woo~
guess my blog had reli been trappin n collectin dust..

recently alot of tins happened.
yup. alot.
i tendered resignation.
i reli did.
but ultimately got turned dwn.
wondered if i'm too gd a staff for dem,
or r dey reli tat short handed to nt let mi go.

but all of which aint impt.
i leave for gd,
but stayed for darlin's sake.
thou i'm reluctant to,
but her sacrifice made was definately more den wat i've done.
seein her wif teary eyes,
i jus cldnt bear to.
her begs, her tears, her pleasin,
i got melted.
she mean a world to mi.
frenz like her is hard to obtain.
i stayed in the end. yes. i did.

today is nic n gracina's last day.
my heart weight heavy.
nic, the best manager u can eva find.
gracina, the best bud i eva had.
both r leavin..
i'm at loss of wat to say,
but my eyes flash a thousand words.

there tends to b up n dwns is all areas of life.
i finally got dis revelation.
no boat sail smoothly thruout.
n guess i'm meetin all the big waves nw.

wat more can i ask for in life wen all i can is to indulge myself in work.
tearin tix,
sellin tix,
pop popcorns,
sell popcorns.
life seems more like a routine nw to mi.
a little colour added wen cheesy hotdogs n nachous came into the pic.
but don b surprise.
i'm contented wif dis borin lifestyle which i'm havin.

watched 'dead silence' wif darlin, jp n zac ytd.
all i can say is 'BORING!~'
haas.
watched 'Rush hrs 3'
'Hostel 2'
'881'
'Jesus camp'
'Lisence to wed'
'Secret'
far too many to b touched on for a person who work in cinema like i do.
lolx.

workin at 6 plus today.
phew~
finally can catch sum slp.
but hu noes..
early in the mornin receive more den 8 msges.
argh~

nth much to write oreli.
cant tink of animore interestin tins to write thou there's reli alot.

back frm work.
881 gala today.
damn freakin noisy due to the lion dance performance.
was shoutin my lungs out to the customers at box.
exausted.

holdin float today.
my first time.
money was all in a mess.
first time doin closin on my own.
as in..
reli count everitin myself.
fareeze was wif mi,
thou he do closin more often den i do,
but i seems more xpert den he does.
thxfully i survive thru the sub totallin today.
got scolded by fion.
but she was nice enuf to onli scold mi a little.
i reli messed everitin up.
i'm sori..

alia cried.
i hope i'm not the caused of it.
i did raise my voice at her over the calculator incident.
but din we oways play wif one another like we do everiday?
she claimed tat it doesnt concern me.
i wish tat was the case too.

mp4 spoiled.
tat was my life.
nw even my 'life' is gone.
wat is there worth livin den..

darlin lied to her mom,
jus to stay wif us a little longer.
i appreciated tat.
but i cannot condone her act.
i rather bear wif not enjoy together wif her for the wk,
den her lyin to her family mems.
i haf my stand darlin.
plz understand.

i wonder y everitin involves mi.
i seems to b the 'information center' for everione.
all secret goes to mi.
hence wen those kapos wana noe anitin,
dey come to mi.
at times,
it's reli cruel to spout other's secret out.
it's like pourin salt on one's wound.
ouch. it hurts.
spare mi frm doin such sins.

i yearn so much for managers to look tins at our point of view.
to haf a feel of wat we feel before dey open their mouth to scold us each time.
shall we change role for jus a day?
let all the managers tear tix,
pop popcorn all day n send outside food back to cinema?
while for us, sit in office will do.
i don mean tat manager's job r easy,
but jus hope tat we compromise n understand the job of one another.
will tat do..?
sigh..
fat hope esther~

ppl r jus so practical.
ting wana meet mi,
i was truthful enuf to say tat i cldnt make it as i'm reli bz,
n she goes 'k. c u in church den.'
without even hearin my xplaination.
was still tryin to xplain tins out,
but i guess i can forget abt it.
sad to tell her.
i aint gg back.

i luv my fantastic 4.
wif our silver surfer oso, jonathan!
nw got 1 more ying ling.
dono wat to name her.
hmm.
was tinkin of changin our grp name to 'fruit tree fresh'
den each of us use a diff fruit to represent ourselves.
like tat got unlimited choices of name to use!
it sounded stupid thou.
argh.

