i m a ball.
no i aint.
i m.
i aint.
was still tryin to deceive myself,
but..
guess i reli m.. ..
bein grabbed wen wanted,
bein thrwn wen feelin lk it..
ouch.
tat hurts pretty much.

u asked for mi nt to leave u alone.
i did as promised.
oways travel lk a farkin idiot wen u'r feelin low.
i did the same ytd.
but ended up bein scolded.
moreover u put it across as thou i deserve the scoldins.
i shldnt hv been der at the beri first place.
u sux to the core at tat moment to mi.
i simmered the anger in mi,
tone dwn n gave in despite bein reluctant.
givin u one whole nite to cool urself dwn.

msged u dis morn.
fark.
ur attitude threw rite at my face.
hurtful words frm u jus pierce thru deeper n deeper into my heart.
chances had been given again n again.
i'm all shagged to handle all dis each time wen it hpns.
'don b remorseful to noe hw much hurt u've caused to another party,
cuz i guess its even far too late to do ani compensation..'
tats wat i wrote.
i'm bein hurt so thoroughly whr nth cld eva amend.

tdy is wed.
our gatherin day.
u sounded so swtly wen u made me a promised
'no matter hw tired or bz i m,
wed is the day.
i will turn up no matter wat.
tats our day!'
so nice soundin rite..
but its utter rubbish to mi nw.
each time u thrw tantrum,
standard,
u will nt wan to turn up for the gatherin.

all our daily routines.
guess u had forgotten clean abt it.
i'm the onli one fulfillin it.
mi n mi alone.

u tends to say tat i break promises.
m i?
or r u the one..

u aint even apologetic wen i told u hw hurt i was.
thx man.
thx for all tat.
aft stickin tgr for 4 mths or so,
a bleedin heart is all i got in return.
i don even pinned for appreciation,
but bruise n wound mi no more plz.

u can tok to jp nicely.
yet flared up at mi.
i den realised tat i cldnt even hold a candle to jp in ur heart.

'bon voyage..'
haas.
ze ju n zac were upset of mi leavin.
even yx showed concern n asked abt it.
yet u..
chasin n pushin mi away.

ur words stink.
dey reli do.
u're jus a monster tat doesnt gif a tot of hw others will feel.

u've got my heart turned cold.
so cold tat it freezed.

as wat u requested for,
i'll leave u alone.
hvin u all the DAYS u nd to chill urself dwn instead of a day.
i'll sign off nw as an indication to the end of our book.

u lk to say 'i respect ur decision' don u?
nw i'm tellin u,
unless u r sober,
don eva come bck to mi.

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nanny diaries was farkin damn borin.
thx for the recommandation of jp.
all of us almost dozed off.

suppose to b occupied tdy,
but sad to say,
i'm available.
nah.
ltr goto go kovan to collect certain stuff.
lazy.
but.
tat hlps in killin part of my time tdy.

meetin yingling tml.
mettin yanglin on sat.
haas.
scheduled got all packed.
ppl hu wans to meet mi,
i'm left wif fri n sun.
mk it quick!

returnin bck to camp the cumin wk.
i'm gg to b reli super duper packed frm the follwin wk onwards.
will onli b available till nxt mth.
din sound exaggerate,
but i m reli tat bz.
lolx~

hvn been meetin liang.
aww.
he too had been so bz.
everiday oso OT.
poor tin.
still rem durin holidays,
we used to hang out tgr everiday,
play n enjoyin ourselves but doin nth.
time did nt spare us.
haha.
we've all grown up.
each individual is bz wif his or her job n personal affair.
but its ok.
jus rem,
u're my buddy oways~

*breathe in*
*breathe out*

life still goes on with our without one particular person.
is we hu evolves ard the world,
not the other way round.

easy sayin it..
haas..
i tink i nd time to even get over all the tins tat hpned.

LG! life's gd!
tats lousy..
but tends to use tat to cheer myself up alittle.

k..
i'm fine i'm fine..
reli fine la..
i nd sum fresh air will do.