had jus finished watchin a cartoon introduced by sandy.. 'Qian yu qian xun'.. it convey a msg tat never bow our heads down toward circumstances even if it seems tough n impossible to complete. perhaps dis is wat we call common grace of pop culture.. ..

as i was rushin out to meet sandy dis afternoon, i passed by a fruit stall sumwhere near my place.. it was JJ song's bein played.. .. wow.. .. even uncles oso like him.. lolx~ he's lao shao xian yi.. he's cute, handsome, cool n of cuz talented! for dis wk's i-magazine, dey had featured JJ! 1 page of content onli, but it was enuf to make mi xcited.. haas..

numerous tins r gg thru my mind.. ..

i'm workin on my commitment.. .. will tok abt relationship aft 21.. .. yup.. guess tats the right way.. i shld focus more on wat i shld.. ..

our willingness reflects on our luv for God.. if we r nt willin enuf, it jus shows tat we don luv God enuf.. .. hw willin m i? onli God noes.. ..

i luv my parents.. i do.. but truely, i haf no idea hw to communicate wif dem.. .. we always find tat our parents don reli undertsand us.. but hw many of us understand wat dey r tinkin? i bein to feel the loneliness of their heart.. hw much dey yearn to see us yet we r always nt in their sight.. .. wen we're bored, we rather face the com den to face dem.. pick up our fone, call some frenz n out we went.. wat abt dem? pathetically sittin in front of the tv, pressin the button again n again to switch to diff channel.. read come newspapers? wash some clothes or dishes? tats their routine durin their off days.. .. our parents nid care n concern as well, dey wanted our attention too.. don neglect dem.. .. plz.. .. no.. ..

i had been havin terrible nightmares recently.. i cant reli slp well.. .. the min i shut my eyes, i wld jump up of bed even by the slightest sound made.. .. dis has nth goto do wif timidness.. it jus shows hw weak i m.. .. ..

picture says a thousand words.. .. yet no words r suitable in definin my tots n feelins.. ..

circumstances had showed mi tat God did fulfill all His promises.. everitin turns out well for mi nw.. .. but wen everitin works out fine, it was mi, tat is slidin back.. .. nth abt wat is happenin, but its all abt wat had been stuck in my heart all these while.. ..

all of a sudden, Christianity seems so anomalous to mi.. .. God moves nearer n nearer to mi.. .. i was walkin further n further frm Him.. .. i'm disoriented walkin in an obscurin direction.. .. i guess i mite nid a little help in findin my way.. .. ..

everi smile i had made frm everi drop of tears i shed.. ..

i'm still perseverin on.. .. guys, push mi a little plz.. .. God, lend mi ur hand.. .. gif mi a little pull will u?