot work, he agreed wif all the conditions tat i stated! thou pay not alot, but i enjoy workin wif sam n brigton n all.. $5 per hr n my pay will release everi fortnightly.. so shiock.. so nw i'm not onli an event coodinator, but oso part of the staff in ACTIVE company!!! weee!!!~

sad sia.. math test i onli got 60 over percent.. still a B.. tot dis time round will get A.. but alot of careless mistake.. haiz.. feel like tearin the paper.. ms joli is always tat motivative.. so lousy she still got write 'GOOD' on my paper.. thx ms joli..

aft sch, dora called mi to walk her to dhoby ghout.. jus nice eunice oso came.. 3 of us were walkin n chattin away.. dora n i were singin.. haas.. hmm.. eunice call mi join project super star? dey all say will support mi.. hmm.. i still considerin leh.. shld i? or shld i not? is my singin reli up to standard? or.. is a kind of disgrace join the competition? *scare* shld ask bro abt it.. den pray.. lolx~

wen tins seems to b out of hands, God will always turn the situation ard.. i reli cant live without Him.. 'Daddy, i luv u.. ..'

Written @ 8:46 AM

slept rather late the day before.. was bz wif the attendence of cg outin.. haiz.. i may sounded harsh to sum of u, but all i wan is to help bro.. sorry... ..~

ytd was the actual day of cg outin.. thou i was reluctant, yet i went as promised to bro.. as usual, the game of 'amazin race'.. i was grp wif minkuan, benny, chris n my honey.. 1st station was to buy 1set of meal each frm burger king n finish it ASAP.. haas.. tats nv a prob to b.. lolx.. jus wen everi one abt to gif a 2nd bite to their burgers, i oreli finished mine! wakaka!!! everione was like starin at mi lor! dey sure tinkin 'waa.. bro wen kai's mem so hiong one ar.. a gal summore.. ..' lolx~ not onli tat.. honey cannot finish her burger.. i finished up hers too!!! muhahah!!!

everi station we reach, we nid to choose A or B card before proceedin to the nxt station.. the 1st option was made by the guys.. waa.. wrong choice made lor.. we goto travel so far.. .. so frm the 2nd station on, dey seek gals for help, call us to make the choice.. yeah.. gd decicion.. i was the one makin the choice of chosin A or B.. n priase the Lord! each option i choose, we onli nid to WALK! its like so near lor!!! other? haas.. too bad.. dey're takin tram n buses.. its like so thrillin sia.. we nid to play scissors paper stone wif 6 person, mus win consecetively 3 times, den nid to play sherates wif tourists, nid to do streets performence n attract more den 15 ppl etc etc.. n the worse was at the twin tower there.. we goton use the string given to tie frm 1 end to another, hangin our clothes, socks n shoes in it!!! imagine cumin to sentosa to hang our clothes??? so many ppl lookin at us!!! everitin we do, it mus b proven by video recordin.. haas.. proud to say, my grp came in 1st!!! *clap clap*

aft everitin, we wanted to go for a swim.. headed to palawan beach.. thou onli liang, honey n i r frm one cell while others r all frm the other cell, we still haf lotsa fun 2gether.. playin games, dancin n had our dinner.. so fun so fun.. jen n ling ling r so cute~ lolx~

reached hm rather late wen cheng yee called.. toked to her for ard 4 hrs plus.. so tired.. tok to her till i dozed off..

haiz.. wu yuan wu gu owe ppl alot of money.. sianz.. payin for 'sumone'.. $400 over.. jus my luck.. long story sia.. argh!!~ nid to get more jobs le.. mus earn alot of money in order to clear dis n tat.. but exams cumin le.. cannot always work oso.. how.. argh.. so fan!!! save mi God.. *sob*

Written @ 4:26 PM

feelin rather tired 2day.. was walkin wif my draggy heavy steps lethargically to bro's hse for cell grp.. reached there ard 10.20 tinkin tat i will b one of the last to reach.. hu noe.. chay.. i'm one of those early birds..

well.. 2day is tai tai's baptism day.. suppose to go by 2 cab amg us.. bro, ming wei n ah yang 1 cab, mi tai tai n sandy 1 cab.. bro was rushin, so he took the rest wif him n din reli pay much attention to the left over whom was sandy n i.. 'thx leh~' left 2 sistas standin there watchin their cab movin off.. sandy no money, no choice but the cab fare frm bro hse to jurong goto pay by mi.. i planned to top up my ez link card n last for a few days wif tat small amt i left.. nw my ez link was left uptop, n i haf no money to eat even.. sianz..

was famished n almost starved to death wen honey bought mi food!!! wee!! honey rox! thx honey!!!

haiz.. God doesnt like ppl hu always complain.. jus like the children of Israel.. God wana wipe all of dem off.. thx for Moses, he stopped God.. argh~ i don wan to b wipe off too!!! beta stop complanin frm 2day on..

took sum foto of tai tai wen she went into the water for baptize.. wat a gd photographer i m! nice pictures i've taken.. wakaka!!! saw my cute cute ms yvonne there.. she was like 'hw cum u're here?!' =.=" of cuz go support my mems hu's gg for baptism la.. den go jurong premises see see meh.. n she added 'hw cum go where oso see u huh?!' waa.. sounds like don wana see mi like tat.. don care her.. lolx~

took ze's car back.. waa.. sit his car feel like vomitin.. reli lor.. he kip on cuttin lane.. den speedin summore.. but ok la.. fast to reach expo.. lolx~

toked to him 2day.. our conversation sounds abit weird.. he 1st ask mi 'wat do u tink abt mi..' den i say i dono hw to ans.. all of a sudden, he ask again 'ni xu yao wo ma..?'.. i was like.. shocked? wif my eyes wide open, i kip mum.. .. tins jus doesnt seems to b the same animore.. n tats wat i told him too..

the gap btwn ah yang n is gettin wider n wider.. haf no idea wats gg on.. but.. tats the fact.. ..

tml is cg outin.. surprisingly, no one is gg.. NO ONE.. everi1's reason r always the same few ones.. exams, hmworks, test, projects, grounded, tired, bla bla bla.. so on n so forth.. i m tired too, i'm havin test too.. if liang n i can make an effort, y cant the rest.. i mean.. i seriously do understand their difficulties.. but all bro nid is jus tat short few hrs.. cant it b done..? everitin to dem is so impt.. but y isnt bro the impt one in their hearts..? i dono.. i reli don feel like gg too.. i'm all broke, peniless.. i'm tired n havin test on tue.. but i can see tat bro is reli upset.. frm his expression, his tone n everitin.. he's always there for mi.. the least i can do for him dis time round is to b there at the outin.. one's presence make a tremendous diff.. i don wish to further forcin those hu din wana go.. no means forcin either.. if i sounded harsh, i apologise.. but my intention was onli to help bro.. tats all.. ..

