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Written @ 11:20 AM

din meet liang 2day.. but dora brought mi to play arcade instead.. played time crisis n bball.. lolx~ we did well isnt it.. ..?

i've reli been hapi all these while in sch wif the presence of dora.. she's reli a great frenz to b wif.. she call herself chang er? haas.. den she oso named mi to b Alice!!! erm.. she's frm the moon n.. i'm frm wonderland.. ..? wakaka!!!~

argh.. watchin ge dou tian wang.. tat stupid duan yan hao.. so irritatin!!! y he so mean de.. if i were yingqi, i sure whack him de lor!!! iya.. but tat xiao kui oso beri stupid la.. . too bad i've watch dis few days' episode le on scv le.. haas.. so.. kinda sian.. kees!~

2day english paper 1, i wrote a rather sad story.. haas.. read le can cry one sia.. sob sob~ jus another luv tragical story.. haas..

well.. there're always certain tin bein trapped in my heart.. hw can i move on n grow de.. .. haiz.. .. fallin n fallin..~

goto go studi le.. tats all for 2day.. ..

Written @ 3:20 PM

one wave follows aft another even before the previous one cld go calm..

at times, i don understand hw stupid can a person b wen he or she makes foolish decisions even if it means for dem to bear with hurts n pain.. tats is certainly not call sacrifices, tats call stupidity.. dey noe clearly tat its a pit, yet dey're more den willin to fall into the trap.. .. worse still, dey don even listen to ppl ard whom dey used to hold dearest remindin dem.. .. plz.. wen can u eva wake up..???

i saw him 2day.. aft disappearin for long, he appeared all of a sudden frm no where for prelime.. i felt uneasy, yet i've got to pretend tat i'm all fine n alrite wif it.. i hated him.. i do.. yes, i'm movin on, but nth is able to mend my broken heart.. ..

i luv liang.. aft all these while, i realised tat he care abt mi more den ani body else.. he's always there for mi to cheer mi up weneva i'm down..he's even willin to coax mi wen nobody eva bother to do so.. i don care if tins he say gona b realistic or to come true, but the least is, he's there to make mi smile.. he always avail himself for mi, spent time wif mi.. as n wen i contacted him, he'll appear rite before my eyes.. those moment of chillin 2gether was the greatest moment we had.. we've gone thru ups n downs, suffer 2gether, yet we're still hapi wif one another's presence.. guess there wun b another frenz like him hu treat mi like he does..

oh.. was wif liang again jus nw.. here r sum fotos tat we've taken..

haas.. luv to take foto wif liang.. he seems cute!!! but hor.. die le la.. once he posted in frenster, all those gals in his sch tat like him sure cum find mi de.. haas.. nvm.. neh ni neh ni poo poo!!!

i hope to b 'up', but times n again i fell.. .. a severe fall..

Written @ 3:36 PM

Personal life testimony

Hi friends, I would like to take this opportunity to testify God's love for all of us.

I grew up in a rather abusive family, getting cane and beaten were somewhat both me and my brother's daily routine. My dad would always make a din over nothing, with his presence,'peace' was never around. My family were strict and we were never allow to go out with our friends for any special occasion, the worse still, not even for our own birthday celebration.

During my primary school days, whenever I was back home from school, I ought to finish my homework under the supervision of my mother, and precisely, that was how i managed to obtain all my As n Bs, and never once I was out of the 'top ten list'. I was chosen as a prefect, buddy reader, science, PE, and class monitor, I was also assigned to be the school librarian. Actively, I involved myself with clubs and sports, but life just does not seem to be fruitful to me. My parents would reward mi tons and tons of gifts over my results, but it was merely the satisfaction of my need materializing, I was not happy at all.

Things took a change when I entered secondary school. I being to rebel my parents and wanting to shake off the life of prosecution, in search of freedom. I mixed with the wrong company, watching the 'movies' of gang settlement used to be one of my favorite past time, yet it was not thrilling enough though. I then learned to steal, swear with vulgarities, drink, and even pick up the habit of smoking too. Leaving behind the nerdy me, i appeared in school with rebonded blond hair, gold fringe, blue contact lenses and with both ears filled with piercing.

Guess I was one of the toughest students to be handled by the school. Flipping table, scolding teachers, staring at others eye to eye in a form of challenge and all. My parents were called to school as many as four times a week, meetings were held with principal and HODs to discuss about my behavior. From express stream, I demoted to normal stream, and nearly was I being expelled. Thank God for my social studies and my form teacher, they are the ones that spoke out for me and have me the chance to continue with my studies.

