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~~1) Itouch~~
~~2) Skull Candy~~
3) Fred perry button shirt
~~4) Watch~~
5) Gucci wallet
~~6) Crumpler sling bag~~
7) Skaters Cap
8) Digital Camera
~~9) Clothes~~
~~10)White shoes~~
11)Accessories (tie, bowtie, brouch, vest etc..)

Written @ 11:57 AM

Currently over sandy's place.. yes.. again.. haas..

Went to eat dim sum wif daddy n mummy dis mornin over maxwell road there.. erm.. not reli nice thou.. the congee was in such a big bowl lor.. in the end cant finish.. lolx~ Aft which we headed to tamp tat big big big big SUPER BIG giant.. muhaha.. ppl moutain ppl sea, so squeezy lor! thx God daddy drives, if not its gona b terrible~ the weather is so hot.. summore onli 1 bus goes there.. so bu fang bian.. well, bought nth, but rushed back to met liang instead..

Liang came over to my place there to eat laksa.. erm.. wow.. the super RED laksa.. hahaha!~ came over to sandy's place together then.. BURRR~ the aircon so cold lor~ i feel as thou i'm over north pole, stayin in igloo.. or shld i say.. i haf put myself in polar bear's shoes.. lolx!!!

Today is bro's bdae.. erm.. cell grp gave him a Ebase blazer and a new laptop bag pack.. hey guys.. don tink all these beri cheap ok~ it reli cost a BOMB! haiz.. but sumhw.. our gifts cant hold a candle to the one tat E301 gave.. .. theirs was PSP.. .. Actuli we suppose to combine and buy tat for bro.. but.. dey do everitin on their own wat.. no choice but to buy other stuff for bro.. .. hope he likes it too.. ..

Iyo.. guys.. i repeat myself.. i serve once everi 3 wks!!! everiwk i haf ppl askin mi 'Hey Esther! r u servin dis wk?'.. i ans n ans n ans n ans.. .. but still, dey ask again n again.. .. =.=" haiz.. i'm servin for Pst Mark conner's wkend.. other den tat i haf no more major event all the way till emerge.. got it guys? lolx~

Oh! the mp4 was finally back wif mi!!! haas.. had all the songs i wanted to b in.. i reli mean ALL.. chinese songs alone i guess there r ard 85? wakaka.. had put pictures in it as well.. nw left movies.. had asked aizhen to do it for mi.. erm.. i reli haf no idea hw to put movie.. kees.. computer knowledge not tat high either.. ka cheek!

Nw a days, i enjoyed gg make up cell.. i dono y, jus don like to join my own cell grp.. haiz.. but wat can i do.. cell oreli so few ppl, if i don go, i tink the cell will onli left the guitarist n the preacher, whom is bro.. nvm.. don bother to tink.. ..

Dis wk not sittin wif cell.. am servin.. argh.. i wan to b in chorusboard rm.. don reli wish to b at the sound console there.. but well, God oways place us at places where we least wan to b.. so..no complain wherever i am at!

Seriously, i'm still kind of self centered and individualistic.. cant help but tats the way.. i wld oways prefer tins to b of my kind.. haiz.. nvm la.. wats the use of sayin so much.. lolx~ learn to change can le.. ..

haiz.. i wan new job.. job job job!!! sianz.. all the job tat i look for clashes wif my tuition, if not den services.. i reli nid a job o fulfill my buildin fund.. God, help~

since tat idiot took away the modem, i had not been bloggin as regular as before.. haas.. tagger became lesser n lesser.. the mood for bloggin oso gone.. .. cant imagine.. if i don tok to my bloggy, who can i tok to.. .. haas.. sum ppl can blog but dey doesnt like to blog.. sum ppl cant blog (like me), but yearn so much to b able to blog.. ..

Findin sumone to tok to is reli hard.. its the toughest job u can eva find.. .. haas.. .. tats y, master hw to swollow everitin down into ur stomach.. it helps.. ..

Written @ 5:50 PM

Hey ya! Currently in mac wif liang n lin~ haas.. its my bdae celebration actuli, but ultimately.. .. it seems more like a relaxin session..

Had cg outin at sentosa tat day.. Was bad bad bad.. i went despite bein sick.. i tried my best to tok even wif no voice.. but guess wat.. everione was luffin n teasin at mi over my 'sexy' voice.. learn the way i tok..tats so hurtin can.. .. was kinda angry, yet i kept mum thruout.. .. Din enjoy the games either.. jus bad i can say..