'Lord, i'm prayin for a miracle to happen tml.. plz turn the situation ard.. take away everi form of tiredness n fatiqueness in each n everi of us.. let all of us avail ourselve for tml's event.. God, u r the God the almighty.. for wif u, all tins r possible.. sharpen all the minds of those hu r havin exams.. help those tat r strugglin wif projects.. u r a God of gd timin.. let dem turn up for tml's even, yet cld finish their revision n projects in time.. let dem worry not abt all their work loads for placin u 1st is the onli priority.. boost up their trust n faith in u.. Lord i lift everi mems up into ur hands.. bless dem, help dem.. open a path of miracle for bro tml.. i luv u n i praise u.. amen..'

Written @ 10:26 AM

went to esplanade wif chris n dora ytd,returned too late thus din blog.. chirs was rather upset wif certain tins.. he doesnt seems like wana tok to mi abt it.. haiz.. don wana force him.. i mean.. he nw seldom cum sch le.. dono wats wrong wif him.. felt so useless.. .. =(

wats tat?! relac relac.. its onli an ugly pic tat my beluved phycis teacher drew.. lolx~

2day had been a gd day.. argh.. was havin runnin nose frm mornin till afternoon.. y runnin nose neh? haas.. hmm.. cuz again i go without cigg ma.. my bor see mi like beri xin ku like tat, den she bought mi a pack of cigg.. blessin of a pack of cigg?? lolx! hmm.. tat doesnt mean she encourage mi to smoke more k? is onli she cannot she de kan dao wo na me tong ku.. haas.. thx pat!

pris was havin unbearable stomach cramp.. hmm.. she's so-called beri anti-christ one.. guess wat she say to mi? 'quick quick!!! pray for healin upon mi!!!' i stunned.. lookin at her stiffly.. but before i cld pray for her, she was like 'God!!! help mi!!! stop the pain!!!' the min she say tat, the pain went off.. she den was conceive tat there's a real God.. n i told her 'weneva u call upon the Lord, He will react to u..'.. she seems so shock.. is like.. a God tat is nth to her, but nw seems so real.. n she shouted so loudly 'praise the Lord!!!' haas.. kees.. she say wana read my bible.. let her read lor.. i ask her to cum to church.. she told mi tat its was fine for her to go church wif mi, but not to receive salvation.. i mean.. i din call her to receive salvation ma.. agreein to go church wif mi is oreli the 1st majoy step she'd taken le.. i'll melt her heart 1 day.. slowly but surely..

Dora cannot make it for tml svc.. so sad.. thou i seems ok-ok wif her words wen she told mi tat she's not followin mi to church, but deep in my heart, there was a sank.. but its ok la.. there'll always b nxt time.. =)

sianz sianz sianz.. 'Lord! help mi in my finance.. i wan a financial break thru!!! help~'

tml gona go for svc.. hmm.. dono leh.. without dora ard, i feel weird.. .. dora, b back soon in church wif mi ya? i'm waitin~

Written @ 1:29 PM

din go sch 2day.. ms sally was on mc, thus, we onli left 1 lesson to attend.. since there's onli 1 lesson to attend, i guess tats the main reason for all us all not to go sch ba.. ..

was rottin at hm till ard 6.. meetin liang at 7 for tuition.. was teachin him math.. m i a gd teacher? i dono.. he seems to understand, but he seems not.. haiz.. i kip on askin if he reli do get wat i mean, he nodded.. well.. i'll jus go on den.. was teachin him transformation.. covered up translation, enlargement, reflection n rotation all at a go.. left shearin n stretchin i've yet to teach him.. he beta not get an 'egg' back again or i'll punch him..

waa.. i bein to luv my hair.. is like.. thou condition is not gd, but is like.. so easily tamed lor! haas.. xpecially my fringe.. gettin nicer n nicer liao.. wakaka.. i can fling it as n wen i like.. muhaha.. shampoo advertisment!!! alot ppl like my hair colour.. but.. erm.. i don reli like it leh.. i mean.. if the colour is abit lighter n brighter, i guess it'll look even beta.. =P

jus finish watch incredible tales.. so lame.. haas.. not scary at all de..

k la.. nth much to blog 2day.. i shall end here..

Written @ 3:29 PM

went to sch early in the mornin for ss.. aft tat geo.. waa.. ms tiffy got us to draw 2 sets of mind maps.. i reli put all my effort in drawin it.. well.. wen everione handed up, i was still at my 1st pcs.. =.=" but it was the most enjoyable geo lesson i eva had.. =D

left sch early for o lvl oral.. waa.. tot i'm all alone.. hu noes i saw mingyee, kebing, weixian, florence dey all.. sarah, jasmine, yanling, n even my primary sch frenz's name were all on the list! haas.. was tokin to wei xian all the way n were sittin 2gether.. we reli clicked well.. n.. erm.. everione tot tat he's my bf.. lolx! he looks so cool.. hw cld he b my bf? lolx.. waa.. guess hu's my examiner.. mrs BASKARAN!!! oh my tian!!! y is she the one?! argh.. hope she gave mi high marks.. she kip on smilin at mi summore sia.. so scary..

back to sch durin eng lesson.. argh.. jus stay there for awhile before lesson ends.. upcumin will b math.. haas.. nth much happen in sch.. aft sch went to eat sub-way.. den meet liang.. dawn was taggin along.. lolx~ we played pool, den went icon to look for her frenz.. she left, mi n liang den head to KFC for our dinner.. nono.. is supper? wakaka.. was teachin liang math n chinese.. hmm.. had forked out all my extra time tutorin him.. reli la.. his math n chinese cannot make it leh.. he show mi his results.. i oso dare not see oso sia.. he don like mi to teach, sayin tat i'm too fierce.. haiz.. if not fierce he where will listen.. .. *sad* but guess i reli lack of tat patient in teachin ppl ba.. 'liang ar liang.. i promised not to b fierce, but u pay attention can?'.. haiz.. tml meetin him aft his band n aft my lesson for tuition.. hope can help him out in promotin to sec 4..

k la.. i beri tired le.. wana slp.. heng tml don haf to wake up early.. if sure lack of slp de..

