bck frm cdans campsite.
its so near to whr she's stayin.
tot it doesnt bothers mi much,
i'm wrong..
it reli does matters..

the memories of her still lingers within.
till dis beri moment,
no one can actuli replace her in my heart.
again i say,
no one..

ppl ask mi if i do luv M,
mayb i do,
mayb i don.
for wat i noe,
we're oni frenz.
i find no luv in btwn,
not for the past,
not for nw,
neither will it hpn in the future.

as for K..
sumtin i'm sure of,
is tt we'll nv b tgr.
we're jus buddies,
brothers.

luv is so complex n sophisticated.
i'm surprised of hw amazin it can b.
to the xtend of lettin one jump in joy,
n lettin one tear in sorrows.

i don lk bein trapped in the pentagon relation.
worse still,
jus goto noe tt it's actuli hexigon instead of pentagon.
tins r gettin alittle out of hand.
i'm feelin kind of vex abt it too.
yet wif all these feelins arose,
i absolutly hv no idea in settlin issues as such.

had been seein cake cryin recently.
aft each n everi of the cryin session,
the guilt in mi emerged.
der's nowhr for mi hidin it.
felt aguished abt the entire situation,
but der again,
i'm reli sori abt it..
i reli am..

i'm feelin at worse.
yet i oways goto b the one consolin n comfortin everione ard mi.
can i b the soft one too for jus once?
can i afford to allow my tears to flow jus lk other does?
i wish i can..
i hope i cld..

all of a sudden i felt so empty.
felt so hollow.

i'm tinkin of u.
will u b bck into my arms again?
i jus wan bck dos moments tt we used to hv..

stop dreamin will u esther?
yes..
indeed i m..

sori for luvin u so deeply.
sori for nt forgettin u.
sori for plungin u to the far end of my heart.
sori for mkin u once mine.
sori for allowin memories to linger.
all in all,
i luv u too much.
too much to even save myself frm dis failure relationship tt we had.

i'm sori ppl.
goto xcuse myself for the moment.
i'm tired.
physically,
mentally,
and emotionally..
so tired.. ..~

b4 reli drop dead over at jess place,
my beluved ah neh (jenna) did sumtin for mi.
















haas..
aft much complain,
dis is wat she did for mi..
haas.
nt bad la.
beta den nth.
lolx~
>.<