The celebration cell had wif mi was the worse amg all these yrs.. guess wat.. i receive a clock.. i noe mui tired her best to find mi a suitable present, she's not supersticious, tat i noe.. but perhaps i m.. din dare to tell her tat i dislike the present, the fact was, i do.. hw does it feels wen u r makin a speech yet most of the ppl r not payin attention? haas.. i felt it days back..

But at least i'm glad tat ALOT of ppl remed by bdae dis yr.. lots of greetins received.. thx guys..~ u guys made my day.. =)

Received:
Necklace- aizhen
Sweets- yanglin
MP4- liang n sandy
Talkin clock- CG
Gillete- Wenting
Cash- mummy
Cheesecake- Brenda

Thx for all the gifts.. each n everi of it is of my need n pleasin.. thx.. apprecitated all of it.. Frenz r gd, life's gd, mainly everitin is gd.. i can b satisfied, but can nv b complacent!!!

Servin nxt wk.. can get to see my team mates again.. so hapi~ weee~ haha.. =x

i mus excel!!! CHIONG AR!!!

Written @ 11:23 AM

bi boo!!! tell u guys a secret.. .. *look left* *look rite*.. i'm nw usin my hse com!!! weee!!!~ haas.. not kor bein lenient, but i guess he had forgotten to kip the modem aft use, thus.. .. i ended up usin it nw!!! wakakaka!!!

Had a great time with Jx, Ping, Wj and Mw ytd. Went cycling, bowlin and played pool. Man, due to the bowlin, i'm achin all over nw especially my left leg (support leg). I'm nw a LAMER.. i reli am ok~

Met up wif Sandy jus nw.. woo.. so nice of her, cumin all the way down to my blk wif her laptop jus to meet me to get sum stuff, aft which proceed to fu nan IT mall to seek for 'solution' over my mmc card incident. she jus called, sayin tat my mmc can onli b taken out if send for servicin.. .. tats a bad bad bad bad news.. .. was tinkin like 'forget it ba..'.. .. so afraid tat all the data in her laptop wld b lost if were to send for servicin, but she still wana gif it a try for the sake of my mmc.. *touched* thx sandy~

so nice of mummy.. haas.. still rem i was tokin to mui, sayin tat i nid hair pins.. guess wat? wen i reach hm tat day, mummy handed mi with 5 pkts of new hair pins! lolx!!! ytd i wasnt hm, mummy helped mi recorded 'hua yang shao nian shao nu' even without mi askin her to do it! hw nice of her.. ..~ haas.. mummy n daddy oways play those childish game, knock on my door den dey hide sumwhere.. =.=" wen i open the door, i see no one.. .. lolx~ at times, dey jus made my day.. *smile*

dono where tat meh meh went.. she's in camp, tat i noe, but hw cum she din on her fone? sigh.. mayb no batt ba.. *so positive of mi*.. her results out liao leh, if she still don get back to us, her sub paper starts the day aft the releasin of results.. iyo~ meh meh, quick appear leh.. where u sia.. haiz.. ..

Pimples start poppin out recently.. oh no.. bcuz of lin's face, i goto sacrifise my face.. lolx~ passed her the cream tat i always use, nw no more cream use le.. but its ok.. she feels tat her complexion is impt, which i oso tink so, so.. haas.. let her haf it ba..

woo.. daddy askin if i wana go play badminton nw.. sianz.. i say yes liao, but he's runnin late, he's not waitin for mi le.. Jeslyn sounded so sad.. wakaka.. cuz i'm not gg, she cant see mi there.. nvm ba.. nxt wk den go lo.. .. Don say Esther nv exercise ok!~ i do hor..

Haiz.. ah yang called mi mins ago.. He ask if i'm outside,

i: no.. at hm..
him: can u cum out?
i: huh.. .. where u wana go.. .. ..
him: TM
i: my mum cookin liao.. n i don feel like gg out..
him: i nid ur help, my VCD overdue liao, i nid ur NETS!
i: huh.. .. tml la..
him: cum leh.. if not tml will b $50 over le!
i: den u ytd don wana tell mi? nw den say??
i: my mum reli cook le.. ..
him: eat liao den cum out la! cum out b4 12 mid nite can le!
i: *sianz* haiz.. call u ltr la.. ..

told him tat i cant make it, leg hurts, den mum naggin, was callin ard to find help for him.. called liang n mingwei, but both aint able to help.. in the end he scolded mi with vulgarities tinkin tat i din wana help.. forget it la.. let him die on his own.. oways like tat, wan my help den call mi appear infront of him immediately, don nid help den don even wan to reply my msg wen i ask for cg funds.. super angry lor.. nvm.. God sees n He noes.. no means angry over such tins.. jus goto humble myself.. ..