Written @ 2:18 PM

spent the entire day at hm doin nth.. took over the com frm kor kor.. sianz.. oso nth much to do online..

aft long hrs of boredness, finally got sumtin for mi to do le! was quarrelin wif Darius.. wow.. i guess tats the most sucky attitude i eva use.. i don use harsh words, yet sarcastic words tat enable to make him damn HOT.. well.. hu cares? he don worth my time n breath.. in the end he tried to tone down.. seems so fierce at first, den in the end cannot do anitin to mi so tone down.. i don take tat.. argh.. forget it.. my tone is 'killin' enuf to entertain him..

haas.. i nw tokin to a backslider.. tryin to bring him back to church.. but.. still a long way.. its ok.. focus on Dora 1st.. i'll bring back everi lost sheep back to Him.. yes i will..

tml goto go sch.. in the afternoon still haf O lvl oral.. nid to travel to bedok south sec.. don even noe where isit.. summore can onli leave sch at 12.15.. argh.. dono if i'll b late.. don even haf the money to take cab.. i'm all broke.. waitin for the upcumin money but i've yet to receive.. haiz.. eatin A&W tml.. (air n water)..

i'm gettin more n more individualistic.. i've learnt not to rely on others, but God.. let dis goes on.. amen..

Written @ 3:06 PM

back frm meetin liang n chris.. haas.. were playin pool den.. m i too on form 2day r or dey not on form? wakaka.. i've been winnin thruout sia.. not fun de.. wee~

finish playin den we walk frm bugis to dhoby ghaut, went to carls to eat cuz tat sua gu chris NV eat carls jr before.. waa.. he purposly ACTED in a way tat he's gobblin up the burger.. waa.. the scene beri er xin lor.. he squeeze everitin inside.. lolx.. n.. .. it was captured by liang on his fone!!! wat a disgustin video sia.. haas..

aft which we decided to catch a show.. hmm.. aft much ditherin, we chose 'an american hauntin'.. waa.. wat a choice man.. a lousy show.. no startin, no endin, no content, no meanin.. .. one word, SIANZ.. moreover the show is kind of faith waverin.. argh.. not nice at all la.. liang realised tat he lost his wallet the min we actually walk out of the cinema.. we ran back to search, but found nth.. liang wasnt even anxious at all despite all his identifications were inside.. he onli told us 'iya.. God will let my wallet cum back to mi de..' true enuf.. wen we ask the ppl there for help, liang manage to get his wallet back.. haas.. it was found by one of the staff there.. FAITH.. wow..

were sittin in food court, eatin honey dew sago while chit chattin away wif chris n liang.. dey were real HIGH 2day.. waa.. i almost froze to death.. but it was fun la.. haas..

saw a book in saint bkshop.. wanted so much to buy yet i don haf enuf money.. christian bk again.. haas.. bein to luv more n more of God's words.. bible is nv enuf, but wif the contextual knowledge in other books will help us gain more understandin of Him.. haas.. to booast our faith too! i luv readin everitin regardin real life testimony.. hw God had help dem thru their difficulties, hw haf their life been changed n so on n so forth.. but usually such books cost a bomb.. so ex.. haiz.. i wan money. .. money money money..

i reli treasure everi min n sec bro fork out to spend wif us.. he's jus so bz.. suprisingly, he join us for dinner ytd.. jus a small handful of us; fellowship.. wow.. i tell u, i grab dis opportunity so tightly tat almost everi nw n den, i'm the one tokin.. wakaka.. well.. 'seize the moment' ma.. lolx! bro, i luv u!!!

i'm so tired.. reli reli so tired.. i was like slpin on bus jus nw lor.. i don ususally do it de.. but i'm reli far too tired.. gone case liao.. my image gone.. i slp still the posture beri jialat lor! sure alot ppl lookin de.. head swing frm left to rite, rite back to left, turn a few rounds.. lolx!!!~ diu lian sia!!!~

jus finish tokin to ms joli.. she is always tat motivative.. nv fails to tell mi tat i can make it.. IMPART FAITH N EXCEL! tats wat she said.. well, i am doin it nw.. n i'm believin in myself too.. yahooo!!!

k la.. goto slp le.. so slpy.. yawn~

Written @ 4:57 AM

had not been online for days.. aww.. so bz recently.. rushin here n there for Dr. Rev. A.R Bernard's conferences, sch work, gg for sight inspect, doin admin n all.. argh~ so bz!!!

Dr A.R Bernard's sermon was great!reli beri impactin lo.. too bad i goto work on sun, if not i sure go de.. oh ya.. Dora joined mi for svc ytd!!! kees.. she luvs God don she? haas.. she said she'll b back wif mi nxt wk.. yeah.. i hope she'll stay permantly wif mi in church? wakaka.. den we can grow in the Lord together!!! Dora, luv luv!!!

saw ms joli aft svc ytd.. guess hw she intoduced mi n Dora to her mem?! 'Dis is Theodora, she's my best math student.. Dis is Esther, my upcumin best math student..' waa.. upcumin sia.. yeah yeah.. mus get rid of tat Chris aka Seah Chee Fong before i can get 1st!!! Chris, get lost!!! lolx~ aww.. ms joli n chris both haf the Dr Bernard's book.. n the most giek tin is.. dey haf Dr Bernard's signature on it!!! stupid chris kip on flashin the book infront of mi jus nw.. humph!!!

i jus came back frm work.. waa.. so tired.. hmm.. thou the pay not beri high, but i enjoy dis job alot.. haas.. was chattin was aunties n uncles all the way while one side of my ears r pluck wif walkie talkie's ear pcs.. which means like.. eerm.. i cant reli hear dem? haas! cuz i'm one of the i/cs ma.. no choice but to carry ear pcs.. all the aunty beri cute leh.. got 1 aunty hug mi!!! wakaka~ so hapi.. dis job gave mi the satisfaction which all along i'm yearnin for.. everione is so nice thou we din reli chat as all of us were reli reli bz wif our own stuff.. but.. dey jus seems friendly.. i will stick on to dis job no matter wat.. =)

waa.. Dora attached liao lor..(fits) to tat XIAO AN.. so handsome summore.. (jealous >=( ) i still in my 'admirin' zone.. lolx~ reli hapi for her.. haiz.. hao lor.. nw everitime aft sch, pat go out wif alex, pris go out wif ben, dora go out wif xiao an.. gd game.. left mi all alone.. sianz~.. *light bulb!!!* CHRIS!!! get tat stupid boy to accompany mi!!! wakaka!!!

