darlin was sent to hospital.
fark man.
the min i received her msg,
my heart omost jumped all out.
conductin my tuition half way thru wen i requested to leave.
cant brin myself to sit der still wen she's in A&E.
took cab dwn,
n tat farkin uncle drives as thou he's ridin a bicycle.
feel lk farkin him up n dwn,
but nah.
don hv the mood to do so wen all i concern was her condition.
omost teared in woriness wen i chiong out of my student hse.

ran all the way into A&E,
searched ard the place before i spotted her.
on wheelchair.
yes.
she was.
damn,
first time.
reli the first time i'm so wori.
heng she's fine.
tat sets my heart at ease a little upon seein her.

her leg was bein bandage lk a pig trotter.
pain.
it definately was.
her leg turns kind of purplish wen she was sent to hospital.
she looks pale too.
man~
i'm lk..
so useless at tat moment.
super at lost of wat to do wen she was vergin in pain.

aft all the waitins n all the procedures,
we r able to leave.
called a cab n sent her hm.
she was tired,
hence lean on my shoulder n fell aslp.
lookin at her,
i den realised hw much she actuli means to mi.
n tat was sumtin tat i nv discover in the past.
revelation?
perhaps it reli was.

alia earns all my hugs.
but tinkin of which,
i nv once hug darlin wen she actuli deserves it more den alia does.
she took initiative to hug mi ytd.
jus wonderin wat the hell m i tinkin wen i did nt react a single move at all.
pardon mi.
i'm jus..
jus far too stiff.
too slow to even noe or understand ur feelins.
thrwin u at lurch times n again was my bad.
i finally noe hw it feels nw.
no more.
i promised.

each n everi of us we hv diff sets of troubles n probs.
we're all worryin abt certain tin at diff pt of time.
aft noein liang for so many yrs,
we're lk more opened up to one another.
i den discovered hw much u actuali understands mi.
well,
at times i may seems bz on my fone or doin other tins wen u're tokin,
but the fact was tat,
i reli did listen to wat u said.
wen i'm reli bz,
i tried my best to ans u alittle here n dere to acknowledge tat i'm actuli listenin.
all these yrs i may nt hv been treatin u as a gd frenz wld,
but i had been tryin.
tryin to b appreciative as u had mentioned.
i hope i'm improvin bit by bit in ur eyes.
we once had alot of gd memories,
it wil nv jus end here.
dere'll still b much more to cum i hope.
don b gloomy!
u're oways my best bud!
nw n foreva~

visitin darlin at her place tml.
oways send her hm but nv once did step into her place.
hmm.
steppin into her hse tks up most of my courage.
all along i'm reluctant to,
but i'm gg to do it willingly tml.
i hope i can do it.
erm.
act as per normal.
don shiver esther!!
haas~

money nt enuf liao.
still got earpcs n earphone hvn buy.
n mus set aside $200 oso.
aft toppin up n ez link n stock up maggie mees in my hse,
i'm left wif nth for the mth.
reli NTH.
yet to pay bills.
heng darlin onli use ard 47 bucks for my singtel line.
lolx~
so little.
haha!
nw waitin for starhub one to cum.
gosh~
don even dare to see.
money money money~
ani charity association care to donate some to mi?

nth much to ask in life wen i got was the best of the best.
true enuf,
tats reli the case.

i'm nt tired at all.
gettin more n more noctural den eva before.
slp in the day n active in the nite.
damn.
hw can i switch bck the time.
its terrible wen everione is sound aslp wen u're the onli one loiterin ard.
nah.
cant slp for tdy oso.
darlin is in pain,
she mite wk up at ani pt of time,
goto reply her as n wen she msg mi.
front line for her oways.

k la.
guess dis is the last entry for the wk,
kor is cumin bck tml.
sianz.
he's such a pain man~
call off for the day ba.
nitey~