I had shown great improvement the following year, from passing one subject to seven out of nine subjects. In the same year, I got to know a friend. This friend of mine created a tremendous change in my life. She was none other then Yanglin. Yanglin invited me to church after the first interaction we had, not being nice to reject her invitation, I went as promised reluctantly. I felt uneasy during my primary visit to the church, I was not convinced that there is a God in heaven, or I can say, I do not even believe in the existence of heaven, but still, I went to church consecutively for the subsequent weeks. As days go by, God's love n member's care touches me deeply, it was definitely a love that I never once had. Despite the reality, I refuse to surrender myself to follow Him.

I could then reject no more to their fervent and genuine love in the later days to come, I called up one of my member and requested him to lead me through the sinner's prayer. As a new Christian, there were many things for me to learn and discover. Without fail, Yanglin do her very part in guiding me, not only as a member, but she became my best friend eventually. Someone whom I confide n share my problems with whenever I was down. I was hot tempered, stubborn, showing attitude to everyone around me, yet no matter how nasty I had treated her, she takes it all and continued to show her care and concern. It was her that melted my hardened heart, and it was her that path me the way to God. Perhaps she was the little angel that God had sent to me.

It had been nearly three years since I made the decision to plant myself in church. I had been regular for services and cell groups, and am currently waiting for the admission of chorus board ministry. I am more sociable now compared to the past and had already found a purpose in life. I had kicked off most of the bad habits that I used to have, all credits go to Him, for doing such a great work of having a miraculous change in my life.

I would like to thank Brother Wen kai, for all his care, patients and concern all these while. No matter how bad my attitude was, he never gives me up, yet he was still trying all his best to offer his help.

I would like to thank Yanglin. There were countless times when I was feeling helpless when problem surfaced and when things occurred, with tears in my eyes, I would call her in the mid of the night and hoping that she will spear me her precious pair of listening ears, certainly she did. Without her, I would never have a chance to know God, never have such chance to feel these loved. It was her tat cause my dull and darken day to be bright always. A good friend is always someone who will bring you a step closer to God, surely, she is one.

I would like to thank all the members in both N106 and E376. You guys are the best friends, best members tat one would yearn for.

Last but not least, I would like to thank our Heavenly Father, the almighty God. For He is my pillar of strength, my refuge. Each time when I needed Him, His presence is always around. He had never leave me nor ever forsake me. It is Him, tat I may become who I am today, I can never imagine what I will actually turn out to be, if I have not gotten the chance to know Him.

All honor and praises goes to Him. Hallelujah!

Written @ 4:14 PM

too long din blog oreli.. too much tins to say.. but where to start neh? haas.. no idea..

went out wif chengyee recently.. yanglin too.. or i shld say.. we went out 2gether? haha~ went shoppin wif dem.. waa.. dey're reli shoppin queens~ dey can try out diff shirt for a long long long time~ well.. other den mi, which gal doesnt like shoppin? wakaka!!!

exams r cumin.. sianz.. buckin up in my studies.. got chengyee to teach mi math.. she's a gd teacher, but abit far too fierce.. hu cares? as long as i'm able to absorb wateva tins she say, her 'fierceness' to mi aint a prob..

i luv liang.. yes.. i do.. he's always there weneva i nided him.. at times, thou i noe he aint capable in doin certain tins, but yet i'm hapi tat he's willin to coax mi.. lookin at mi wif tons n tons of work, he always offer to help mi.. gg out wif him is a kind of relaxation.. i simply luv it.. both yanglin n him, i guess i cant live without ani of dem..

dis sun is the last day of mi enjoyin myself le.. i'm gg escape theme park wif yuzhi, liang n wenjing.. there's still 1 more free ticket.. anione wana go? haas.. all free of charge de.. dono where yu zhi got all tat frm.. but niwae.. i'll go there n enjoy myself.. aft which goto prepare for prelime le.. sianz~ esther, JIA YOU!!!

actually wana put my personal life testimony here de, but.. guess no nid le.. too long for a story to b said.. haiz..

hao ba.. nth much to say le.. wana slp.. tml i still goto sch.. wan an bloggy..!~

Written @ 6:26 AM

it had been decades n centuries since we last went out like ytd.. hmm.. din reli go many places n had much fun, yet its always a memorable n meaningful one..

went out early in the mornin ytd, yet return hm near mid nite.. lolx~ waa.. had rashes all over.. so itchy!!! i dono wats the cause of it, still tryin to find out.. haiz.. i wasnt presence for 2day's cell.. the rashes was too severe tat i cant step out of my hse.. 2day evaluation leh.. piang.. n i wasnt there.. tryin my best nw to go for svc ltr.. but still, the patches of rashes r gettin bigger n bigger..

woo.. she complimented mi.. haas~ the nicest msg i eva got frm her.. hmm.. *keke~* guess we've entered another lvl of our frenship.. *smile*

k la.. goto go preapre le.. hmm.. mus find long sleeve shirt to cover all my rashes!!!

