i'm fallin ill again.
beri xin ku.

wana fetch dar actuli,
but since kak fetchin her,
den i can rest at hm le.

i wonder if tts true,
but i oways tend to feel certain rejection here n der.
m i bein inferior which i guess i reli m?
or isit tt the world jus cldnt accept the way i m?
i don feel gd at all..

all along i hv the signs n symtoms of depression.
self isolate,
easily agitated,
vex,
self mutilate is the most xtreme part.
aft all tt i've done,
i've realised tt dere's still an empty hole,
yet to b filled in my heart..
all the cuts n wounds jus cause the pain to overlap one another.
mkin mi feel less hurt in the inner whras bleedin on the outer.
it jus feel so empty,
so lonely..

i don lk the feelin of bein alone.
hence i prefer stayin in camp den my own hm.
i nid to b occupied wif stuff,
a thousand pix flash across my mind wen i'm alone.
its scary..
reli scary..
i hate dos feelins..

i nid music to kip mi gg.
hence play music everinite is a 'must'.
dwellin in the fantasy world,
i felt the pressure subsided,
felt certain relieve..

i'm tired.
gg to rest nw.
.. ..