back frm work.
881 gala today.
damn freakin noisy due to the lion dance performance.
was shoutin my lungs out to the customers at box.
exausted.

holdin float today.
my first time.
money was all in a mess.
first time doin closin on my own.
as in..
reli count everitin myself.
fareeze was wif mi,
thou he do closin more often den i do,
but i seems more xpert den he does.
thxfully i survive thru the sub totallin today.
got scolded by fion.
but she was nice enuf to onli scold mi a little.
i reli messed everitin up.
i'm sori..

alia cried.
i hope i'm not the caused of it.
i did raise my voice at her over the calculator incident.
but din we oways play wif one another like we do everiday?
she claimed tat it doesnt concern me.
i wish tat was the case too.

mp4 spoiled.
tat was my life.
nw even my 'life' is gone.
wat is there worth livin den..

darlin lied to her mom,
jus to stay wif us a little longer.
i appreciated tat.
but i cannot condone her act.
i rather bear wif not enjoy together wif her for the wk,
den her lyin to her family mems.
i haf my stand darlin.
plz understand.

i wonder y everitin involves mi.
i seems to b the 'information center' for everione.
all secret goes to mi.
hence wen those kapos wana noe anitin,
dey come to mi.
at times,
it's reli cruel to spout other's secret out.
it's like pourin salt on one's wound.
ouch. it hurts.
spare mi frm doin such sins.

i yearn so much for managers to look tins at our point of view.
to haf a feel of wat we feel before dey open their mouth to scold us each time.
shall we change role for jus a day?
let all the managers tear tix,
pop popcorn all day n send outside food back to cinema?
while for us, sit in office will do.
i don mean tat manager's job r easy,
but jus hope tat we compromise n understand the job of one another.
will tat do..?
sigh..
fat hope esther~

ppl r jus so practical.
ting wana meet mi,
i was truthful enuf to say tat i cldnt make it as i'm reli bz,
n she goes 'k. c u in church den.'
without even hearin my xplaination.
was still tryin to xplain tins out,
but i guess i can forget abt it.
sad to tell her.
i aint gg back.

i luv my fantastic 4.
wif our silver surfer oso, jonathan!
nw got 1 more ying ling.
dono wat to name her.
hmm.
was tinkin of changin our grp name to 'fruit tree fresh'
den each of us use a diff fruit to represent ourselves.
like tat got unlimited choices of name to use!
it sounded stupid thou.
argh.

drinkin blueberry tea nw.
tinkin of her.
tat used to b her fav drink.
jus wonder..
hw can hard-built frenship b so fragile.

liang is the longest close frenz i had i guess.
oso the onli one tat worth mi treasurin.
damn pissed off at box today
wen all of a suddenly i saw my fav toberlone in my drawer.
tats for sure frm him.
he made my day by buyin mi tat choc bar.
even till nw,
he's the onli one tat noes hw to coax mi.
thx bud~

jus feel lazy to reply certain ppl's msg.
everi mornin wake up,
my hp got flooded by msges.
i choose wisely which to reply n which nt to.
guess usually i onli reply darlin's one.
no particular reason y.

wore leather shoes to work today as my canvas got worn out.
darlin said i look cute in it.
man~
i'm almost 20.
y do everione still says i look cute??
say i'm gorgeous, eligan,
i'm all fine wif it.
but y CUTE?
oh plz.
cut it.

ahh! jus realised tat my mp4 resurrected!!!
weee!!!!

meetin darlin n the rest to watch 'bu neng shuo de mi mi' tml mornin.
Jay's production.
sure bu hao kan de.
but darlin dey all wana watch.
so..
jus go on wif it for their sake.

i jus cant seems to shake off darlin's postin issue.
it kips on hinderin mi.
got hunt by it days n nites.
darlin is leavin on nov.
to aus.
2 yrs before i can c her again.
i cant.
i simply cant pic the scene of mi livin without her.
3 more mths to go.
i'm grabbin hold on everi min n sec spent wif her n fantastic 4.
u once begged mi 'darlin.. don leave.. don.. i beg u.. beggin u..'
for ur sake.
i din.
its my turn nw.. 'i'm beggin u too darlin.. don leave.. don..'
will u do the same for mi?

no more mood to write anitin.
*squattin at one corner of the rm..*