i finally found purpose in life.. i finally enjoyed all the tins tat i've nv seems to b enjoyin in the past.. the book tat i bought is of so much help.. but there again.. all along i've admited tat i cant go on without God.. tats sumtin beri true.. He's jus so real, so gd.. .. creatin signs n wonders n workin miracularously in my life.. i jus simply luv Him soo soo soo sooooooo much~

exams r cumin le.. i'm reli workin hard.. *stress stress* but its ok.. i'll do my best n God will do the rest.. amen! our future lies within our hand.. rewrite it, transform it, n do sumtin abt it.. don carry sloppy attitude.. lead a fruitful life den to waste it thru.. do the tins tat u desire.. pursue the desire tat u r visualisin..visualise the success u r tinkin.. n tink for e furture tat u r headin..

argh.. i'm beri beri beri beri beri super duperx100000000000 TIRED!!! but nw gg out again to meet chris.. ermm.. waa.. u all don mistook leh.. we nth de.. Dawn was like 'u r rather OBESESSED wif chris huh.. always hangin out together..' wat sia.. .. iyo.. *blush*.. don haf la!!! lolx!~

k la.. goto get ready le.. will try my best tp blog again if i'm not tat bz..

Written @ 2:01 PM

2day is a super duper sad day for mi? haiz.. too long for a story to share.. God forgives mi, thus i haf to forgives too..

Chris spoke to mi wen i'm at the most down point.. he jus always seems 'rite' in his timin.. Lin spoke to mi too.. den Bro called.. waa.. all timin zun zun de.. God is always a God of gd timin!!! wee!~ wana thx ms yvonne too.. hmm.. she made mi meditated on her words.. haas.. guess if not i don even noe tat i've made a mistake..

the luv will nv fades.. my 1st luv n my 1 n onli..

'my first luv foreva u will b..
my 1st breath, u're the life in mi..
my 1st joy the wrld can nv take frm mi..
my covernant.. wif u.. Jesus..'

argh.. feel like bashin ms clara 2day.. she lost the marks for my oral!!! wat the.. so RESPONSIBLE sia.. den call mi retake.. argh.. box her in my dream ar..

my fone nw got alot of stickers.. all blink blink de.. so nice~ kees.. pasted on chris's hp oso.. lolx! he was like so reluctant to pass his fone to mi lor! but still, i chose a nice blue cross n paste on it.. waa.. my fone nw look so gal gal leh.. all my frenz n teachers say tat the 'gal gal' way doesnt seems to b my type.. =.=" *sad*

aww.. i'm so hungry.. haven been eatin since lunch time.. nw oreli 11 like tat.. so hungry sia.. i wan go eat le.. ahh!!! eat liao rest while den slp.. tml still goto wake up early.. oh! almost forgot! goto wake ms joli up at 12!!! mus mus mus~ if not she cannot finish her task.. tml we celebratin bdae for ms joli.. kees.. our ke ai de lao shi! wee!~ for u guys info, she's my math teacher.. she teaches well.. n tats the reason y i got As!!!

k la.. i beri tired le.. yawn~ i go eat 1st.. bye!!!

Written @ 3:27 AM

i haf the same prob as apostle Paul.. its an incredible battle btwn flesh n spirit.. 'i don understand myself at all, for i reli wan to do wat is rite, but i don do it. instead, i do all the very tins i hate..' (Romans 7:15-25) well.. hu will freee us frm dis life tat is dominated by sins? the onli ans is in Jesus Christ our Lord.. a willingness to repent n sorrow over sinfulness will definitely help us to live out tat desire in our heart, n God's grace and forgiveness will help u understand tat u r still luved even wen u make mistake.. ..

forgiveness can chut the door to the past n pain while openin the door to hope, healin ans a new start.. turn the volume of God up in ur life, and u'll start to notice small joys again.. wel.. aft all..our presence can bring great strength to those we luv durin their hardest times in life.. ..

durin eng period, i was called to write the ans on the board for the comprehension.. er.. well.. others were called too.. ard 6-7 of us.. erm.. all of dem got it wrong, but.. i got it rite!!! wakaka!!! my eng is not tat gd, always paraphrase wrongly, but i'm rather gd in comprehension? kekex~

ytd aft sch went to play pool wif dora n chris.. haas.. dono y, but the techno there makes mi beri uncomfortable.. well.. obviously, i lost my form.. dora went hm straight aft the pool session.. but chris wans mi to accompany him for dinner.. frm 7 plus, we can sit n chat till 11 plus.. chat abt everitin.. his family prob, my family prob, abt our cell grp tingy, wat we like to do etc.. i reli enjoed his companion.. even if onli mi n him, he can kip my day occupied.. haas..

dono y, while i was bloggin half way, mummy came out n pass mi a hundred bucks.. waa.. God reli reads the desire in our heart.. i'm dryin out in financial area.. but each time i worry abt money tingy, money always came in the rite time.. cool~ Daddy Jesus, my always luv..~

dis sat bringin liang n chris wif mi for the event trail.. dey goto walk the kent ridge park b4 dey cld perform well on the actual day which is sun.. hmm.. its jus a temporary job, i earn , dey oso earn.. haas.. so.. introduce dem lo.. sianz leh.. goto walk the kent ridge park again.. aww.. been there once n it was rather killin for mi.. the steep slops n stairs r my days n nites of nitemares.. not again.. argh~

n hey! u ppl stop usin 'Oh my God!' can? its so rude..

Jim: 'Oh my God!'

God: 'Yes Jim?'

Jim: 'Opps.. i dint actually mean to call u God.'

God: You called mi n i tot u wanted to tok with me..'

God says tat 'weneva u call upon my name, i will b listenin.'.. DO NOT use God's name in vain.. even in the ten commandments, it says tat 'u shall not misuse the name of the Lord ur God.' (Exodus 20:7) wen we call on God's name, whether we mean it anot, He'll ans.. so.. don anihw call Him la.. like tat He beri bz de leh..

k la.. i goto go prepare le.. havin lesson at 3 ltr.. 2day onli got 2 periods.. eng n chem.. haas.. relax day.. 2day everione got programme aft sch.. sianz.. see if chris is gg aniwhere.. goto tag along wif him.. lolx!