drinkin blueberry tea nw.
tinkin of her.
tat used to b her fav drink.
jus wonder..
hw can hard-built frenship b so fragile.

liang is the longest close frenz i had i guess.
oso the onli one tat worth mi treasurin.
damn pissed off at box today
wen all of a suddenly i saw my fav toberlone in my drawer.
tats for sure frm him.
he made my day by buyin mi tat choc bar.
even till nw,
he's the onli one tat noes hw to coax mi.
thx bud~

jus feel lazy to reply certain ppl's msg.
everi mornin wake up,
my hp got flooded by msges.
i choose wisely which to reply n which nt to.
guess usually i onli reply darlin's one.
no particular reason y.

wore leather shoes to work today as my canvas got worn out.
darlin said i look cute in it.
man~
i'm almost 20.
y do everione still says i look cute??
say i'm gorgeous, eligan,
i'm all fine wif it.
but y CUTE?
oh plz.
cut it.

ahh! jus realised tat my mp4 resurrected!!!
weee!!!!

meetin darlin n the rest to watch 'bu neng shuo de mi mi' tml mornin.
Jay's production.
sure bu hao kan de.
but darlin dey all wana watch.
so..
jus go on wif it for their sake.

i jus cant seems to shake off darlin's postin issue.
it kips on hinderin mi.
got hunt by it days n nites.
darlin is leavin on nov.
to aus.
2 yrs before i can c her again.
i cant.
i simply cant pic the scene of mi livin without her.
3 more mths to go.
i'm grabbin hold on everi min n sec spent wif her n fantastic 4.
u once begged mi 'darlin.. don leave.. don.. i beg u.. beggin u..'
for ur sake.
i din.
its my turn nw.. 'i'm beggin u too darlin.. don leave.. don..'
will u do the same for mi?

no more mood to write anitin.
*squattin at one corner of the rm..*

there r many pics tat i reli wana uploade n show u guys.
but dis damn blogger jus doesnt seems to b obdience enuf.

kena file note today.
the most outrageous tin is,
i dono the reason y.
well.
wen it comes to bernard,
most of the time we don haf to noe the reason.
bcuz there's simply NO reason.

my policy is beri easy.
no file note.
once kena,
QUIT.
simple as tat.
but again.
darlin went sobby sobby.
she does the same each time i touch on leavin issue.
sianz.

instead of learnin hw to drive a car.
i'm gg for bike instead.
cool.
i MUST haf a lisence.
MUST.

darlin got grounded.
haiz.
poor darlin.
jus bcuz she went hm rather late aft our sentosa trip tat day.
her mom oso la.
dono wat the mother tinkin.
cannot scold the mother oso,
majiam scoldin my in-laws like tat.
jus bite the teeth n lips thru wif darlin for a wk.
aft one wk she will b free frm the groundation.

man~
everione tot i'm wif jp.
wonder if bernard is too childish,
or nth beta to do.
oways like to stir such 'news' up.
i hereby declare
we r NOT together!
we're merely gd frenz.
u peeps out there,
do u understand??

mon floor
tue box
wed candy bar.
super sianz lor.
everiday diff station.
jumpin here n there.

luv floor.
but hate to deal wif sucky patrons n outside food.
luv box.
but cant stand sittin dwn tokin to sucky patrons.
luv candy bar.
but hate to wash tins.
wat m i implyin?
hate workin in GV.
hate the job, but luv the ppl.
not everione for goodness sake!

had changed to mornin shift frm nxt wk onwords.
like tat i still haf some free time at nite.
but wakin up early is a struggle to mi.
argh.
i'm oreli picturin the scene of mi crawlin out of bed reluctantly.
shag~

i'm gettin a little tired.
pardon mi.
i'm off to bed once my uniform is ready.
oh yes.
i hear the melody of my washin machine.
haas. its readi!!!

nite. zZz.

jus reached hm.
had supper over jurong east wif jp.
super full.

ah ma actuli did view my blog.
haas..
luckily din tok bad abt her.
lolx~

met jp for a movie,
in the end wasted our compasses,
sent darlin hm instead.
waa.
the place darlin stay so deserted.
bukit gombak there.
eee~ eeri~

darren n ying ling both r 'farmer'.
so m i.
as in..
we r 'harvester'.
but in GV,
we call it farmer.
ying ling PCGL,
as for darren,
onli loitered for ard a yr or so.
both backslided.