Written @ 3:08 PM

i hate him.. i wonder y is he in my hse.. y is he sumone related to mi.. y is he always the one controllin everione's move.. i'm not a his chess, yet nv can i escape frm his hands.. i hated those life of fearin he mite jus dash into my room, smashin all my tins.. i hated the beatin scene.. i hated his shouts, yells n slaps.. i fear his voice, his presence, his action of raisin his hand, n even his shadow.. all of us wld b hapier without him ard.. but the sad tin was.. he is jus ard.. .. nth much i can do, but to sit at one corner of my room, weepin n prayin.. .. i wasnt sad, but jus numbed.. ..

leavin aside all unhapiness.. was out wif chengyee ytd.. went town playin pool den head to jurong together to fetch yanglin.. tats all i guess.. ..

finally my flesh r found in sch.. thurday oreli, yet 2day is the first day in the wk tat i went sch.. don ask mi y as i cant put it into words either.. dey all say tat i'm COOL.. indeed.. i don reli tok much thou.. even teachers there don dare to mess wif mi.. .. frenz r always ard for mi.. i luv dem.. especially my bor n theo.. took sum foto wif dem 2day while wearin jayvern's jacket.. cool~

me.. sianz~

me n theo..

me n jayvern..

last but not least.. my fav pic amg all.. mi n pat.. (my bor)..

went to toa payoh to pick up walkie talkies frm dawn.. central CDC manager.. wooo~ haas.. return to office aft tat.. packin stuff.. hmm.. time flies.. pack pack pack.. pack till 10 plus.. brighton longpang mi hm.. save transport fee again.. hey guys, i'm not bein cheapskate ok.. but i'm reli tryin to b thrify.. u guys r rich, but i'm not ok..!~

exams cumin soon.. i don feel like workin n i cany handle my sch work.. but can i..? everitin nid money.. i reli dono hw.. but there again.. i trusted God for everitin tat is possible to happen.. He do create miracles isnt it..? prayer is the key toward everitin.. so.. PRAY..~

i'm surprise wen i ask my frenz ard wats 'OM' n 'MM' cards r for, no other ans but 'DISCOUNT!!!' is wat i heard.. even ms yvonne ansed the same tin.. nw den i realise, 'OM' n 'MM' r onli status, aft all, the cards r so-called 'useless' .. its jus another card tat occupied one of my wallet's compartment n will expire in a yr time.. isnt it? .. gif mi a beta defination of the cards anione?

my air con had jus been washed.. 2day sure will haf a beri nice slp.. hmm.. wonder if the person mummy hired did a gd job.. haas.. wen will it starts to drip water again?? as usual, beri soon.. ..~

'we r the reason tat he gave His life.. we r the reason tat He suffered n died.. to a world tat was lost He gave all He cld give.. to show us the reason to live.. ..'

Written @ 2:31 PM

was havin severe gastric cramp since the day before.. dono isit bcuz of the food i ate at bukit timah or isit honey's mudpie.. but all tasted so nice.. especially honey's mudpie.. i luv it.. haiz.. but the pain jus kills.. i was sweatin all over endurin the pain.. the pain was the same as the previous one.. the one tat caused mi to enter hospital.. so can u guys picture, hw much pain i'm sufferin n endurin...? went hm while workin half way..

liang was carin enuf to msg n call mi everi nw n den to check if i did haf my meals n hw i feel.. thx bud~

tot she wldnt call, but she did.. the conversation was reli short.. i mean.. it had nv been long either.. but yet efforts r seen.. appreciated it.. =)

i din go sch 2day.. the pain was sumhw still lingerin ard in my stomach.. liang din go sch either, but don eva b interested in noein his reason, a lame one.. cut everitin short.. he called mi out to study wif him.. yaya.. but as usual, we ended up watchin movie.. 'snakes on the plane'.. nice show~ gore.. yeee~ NC 16 ma.. 2nd rated show tat liang had watched.. i can see tat he's hapi.. lolx~

don wori.. aft the show we went to the mac at kallang to study.. reli.. we study till 9.30 n i pack up as fast as i cld to rush hm for my SAMSOON!!! i got hm in time, but too bad.. kor kor was 'huggin' the TV for his channel 5 show.. there goes my samsoon.. =.="

nw tokin to hui yi online.. hmm.. she jus added mi.. so 1st time tokin to her.. sumone nice to chat wif.. but she seems burdened.. but yeah.. managed to tok tins out to her.. i din reli say much la.. but our converstaion was a relaxin n comfortable one.. a heart to heart tok.. there will always b more room in noein one another beta.. =)

i'll end off here.. nth much to say oso..