Written @ 12:41 PM

met up wif Dora, Pris n my bor 2day.. er.. suppose to study actually.. but in the end onli end up mi doin hw there.. so.. haas.. dey all haf no mood to study.. so.. yeah~ u guys got it.. we went to shop shop walk walk n play play instead.. neo prints again.. haas.. see.. we're all so swt..~

accompany pris to taka.. wow.. denwe saw a foto printin machine.. dis machine is rather special.. erm.. to dem la, not to mi.. cuz i eva did it b4.. lolx~ we can print our face on our nails de.. alll of us tried wif ONE finger! wakaka..

well.. by rite we r reli hapi.. but jus went we abt to part n head hm, haiz.. ms joli called pris n pat's mum.. tink pat kena scold ba.. tats wat CHEC teacher noe BEST.. lettin students tio gan by their parents.. poor pat.. my bluved bor.. well.. noein tat ms clara will oso call my mum, hmm.. haiz.. hack care la.. i've been rather regular for sch oreli, catchin up wif work n all.. cant tink of anitin tat she's gg to complain abt mi.. nth to b scare.. fear not..

i still got lotsa assignment to do.. goto complete weekly assignment 8, 9, 10, 11 n 12.. argh.. gg crazy liao.. tml nid to hand in.. *stress stress*

haas.. ah boy gettin bored.. nw pesterin mi.. wakaka.. cant tink of ani idea to entertain him.. last resort.. he request to view my blog.. haas.. wish granted! muhaha!~

finally i understood sumtin.. at times, bein alone is the greatest tin u can eva ask for.. i bein to luv bein alone.. the peace is jus tat comfortable n wonderful..

' the gatekeeper opens the gate for Him, and the sheep hear His voice. He calls His own sheep by His name n leads them out. wen He has brought out all His own, He goes ahead of dem, and the sheep follow Him bcuz dey noe His voice.' (John 10:3-4)

Written @ 1:42 PM

went to catch a show wif liang n ah boy.. cool.. liang finally can manage to get thru his 'children' life! haas.. we watch 'ghost game'.. a NC 16 show.. tot of smugglin liang in at the beri 1st place, but in the end he walk in legally n openly! lolx~ waa.. i can tell u guys, dis movie is the scarest movie i eva watched.. so grose.. burr~ even liang n tat cold blooded ah boy tink its scary too.. guys, if u wana haf a shock out of ur life, don miss it.. click on ur seat belt n get gg for dis grusome show..

i've bought a book.. titled 'truth unplugged'.. an useful book for mi.. its a book tat ans all the possible quest teenagers wld ask.. well.. of cuz, dis book is a Christian book.. the author ans it accordin to bible verses n responded in a 'holy' way..

ytd she msged mi.. since i haf nth on, i jus kip her msg gg.. i asked 'i wonder how can u always b so cheerful, so hapi always.. ..' .. she's reli the bubblish kind tat enable us to lift our mood together wif her.. cool.. her ans shocked mi.. she replied.. 'den i wonder hw can u always b so moody n unhapi.' wow.. dis sentence of hers struck mi down.. it makes mi meditate on her words again n again.. it jus seems so revelational to mi.. but at the same time, i wrote in return 'cuz i m burdened.. a person without ani load will tends to b hapier..' she call mi to b as hapi as her, smile always.. haas.. i hope i cld, but even tat simple smile requires lots of effort n courage.. it mus b sumtin frm the inner of mi tat flows out.. ..

m i a introvert or m i an extrovert? aft much tinkin, i'm none.. i'm not shy, not intimidated kind.. but neither m i those beri outgg ones.. i don take initiative to tok to others.. n usually, i do threw sum attitude at ppl whom i don reli noe well.. wat kind of characteristic m i holdin? i m unsure too.. wats more of lettin others understand mi. ..

'God is a father to the fatherless, a defender to the widows, is a God in his holy dwellin. God set the lonely in families, he leads forth the prisoner wif singin..' (Ps 68:5-6) 'b merciful, sympathetic, tender, responsive and compassionate even as ur Father is..' (Luke 6:36) u always haf a Father u can turn to in God.. God luvs us.. He is proud of mi n He wants the best for mi.. n wen i noe i haf a luvin Heavenly Father, it's abit easier to lower my expectation for a less den perfect dad.. .. a heart of forgivin.. i m still learnin.. ..

wat cums out frm the mouth starts in the heart.. am i angry wif sumtin? am i bitter? do i haf sum unresolved personal conflict inside tat jus cums out of my mouth?.. if i had garbage in my heart, it was gg to cum out in my speech.. if Jesus were to listen to my conversation, wat wld He say abt it? sumtimes language issues stem frm a desire within us to 'power up' on ppl by usin language. we lie to ourselves n tell ourselves tat 'big bad words' r gg to communicate to the world tat 'i m a big bad person not to b messed with'.. all these shld lay before God.. haiz.. 'out of the fullness, the overflow, the superabundance of the heart the mouth speaks.' (Matt 12:34)

Lord, untie the knot in my heart.. hear my cry.. ..

Written @ 1:20 PM

each stroke down indicates of accumulations in mi.. its nv pain.. cuz e heart is more pain den e hand.. i will stop onli wen i felt the pain physically, cuz by den the pain in my heart had cease.. ..

back to normal.. startin all my rara'ration wif my frenz.. reli luv pat n dora.. dey're my best pal.. went to took neo print wif dem.. er.. the neo prints look gd! er.. provided without sandra's face.. >.<

toked to yvonne.. hmm.. i felt gd tokin to her.. well.. a christian aft all.. she's nice.. but too bad, aint my click..

2day geo project due date.. waa.. i goto present.. er.. dono if i did well, but.. sumhw i tink i caught no1's attention.. .. well.. i luv my grp.. we seems not workin 2gether, yet everitin is actually doin it.. raine n dora do the slides n den combine.. jeanie do the brochures.. as for mi.. er.. i present.. everitin was well done.. a pat for everione! thump up!

tml workin, gona wake up early.. hw will the job b like? hmm.. i'll blog again to kip u guys inform..

as a bad bad bad expressor, i've misinterpretated myself times n again to create unecessary conflicts.. its ok.. nv will such tins happen ani more.. .. not ani more.. ..

downloadin all ang mo songs nw.. dono y all of a suddenly fond of ang mo songs.. so nice.. jus so nice..

pris's fav quotation.. 'i feel like dyin'.. haas.. we always get her to change to sumtin beta.. but guess, i nid tat more den her.. ..

pat is a young entrepreneur.. did i spell wrongly? haas.. she hand crafted her own necklace n ear ring for sale.. super duper nice lo.. intended to help her out.. i will help her publish online n in webbie, den will showcase sum foto oso.. if u guys like ani of the design, plz let mi noe.. thx.. its reli nice, for sure no1 is gona haf the same as u cuz she do it herself for onli 1 design each! plz take a look at
http://amberjewels.blogspot.com .. thx alot..