frenz n colleagues r jus too nice for mi to leave.
simply cant bear.
but 'some' manager r jus tat sux to push us to the edge.
bangala pay,
bangala job.
tats wat yiyi oways says.
true enuf,
i agreed totally.

i'm a directional idiot.
damn.
darlin discovered it.
took MRT wif her jus nw wen i kept walkin the wrong direction.
i'm LOST~!
argh.

daddy bought mi a shirt back frm overseas!
surprisingly,
i like it.
finally he bought sumtin rite.
haas.
thx daddy!

dey said tat i wore differently today.
did i?
no ar.
tink dey nv c before onli.
rashidah was hapi to c mi wear so nicely on her bdae.
lolx~

colleen said she cant stand mi bein so feminine.
jp said it was nice.
rashidah said i was pretty!
wakakaka!~

off to bed nw.
early thou.
but nid to wake up at 7 plus.
darlin n jp hope tat i'll b there.
haas.
to help out in teachin those china ppl.
free labour.
i don mind.
as long as can see darlin,
jp dey all,
i'm hapi enuf.
to kill my time too.

nite~

suppose to work today.
but din turn up.
Jie ping took over mi instead.
thx my dear~

met ying ling up in the end.
watched 'the simpsons movie' again.
my third time.
but its ok.
she not yet watch.
jus accompanyin her.

darlin sounded SOUR upon noein i'm wif ying ling.
haas.
cuz ying ling wanted to 'share share'.
erm.
tamed darlin by tellin her tat i onli luv her n my fantastic 4,
she seems beta.
but replied
'MAKE sure she NOES'.
lolx~
i smell SOUR!

gg sentosa wif my fantastic 4,
as well as jonathan,
hajar n ying ling dis sun.
erm.
seeked darlin's permission before askin ying ling to join us.
if not..
chaotic la~
haha!

GV came a bunch of china ppl for attachment.
man.
nw den i realised hw lousy my chinese is.
was teachin dem candy bar stuff
wen it came to my realisation
tat i cant even express myself.
dey learn english frm mi
i learn chinese frm dem.
fair n square.
Ellen left mi wif a beri gd impression.
hard workin n keen in learnin.
jia you guys~

kak shidah bdae today.
hapi bdae!

it's oways gd to haf sumone pamperin u.
haas.
jie ping does.
oways the one tamin mi wen i flare.
he's reli nice to mi.
great buddy of mine.


jus not gg aniwhere dis few days.
alone alone alone.
all i want is to b alone.

guess i'm missin out alot of tins in my life.
so b it.

'aft hangin out wif E
i relised.
she is short tempered!'

man.. tats frm gracina.
indeed i m.
thx pal for fulfillin ur promise,
ur car,
our supper.

tins r gg a little out of hand.
xcused myself for awhile durin the supper session.
gracina came over,
ask 'u ok?'..
my ans goes against my heart..
'yeah! i'm fine~!'

darlin pretented she noes nth.
yet she does.
she msg mi jus nw,
questions of concern were bein asked.
din ans much thou.

i din wan to do box closin today.
but i haf no choice.
thx to tat particular guy tat make all our life so miserable.
words meant to b a sign of concern,
yet was taken as bein nosey.
bein scolded.
i don mind.
as long as he opens up n share n stop bein so emo.

worked frm 1.30pm to 12am ytd.
tired. very.
i nid a rest.
rest in all areas of my life.

i reli wana leave GV.
its jus a matter of time.
but trust mi.
soon.
real soon.
had made a promised to darlin,
tat she'll nv b the last to noe anitin.
she will nv b.
but in regards of mi leavin,
she will b the last few to noe.
last few,
not last.

guess u guys all got it wrong.
yati is my darlin,
yes she is.
she is my darlin cuz she first called mi darlin.
n y m i treatin her so nice
is bcuz she reli treated mi nice.
simple as tat.
if she can sacrifice herself for mi,
y cant i do the same?
ultimately we're jus frenz.
gd frenz.
nemo is the one, not her.
i don nid a SLAP to b waken up.
'thx' for tat slap.
n wif the word 'er xin' added on
it jus irks mi off.
stop judgin without understandin.

plz guys, jus leave mi alone for the period will do.
cant play wif u guys animore.
no more energy,
no more strength.
i'm easily angered.
short tempered.
calm mi dwn if necessary than to leave without mi.

off to work again.
tired.