Tokin to Winson nw.. oh.. He's my team mates for chorus board.. haas.. guess due to Ho yin tat incident, he nw desire to leave mi wif a gd impression.. lolx~ haiz.. totally minus marks for Ho yin liao.. FAILED!!!~ oOo..~ Winson stays nxt to Sandy wor.. so near.. haas.. For u guys info, Winson is last yr's champion for emerge winning-11!!! He's COOL can.. *day dream* lolx~ too bad he shorter den mi.. muhahaha~

k la.. i gg for dinner le.. mummy callin le.. famished~ dinner, here i come!!!

Written @ 10:46 AM

Hey everibody! i'm back again!

This time round back with a gd attitude! wakaka..

First and for most, i wana thx God for placin me in chorus board. Aft a long wait of 1 yr plus, i finally got into the one and onli ministry tat i eva wan to b in. Team 3, a warm team with a hilarious team ic and a bunch of cool n funky mates.. simply luv dem all.. i'm learnin, still learnin.. no matter hw tough life gona b in chorus board, i will persist on.. i'm not gg to gif up so easily even it means to get scoldings and reprimanded.

Life is gettin gd, gettin fruitful. Not bein bhb, but Team IC is the post tat i'm visualisin.. wateva tat we haf in mind, we'll work towards it.. Chorus board is all tat i'm focusin on nw. I'm ministry minded. yes i m. but too bad, i'm called in tat area.

Oh.. Chorus board celebrated my bdae in advance.. their 'traditional' present was cool can! $30 worth of capital land voucher! can b use in ani shop at most of the shoppin centre in spore! last wk dey gave out 3 sets which means.. .. $90!!! wow~ dono where dey get the money as our team fund onli $2 per mth! Lolx! so little can? haha~

I luv my life nw. A life wif no lack. I haf all tat i wan oreli.. yeah~ 'Life's good' <-- LG advertisement.. LOLX!

A new cell, a new ministry, a new callin, a new beginin.. i mus start to grow oso. Lin's word hit mi so hard tat day, she said 'if a person stays as OM thruout all his/her days in church, sumtin is wrong with the mindset'.. Man.. i'm still holdin on to OM nw.. erm.. *sweat* cannot be.. i mus excel.. i mus arise.. MM, wait there.. i will fetch u some day.. soon.. real soon..

Stayin in comfort zone is not all tat i ask for. I had been too comfortable all these while, its time to take a step of faith. No one will eva haf a chance to say tat i'm of little faith again.

Took another kid for tuition, teachin her math and english. She's a faster learnin and is brilliant. I'm her 3rd tutor, erm.. the previous 2 tuition was horible i heard? haas.. *stress*

I'm sick. Havin severe sore throat nw. feelin terrible. Hope i can get better by tml, cuz gg out with weijing dey all. weijing gg ns le, sigh.. cg sort of another mem again.

Dis yr's bdae, guess everione ard mi is gettin smarter n smarter.. lolx~ dey got mi tins tat i need and most prob i will b able to use it. haas.. all afraid of gettin scolded le.. tats y nw everione became smart! lolx~ seriously, i don tink i nid anitin leh.. haas.. got mostly all tat i wan.. but still, i appreciate all of u guys' effort!!!

Btw, i'm currently in mac usin honey's lappy. The guy nxt to me seems like waitin for my plug.. bleah~ i'm still usin.. HAPI WAITIN! erm.. aniwae.. he waited beri long le.. he's gettin a little impaitience i guess.. but.. don care la! First cum first serve! haha! =P

My beluved deathnote marchandise ring.. given to mui.. aww.. haiz.. not tat i reli wanted to gif her k.. but God says 'ask n it shall b given!'.. she reli haf the cheek to ask frm mi, so no choice but to gif her.. 'Freely gif, freely receive'.. she's so hapi.. haas.. God is a giver, so mus we.. =)

i've been sittin in mac like 4hrs plus? haas.. the table so short, my neck beri suan.. the chair so hard, my butt so pain.. saw brenda.. she call mi sit on float, den will b beta.. but everi 5mins or so mus reblow as i'm too HEAVY.. =.="

Bought a watch tat day.. cost mi $23.. not reli tat ex to u guys, but its ex to mi.. i took a real long time b4 decidin to buy it.. mui call mi don buy, but din listen to her.. nah.. not tat her advice is not gd, but diff ppl diff prefernce ma.. moreover i reli like the watch beri much, so.. brought it hm wif mi usin tat $23.. .. haas.. its reli nice can~ i'll show u guys on sat!