Written @ 3:40 PM

my day was reli bad.. had been scolded again n again n again n again.. frm the 1st day i started workin, i had been hearin all the scoldin den.. y.. foreva over the road show tingy.. thx to corrine.. intro mi tat sucky gal.. throw mi attitude.. both of my promoter oso walk off n go hm.. fine.. let dem go.. i mean.. wun die without dem.. but of cuz, i've been scolded non stop frm sam n ices.. at times, i reli tink tat i had enuf.. i don mind sam scold mi sumtin tat i've done wrongly, but i always got scolded for tins which doesnt concern mi.. .. he's always rite.. we're always wrong.. he don listen to us.. scold scold scold n scold.. aft which weneva i'm unhapi, showin him wif a face, he'll den cum n 'sayang' mi, buyin mi dis n tat to compensate.. i don nid all tat n i don fancy it!!!

thx God for brighton.. she came into rescue wen i'm all alone at the road show wif NO promoter wif mi.. she came n help out in the road show.. i'm reli tired, reli praise the Lord tat its a miracle tat ices agreed to close the booth as early as 6 plus.. brighton fetch us for pool n for dinner!!! everitin on her hse.. cool~ she's reli nice.. one of my reason for stayin on in the company is bcuz of her, she nv fail to cheer us up aft scoldin or aft a tirin day n most imptly, she play n had fun wif us.. thx brighton~ i luv u!!!

honey used my freezer for mike's bdae.. lolx~ to put her mudpie.. she did 1 for mi as well.. so nice~ so tasty~ honey rox!!!

i'm all wore out.. i'm reli tired.. guys, reli sori tat i haf no time for u all.. i will try to fork out sum time k..? plz book mi in advance.. if not i reli wun b able to make it.. pray for mi.. i guess i nid prayer.. ..

Written @ 3:49 PM

had been reli bz.. i cant even breathe.. thou i'm reli 'risin' in my job wise, but.. is tat reli sumtin gd..? i dono.. gona pray abt it.. ..

watch 'little man' ytd.. so funi.. erm.. everione was luffin in the theatre, but.. guess ah yang was luffin the loudest.. >.<>

went kbox wif dora n liang.. haaas.. finally i can relax n enjoy myself.. hmm.. but.. onli for jus tat 3 hrs.. aft which goto rush back to work again.. was down for road show 2day.. hmm.. tirin, yet rather fun.. hmm.. not even their manager like mi, their CEO too.. haas.. hmm.. shinin testimony? wakaka! amen!

i reli nid a laptop.. haiz.. not to play wif but to do my work usin tat.. i don haf enuf money.. i reli pray wif all my heart tat i'm able to get 1 wif sponsors or even a real cheap 2nd hand lappy or so, i seriously don mind.. .. haiz..

i'm nw controllin my financies well.. kip mi gg Lord.. gif mi strength for my work..

goto slp le.. had been workin the whole day.. reli beri tired.. i onli goto slp late durin the late n wake up as early as 6-7 plus in the mornin.. i cant get enuf slp.. so plz.. those tat do read my blog, do mi the best fav.. do not wake mi up durin mid of the nite for no gd reasons.. but for those tat reli nid a pair of listenin ears, i don mind wakin up n haf a chat wif u.. =)

ya ya ya.. i gona get gg nw le.. tml mornin still goto return to office.. wan an bloggy!

Written @ 6:16 AM

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-event coodinators
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its perfectly find if u haf no experience, as long asu're humble n is willin to learn..

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u can call our office at 64837128, or drop mi amsg for more informations.
hear frm u guys soon!!!

