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~~1) Itouch~~
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Written @ 10:30 AM

Am at home now.. Weird? Where will i b at dis hrs everi sat? In church.. .. Yes.. In church.. ..

After readin certain blog entry, i've realised hw blissed will tat b to haf a gd frenz tat understands n shares wif u.. *smile* i'm hapi for those tat found theirs, while for mi, i'm still searchin.. erm.. sori.. there's a correction; i'm still waitin.. ..

Most of my closest friendship r built in church.. which oso means i'm takin it at a risk.. .. i'll lose my frenz either wen dey leave church, or i do.. .. i've tried it twice.. .. n guess the third time will b cumin soon.. ..

I hold Bro, Liang n Lin dearest to me.. but sumhw i've discovered a simple revelation, that tat aint MINE aft all.. perhaps in the past, i held dem too tight tat dey cant even breathe, not nw animore.. i nid to understand tat dey haf their own life to live n own world to mingle.. .. its time to let go.. .. i've goto breathe as well.. ..

i don enjoy puttin up a face n givin attitude.. but tats the nature of mi.. i don enjoy actin cool, but it flows naturally.. i don enjoy bein alone, but most of the time, i haf to.. i don enjoy not gg to church, but i haf no choice.. i don enjoy frenz leavin mi, but it happens all the time.. i don enjoy not feelin God, but i sense Him no more.. .. all n all, i din choose to b dis.. .. its nv a tin as easy as pressin a 'Yes' or a 'No' button.. how i wish tats the case but its not.. .. its not.. can sumbody remind mi tat.. ..?

i'm tired of workin hrs aft hrs everiday.. but tats the onli way to allow time to pass.. usin work to numb oneself is reli an effective way.. i don nid money.. y shld i nid so much? whether i work anot doesnt make a diff.. pocket money will still cums in.. .. i jus wan to kill time.. let myself wonder in the 'nobody's dimension'.. .. i complain no more, as its sumtin i goto face den to grumble abt..

I've finally realised tat i've contributed too much time n effect on frenz n neglected myself.. bcuz of frenz, i can even lose oneself.. ..

Don look at me wif the angle of a backslidin person.. try to look at me wif the angle of sumone who is still workin hard, clingin onto the cliff n unwillin to let go, will u guys b.. ..?

i'm tokin lesser n lesser each day in church n durin work.. .. wen will the day b here of mi not speakin a single word at all.. .. i'm thxful to ze ju, eugene n jie ping for listenin to me.. .. ah ma too.. she oways got me tamed.. .. the least i noe is tat dey're willin to listen.. ..

i've had enuf said.. .. i'm tired.. .. wen eva a person is tired, dey shld oways take a break n a well rest.. .. i'm doin it nw.. ..