Written @ 1:56 PM

haf u guys eva wonder.. wat if u die at dis beri moment.. did u actually live life to ur fullest? n wat if u die, will ppl ard u den realised tat u once existed..? will dey b weepin? or will dey b rejoicin..? no one will eva noe the ans to all these question, till the day dey die.. ..

i hated everione.. yes, everione.. .. their character, their attitude, their everitin.. the reason for mi pickin on everi of their flaws is simple.. cuz i hated myself more den i hated dem.. ..

i enjoyed everi moment spend wif dora n pat.. dey jus wash all my blues away.. church is my hm, a place tat is so comfy.. but y isit so hard for mi to enjoy gg church?? y isit so hard for mi to haf fun wif my mems jus like havin fun wif my frenz?? for the bad corrupts the gd.. nw i understand y.. dey had jus drifted away jus as i do..

i had found a job.. dis is a job aft much prayin.. blif tat its reli a gd one time is flexible, superior is gd, tasks is enjoyable.. too bad gona clash wif cell.. gg for fri cell n sun svc.. like tat will haf lesser interaction..

i rejected OM frm bro.. no means takin it, yet still cont wif the sucky attitude n lousy character.. but bro insisited in givin mi.. the min laws in bible means nth to u, tats the beri min all ur passion die off.. ..

the fire in mi had died off ages n decades ago.. dis time round the fall is too severe, i cldnt get myself up.. not animore..

God is gd, all the time.. all the time, God is gd.. i don deny tat.. each time i nided Him most, he's always there to comfort mi.. God, i luv u.. .. u've nv leave mi nor forsake mi.. i nid u.. sob~

guess its time oreli.. ..

Written @ 1:52 PM

woke up rather late for cell grp outin.. din reli rush, cuz i noe other mems will b even later den mi.. yup.. bro late onli reach at ard 1 plus while we actually suppose to meet at 11.30.. but nevertheless, still wana thx bro for the meal.. kenner roger was nice.. especially the macaroni cheese.. yum yum~

head straight to kallang to meet yang n lin.. haas.. all of us red red de.. not on us.. is the entire area filled wif 'red ants'!!! lolx~ the NDP was fun.. wif the goody bags n all.. everi single credit goes to liang's bro.. neither liang nor mi haf the ticket for NPD, but his bro was doin guardman, he help us thru de.. haas.. so nice of him.. actually cannot haf the goody bag one.. but he got for us too.. waaa.. the fire works captivated our attention.. so nice.. dis yr is the last yr usin national stadium to celebrate national day le.. aww.. national stadium gona demolish liao.. n tats the reason y i went for it!!! haas.. *memorable* before the NDP starts, i reli don feel well leh.. i almost vomited.. i kept quiet despite dey were tokin to mi, n i was like 'God God, take all the discomfort away.. plz plz..' waa.. the nxt min i knew i'm perfectly fine oreli!!! Praise the Lord!!!

waa.. aft the NDP, the place was jam packed wif ppl.. roads were all blocked, lotsa police too.. had such a hard time squeezin our way thru.. we're like a train, i hold on to lin, yang hold on to mi, liang hold on to him.. haas.. jus in case ani of us got lost.. landed up at ajunied.. hmm.. den the bus oso beri pack.. haiz.. no choice but to walk down to paya lebah n to proceed hm frm there..

tml so many ppl havin holiday.. too bad not for chec.. still goto go sch tml.. o lvl reli beri soon, jus ard the corner onli.. ahhh.. goto buck up! jia you jia you jia you!!!

Written @ 3:52 PM

life is nv meaningful.. its nv fair.. i threw attitude at ms tiffy 2day.. dont mean it, but she jus refuse to listen to mi nor to b understandin.. i shouted at her infront of the whole lots of ppl outside the cafe.. well.. she wanted to see mi aft lesson.. fine.. surprisingly, she din scold mi.. she saw the scar on my hand, askin in concern abt wat had happened.. i'm jus like the me wen i first step into church.. i din tell her anitin, neither did i bother to take a look at her.. she has got no choice, but to let mi go.. .. she got all tins rite.. true enuf, its due to tat incident.. true enuf, i'm angry wif myself.. true enuf, i hated life.. she jus got everitin rite.. its onli mi, tat refuse to admit anitin she said.. .. she ask mi hu haf i seek help? or did i eva share my stuff wif anione? i dithered, hesitated.. nope.. cuz i've yet to find the one.. aft all, 'we live in an imperfect world'.. she said it..

ytd watched Dragon Tiger gate n click.. reli great.. click is a MUS WATCH show.. cool~ i mean.. its a show tat is funi n it brought moral to us thru the entire show.. guys, those of u tat haven watch it, plz go n catch tat! don miss it!!!

lost my wallet ytd.. piang.. is like.. i got so panicked.. i run back to the place i lost is as fast as my legs cld carry mi.. ths God.. the staff found it, dey return to mi.. argh.. my ic, my money everitin was still inside.. praise the Lord!!!

aft sch went to watch lake hse wif liang.. waaa.. its was such a long-winded show.. sianz sia.. but aft all it was quite a nice show wif gd story line n content..

aft movie i met all the church ppl.. bro adriel, sis xin yee, sis charmine, bro cheng jun n all.. lolx.. was tokin to dem n walkin together wif dem.. cldnt blif tat i'm surrounded by all of dem.. like a dream sia.. as usual wen we parted, sis charmine ended wif 'bye sweetie!'.. burrr~ lolx~

tml havin lunch wif bro n the rest.. don feel like gg, but bro say he gona pay for mi.. its nv abt the money.. but my heart jus isnt there.. i don like MS.. i hated MS.. yet the place dey chose was MS.. wat if.. i saw dem.. 2gether hand in hand.. wat wld my reaction b.. .. i don like tat place.. i don like a place tat filled wif memories..

life is jus gettin meaningless.. wat more can i do.. ..