Written @ 4:10 PM

was reli reli reli bz dis entire wk.. was runnin to n fro frm road show to office, office back to road show.. the spa manager like mi sooo much.. =.=" too bad.. my manager wans mi too.. both manager fightin for mi.. their manager wan mi to b at the road show, while my manager wans mi to b in the office.. the spa manager lose.. y neh? cuz i don called to work for her but my own manager!!!

sucky road show.. kip on extendin our hrs,, dey wan the best quality yet least amount, longest hrs yet lesser man power.. their manager is fussy, nasty, fierce, mean, iya, she's everitin la!!! sianz.. but praise the Lord.. i mean.. i'm a shinin testimony? haas.. gd n talented staff, of cuz everione will fight for mi la! hahaha!!!

finally i understood the difficulities of plannin schedule.. haiz.. i'm sumhw like a full time staff in the company nw.. so i nid to follow up wif alot of projects, events, make over the office n even plan schedule for those coodinators under me.. argh.. reli stress.. guess dis is the first time tat i'm so bz.. all packed up.. tons n tons of work waitin for mi to finish.. i apologise for those tat chat wif mi online yet i ignored u, n those tat ask mi out yet i rejected.. i'm reli reli beri bz.. sorry..

nw a days i don reli nid to travel much.. lolx~ all by brighton's van.. she always fetch mi here n there.. wakaka.. den for my dinner, without fail, sam will always gif his treats.. thx sam! thx brighton!

tml havin sight inspection.. nid to reach office by 8.. argh.. not again.. walk wif dawn leh.. she's the head of CDC.. hmm.. cant imagine i can actually walk wif her for the sight inspection, cuz all along onli brighton n sam haf the 'zi ge'.. nw.. mi too! lolx~

i'm super tired n worn out dis entire wk.. but nevertheless, i'm still hapi n is still rejoicin in the Lord.. reli wana thx sam for givin mi dis opportunities workin wif him in managin the company.. wen i nided money most, he's the one tat actually care less of the 'rules', but issue mi my salary everi wk.. brighton is my superior, my senior, always will she b in my heart.. thou nw we're so called on the same lvl, but there're always tins for mi to learn frm her.. so.. haas.. let's all work hand in hand! sam wanted mi to b his full time staff.. he let mi quote my own salary.. he'll pay as long as the amount i wanted is reasonable.. he nid mi to noe hw to drvive.. he's nw askin mi to learn drivin.. haas.. hmm.. perhaps he'll sponsor? lolx~ i'm doin well in dis job.. i'm risin.. yeah.. amen!

mummy gave mi new necklace n ear rings.. woo.. so nice..~ hmm.. thou i din reli tok to her, but yet i noe.. beri much she wanted to tok to mi.. i'm nw too into career le.. i feel tat i begin to neglect alot of tins, alot of ppl ard.. but.. din pst kong say 'work hard in ur workin place'? hmm.. i m doin it nw.. i wan to lead a debt free life, i wan lots of money!!! yet again, i rem of the show 'click', the man tat work too hard yet neglect his father n ppl all ard him.. haiz.. life's tough..

i'm beri tired.. i onli slept at 4 plus in the mornin ytd, den wake up at 8 plus in the mornin.. nw mid nite le.. i still goto wake up at 6 plus ltr to return to office.. beta catch my slp nw.. haiz.. guys, pray for mi k.. i reli nid prayers to kip mi gg.. ..

Written @ 12:23 PM

went to work ytd.. its was my first day workin in office wif sam n brighton.. hmm.. tough job, yet enjoyable.. its was like a hse more den an office.. there's bathrm, tv, hifi, kitchen all n all.. u guys may wonder wats my job abt.. hmm.. basically i'm an event coodinator.. besides tat, i'm oso a staff in my event company.. my task in mainly to MAKE OVER the office, let it look neater n cleaner.. sounds easy, but its not!!! sam is a beri cute manager.. were havin lotsa fun there workin wif dem.. FREE meal frm sam, n FREE cigg too! lolx~

sam is reli nice thou at times he seems fierce.. *scary* my pay was suppose to b given twice everi mth, den i was tellin him tat i nid money, so wen will i b able to get my 1st pay.. he replied 'if u reli nid money, i can issue ur salary everi wk de.. u wan cheque den gif u cheque, u wan cash den gif u cash..' .. waaa.. so shiok lor!

i was left which an option to choose btwn work n church.. brighton nid mi for tml's beauty saloon event.. $5 per hr, n each product i sold, there'll b commission given.. so add up, min i will earn $40, max ard $80 plus.. tats alot of money to mi leh.. sabbeth day.. God rested on the seventh day.. i mean.. aft much consideration, i rejected the offer.. brighton was tellin mi 'God will forgive de la.. He'll understand tat u nid to feed urself.. one day nv go svc onli.. can de la..' but i was tellin myself 'i haf faith in God.. He'll supply all my nid..' .. amen! =)

went out wif liang jus nw.. to harbour front centre.. hmm.. quite alot of tins to shop, but no money leh.. can see onli, cannot buy! awww..~

nth much happened 2day.. so.. ya.. will blog again..