Opps.. die liao la.. haven found a job.. Y pray liao still no job sia.. haiz.. i nid money to fulfill buildin fund.. sumbody HELP!~

I'm gettin tired le.. lolx~ will stop here.. kees.. rem.. 'God is gd, all the time! All the time, God is gd!!!'

Written @ 11:37 AM

Bad day bad day bad day.. ARGH~ all of a suddenly beri pek cek.. my MMC is stuck in the laptop!!! sumbody help~

Super pek cek recently.. actuli wanted to play MIA today.. i'm so packed, but in the end, i din go aniwhere.. cant b bothered to do anitin..

beach.. my beach.. wanted to go there actuali.. but wats with the weather.. down pourin heavily now.. .. tins r gettin on my nerve.. ..

wats the point of excelin.. am gg no where.. .. where m i headin to.. .. where.. .. again i touch on.. the beri purpose is lost.. .. its gone.. .. i haf no idea where to search it back.. each n everi wkend seems so plain, so routine.. .. i'm jus a nobody that occupies a small space in the hall.. will God noes if i disappear? grow.. ..? how far can i grow.. ..? i'm strugglin thru all along.. finally nw is the time that my energy had been used up.. all used up.. ..

while everione tot that i'm growin beri well, i'm doin beri well, haas.. perhaps i'm oreli gone.. somwhere, someday.. ..

its time to rest le.. .. so tired.. .. so tired.. ..

Written @ 4:24 AM

Currently over sandy's place usin her lappy..

Had cell group yesterday. Just a few of us, but the atmosphere was good, the presense could be felt. Was rather angry with bro from the begining of the preaching session till the end of the cell. Firstly, he mistook what i meant and got me embarass infront of everione. Secondly, he was kind of sarcastic the entire day. Certainly, i felt being shoot by him. Lastly, i was even more furious when he said 'if any of you are hurt, upset or even angry with whatever i had said, then i wana tell you.. ITS YOUR PROBLEM!'.. Bro gave us 1min to tell God how we feel during the ending of part, man.. i really told God that i was super angry.. but well, i just take it that bro was discipling us. God says 'Learn to take it'.. .. Yes God, i am.. .. .. Didnt want to argue back with bro infront of others, hence, i msg him when i reached home. Bro apologised. Apology accepted. Haas.. Well, leader is human as well.. They do make mistake oso.. Bro is great at all times.. *smile*

When out with lin on thur. Suppose to meet her at 5, but sad to say, she was late for 20 mins!!! Lolx~ nah.. She oreli made evident improvement, so i'm fine with that 20 mins of waiting.. haas~ Headed to vivo.. Ate in banquet as she has discount card.. Erm.. aft which.. ermm.. abit pai seh to say leh.. haas.. we went to play in Toy r us! Wakaka!!!~ took alot of funi fotos, but unfortunately, there's no way for mi to load it up.. haiz.. nvm.. will find a way soon.. the fotos we took are really cute lor! Chengyee was rite.. the person that we're gg out with matters, not the place that we go.

Recently certain separations took place. Human are a bunch of funi creatures, onli when we came upon such circumstances, we'll then realised the importance of the ppl ard us. Thats when we being to cherish and treasure them. I've yet to master, but i'm still learnin.. God created a hollow us, a hole that onli He Himself can fill it up. But i always believe that friends are part and part of His plan in my life, they are oso the ones that fills up partial of that hole.. .. A big and warm thank you to all my friends..

Will be serving nxt wk.

I mus excel in all things i do. Its time to make certain committment. Its time to serve full time. Its time to get serious. Its time to make sacrifices. Its time to lay my life for God. I will arise, i will and i must. I din called to do small tins but to fulfill the cultural mandate of Him.

Downloading hua yang shao nian shao nu's song nw.. shun bian download the song tat lin like, zui zhong yao de xiao shi.. yup.. aft dis goto go queue for svc le. Will try to blog as and when i can. =)