Written @ 11:15 AM

reached hm frm church anniversary.. everitin was great.. till last part.. wen the balloons started to fall n everi1 was like burstin it.. damn childish.. yeah.. its sounds stupid, but i reli do scare of balloons.. to wat xtend? u guys can nv imagin.. i was throwin attitde n left without a word aft the svc.. if i don leave, tear mite jus flow.. not tat i'm hurt or anitin.. but.. the balloons.. .. no1 ask for mi, neither do i bother to xplain wat happened..

i tell u.. there's sum1 in the cell whom i use the word HATE.. i reli hated tat person so much man.. lazy to queue, do no help to the cell, call tat person to stand in position in case our seats got taken away, MF, tat bloody person tiao mi.. so much so i was wanted to say rite to tat sicko 'if u don like dis cell, jolly well LEAVE!!! no1 will hold u back!!! i don fancy mems like u!!!'..

my love 2ward the Lord r regainin, yet my love for mems r decreasin.. i enjoyed gg church, listen to the sermon, praise n worship, but the last tin i wld eva wan was to fellowship.. thus, i'm actually tryin to look for a job tat occupy all my wks days n includin sat, so tat i can go for sun svc without joinin cell..

liang n i queue at ard 4 2day.. instead of thxin us for bookin the seats, all of dem were like 'waaa.. y mus cum so early sia..' tat kind.. den still haf to see the bloody hell face.. *PUI PUI!!*

there's a feel of sourness in my heart.. the pain, the hurt, the sourness cld b felt by none of u.. no matter hw i pray, the sour feelin is still there.. i'm just a gd mems.. i'll gif OM up.. cuz.. i doesnt even fit to own it..

the hardest part of life is not to haf a break thru in ur spiritual lvl or even recuperatin ur spiritual lvl.. the hardest was to MAINTAIN IT.. first time.. first time eva in my life tat i've use such a long period of time, the burden in mi were still yet to b relieve.. jus bcuz of tat one particular incident, it struck my hard build spiritual life all these yrs.. .. n no matter hw hard i've tried, i'm still way back before wat i m n the past..

castin all my fear, all my pain, hurts n burden upon Him.. i jus entrust Him wif my life..

wat to say..

Written @ 3:44 PM

Fri was the 1st day of FOP.. i din go sch.. went to queue instead.. i dono if dis is rite.. but all i noe is if i'm not gg to queue, liang will b all alone qiongin for seats.. well.. 'victory shall go by FORCE'.. sis sheevone teach mi de.. yup.. go.. i'm sori for those tat i've grab ur seats by force, but.. tats the way it is.. .. FOP was great.. tink it was beta den last yr.. especially wen Don moen came dis yr.. cool.. he's handsome, charming, holy n talented.. haas..

2day went to sch early in the mornin, had oral.. piang.. so chiken lor.. easy.. haas.. aft tat went shoppin wif dawn.. she went to meet sharon n siew ting n i went to meet pat n pris for dora's party.. bought dora a ripcurl shirt.. waa.. cost mi a bomb.. but i reli tink tat the shirt suits her, n most imptly, thxin her in teachin mi math, makin math an interestin sub for mi to master.. so.. its all worth it.. had a hard time lookin for her hse.. landed property ma.. lolx~ den guess wat?! the min a dog frm a certain unit bark, pat n pris scream as thou there's no tml n run as fast as their legs cld carry dem.. =.=" erm.. for u guys info, the gate was locked, so its near to imposs for the dog to run out.. argh~ haas.. had great fun over at her place.. lotsa food.. aww.. so full.. her uncle is soooo CUTE!!! lolx~ we peng the food 2gether, den tok n tok.. wakaka.. dora so gorgous 2day lor!!! so pretty.. wif tat esprite tube top n a colourful skirt, curl her hair summore.. reli reli beautiful.. kip it up babe!!! flaunt ur figure!!! wooo!!!~

opps.. i got praise by pris.. haas.. not say i bhb.. but is like.. erm.. y everione like mi so much? m i reli tat nice? lolx~ everione say i'm neutral.. pris hated CHC ppl.. but she jus fond of mi.. haas.. she said tat i'm diff frm other christians? for the gd or for the bad? lmao~ haas.. i got wat she mean.. i mean.. i don present myself as a christian infront of dem, but jus a normal frenz.. sumone hu will gif dem a helpin n supportin hand wen dey nided most.. yes.. tat hand belongs to mi.. =)

i'm oreli so tired aft a long day, yet cannot slp.. aww.. meetin liang in ard an hr or 2.. gg to queue for church 17th anniversary.. early? yes.. i don deny its reli far too early.. but i reli cannot afford to sit far away frm the stage, i wan my mems to haf gd seats.. *yawnz* eyes closin le.. ahhh!!! cannot slp!!!

a gd day..

Written @ 3:02 AM

er.. pon ss lesson 2day.. sianz sia.. ms yvonne lesson i oreli givin attitude le, cant imagine if i stayed for ms esther lesson.. argh.. ytd EVERI lesson we're like havin test lo.. so sianz.. eng got compre test.. den math got satistic test. phy got electromagnetic test.. even ss oso got test.. piang.. cant take it le.. don feel like gg at all, thus, end up all of us pon lesson n go out eat..

haas.. we're bitchin again.. dis time round wif Chris ard.. lolx.. the onli guy.. opps.. sori.. he's our sista oso!!! muhahahaa..~ went to food court to eat, sat down n bitch for 1-2hrs.. waa.. Pris got alot to say sia.. we're all like listenin lo.. lolx~ met my eye candy.. he was helpin O sch to distribute hand cards.. haas.. he came over to say hi, n issue mi one card oso.. not he give mi leh.. is Levin.. aww.. but i'm still hapi tat i saw him!!! weee!!!!~

aft tat Pris n Pat nid to rush hm, den left mi, Dora n Chris.. Dora oso nid to go back sch at 7.30 for tuition, so.. well.. wat to do? all i left is Chris.. haas.. i sounded so mian qiang like tat.. wakaka.. guess where we went? we head to the memorial war there.. waa.. got water n all, the lightin so nice, so comfy.. but er.. y him? lolx.. waa.. the nxt place we go to more shiok sia.. we went esplande roof top!!! so romantic!!! the scenary soooo nice~ there again.. y him??? haas.. he stayed there for quite long before we decided to leave.. haas.. had alot of toks wif Chris.. aft all.. hmm.. he's quite emo n sedimental as well..

waa.. i reli reli reli got no more money sia.. i was rather touched wen Pris n Dora bought mi my luch without my noein.. haas.. *touched touched* i'm reli so broke.. honey abt to transfer mi money dis mornin.. heng ar! i wake up den i saw mummy kiap the stack of money at the same old place! MY ALLOWANCE!!!! !!! yeah!!! she finally give mi le.. yahooo!!!~

i'm been prayin everiday.. prayed for my frenz, my sch work, financial break thru, relationship wif my mum, n of cuz a gd jod wif a gd manager n colleuges.. pray pray pray.. trustin Him wif everi single tins in my life.. God is a gd God.. reli.. He'll nv leave us nor forsake us.. neither will he short change us.. almost everi single prayer, he ansed.. yes.. mummy tok to mi le.. she oso gave mi my allowance.. n thru online, i've found a event coordinator job.. hmm.. dono if i can get the job, but the person is like callin mi oreli? haas.. wateva i prayed for, it all came to pass.. God is jus so wonderful.. i luv Him.. Praise the Lord.. *hug hug*

ltr got FOP.. meetin liang at 2 plus.. nw 12 plus le.. i still goto go bugis buy tins.. k la.. i'll stop here..

sumtin within

Written @ 4:00 PM

eng lesson 2day was sumhw diff.. ms clara jus went thru comprehension wif us, aft which the entire class was makin a din, wantin to play game.. lolx.. well.. aft all, ms clara is so ANG MO EDUCATED, n as xpected, she suggested hang man.. *sianz~* i'm like.. 'waa piang.. sianz.. ani more intrestin game? i rather we play pictionary lor..'.. hu noes dis casual remarks of mine cuz the whole class to voice out in playin pictionary.. poor ms clara, no choice but to give in to us.. had a great time there.. lolx.. eunice drew 'the hereen'.. piang.. all so cartoon sia.. no one can guess her so called BANK, BALCONY, BUILDIN n all lor.. wakaka..

super angry 2day.. lesson suppose to start at 3 in the afternoon.. den Dora msg mi ytd nite to say wana meet early at 1 to do project.. fine.. tot can slp till like 11 plus, the sun shines on my butt before i wake up.. hu noes early in the mornin at 7 plus tat owyong chan loong msg mi!!! argh!!!~ feel like strunglin him sia.. was suppose to meet Dora, Zan, Raine n Jeanie for project as planned.. SO GOOD of dem.. i step out of my hse le, on my way, n yet ALL of dem r still at hm.. waited for Dora ard an hr.. aft which both of us went to meet Zan.. Raine n Jeanie more pro.. wen we meet, dey're still at orchard EATIN.. cool man.. let us wait for 2 hrs in the end still haven turn up.. fine den.. we say aft sch den cont wif the project.. aft sch Raine n Jeanie din even wan to stay back. piang.. don even noe hw to say dem.. i got freakin pissed off lor..

Dora came tat tin.. n gosh.. the pants kena 'chilli sauce'.. the best tin is.. aft askin everione, no one has a pad.. =.=" well.. i don carry one as well.. but.. i do haf a tampon.. too bad she doesnt noe hw to use.. haas.. tryin all her will to stuff it in yet still cannot go in.. LMAO~ den she walk majiam like duck like tat .. lolx! in the end last resort was to go 7-eleven to buy a pack of pad.. wakaka~! funi sia~.. tats her 'emergency case'..

reach hm, eat maggie mee.. everiday was like eatin maggie mee like tat.. no money jiu shi zhe yang de.. eat eat den watch watch tv.. waa.. mummy came hm super early.. n.. i hasnt been tokin to her since the day she smashed my com.. but there again, everiday in my QT i did pray for her n abt our tins.. haas.. finally wen she came hm 2day, she bought mi ba zhang sia.. so hapi~ thou she din spout a word, but i noe she had took the initiative oreli.. thx mummy!~

yan ning broke up wif soo an le.. he's like super duper sad lo.. msg mi den sound like wana die like tat.. don even noe hw to console him.. aft all, we're both on the same boat.. summore his bdae cumin, den such tins happen.. y cant ppl jus learn hw to cherish.. everi1 is like takin relationship so lightly.. damn idiot lor.. freak la!!!

lookin forward for soo an bdae.. sure all the carls ppl gg de.. he wana go kbox.. iya.. can predict de sure buy alot of beer de.. it had been a long time since i last drink till shuang.. dis time round reli mus finish everitin.. drink drink drink!!!!~ YAMMMMMMM SEEHHHHHHHHHH!!!!~ BOTTOM UP!!!!~ everione so bu kai xin.. jus drink ar!!!! !!! !!!

big events cumin again.. dis fri is FOP.. i cannot Q as i haf lessons till evenin, n well.. i don bother to Q either.. sat i'm not gg, got oral in sch, den i promised Dora to go her bdae party.. den sun.. er.. yaya.. hu call mi to b free on sun? so.. guess haf to go for all session.. last like yr like tat.. we Q at 4.. dis yr guess i'm doin the same ba.. sick of Q'in.. even christian oso so kiasu, so lack of dicipline.. horrible man.. ..

i'm gettin back on track again.. everitin is back to normal, but i'm jus like a walkin zombie.. i'm dead alive.. all the passion gone.. wateva i do, i'm doin it luke warmly n wif no interest.. i don gif a damn to anitin at all.. tats life.. admit it.. live it..

wif all the backache, i'm still doin n masterin the freeze.. ronald showed mi how.. wa.. he do till ma jiam so easy like tat.. den wen its my turn.. waa.. i don even haf eyes to see.. don worry.. i'm still tryin.. i blif i can do it de!!!

cravin for KFC.. i wana eat the chicken chop.. but.. i got no money.. i don even noe hw i survive wif not a single cent left wif mi, yet i'm still survivin.. days r passin so slowly.. quick quick quick.. i wan pay day to cum.. i nid money!!! God, throw down ur blessins hao ma..? i nid a bag, i nid money.. haiz.. ya.. like ah boy say, go NDP den will haf 'new bag' liao.. wat the.. .. =.="

haiz.. we got 2 tickets for NDP le.. still short of one.. i reli cant find the 3rd ticket no matter hw i look for it.. all so ex, if not cannot find the seller, if not den is diff sector.. argh~ nvm.. let ah boy go wif yanglin ba.. guess he'll b hapi without mi oso.. lolx.. aft all its jus a performance n sum fire works.. no big deal..

i shall stop here.. i'm tryin not to miss lesson le.. tml lesson starts at 9.30.. even ms clara oso discovered tat i usually din cum for 1st lesson.. reli cannot wake up la.. but don worry.. tml i will try my beri best to wake up de.. i mus attend 1st lesson!!! goto go orh orh liao.. wan an..