finali got my fone changed.
thou its alittle x worth the money,
yet i hv no complain.
n76 was an utter eye sore to mi.
was more den hapi to get rid of it.





















dis is my new fone.
Pda touch screen.
looks normal,
yet i'm in deep deep luv wif it.

met him aft buyin fone.
headed to marine parade for dinner.
he wanted KFC,
but i chose MOS burger.
haas.
i made the final call,
we had MOS burger for dinner.

was lookin ard for slippers,
wen we both eye on the same pair.
addidas blue slipper.
$35 per pair,
reasonable price,
yet i jus cldnt bear to spend money on branded stuff.
still on the considerin mode.

took sum fotos wif him.
he aint lookin gd wif smiles on his face,
hence i asked him x to smile.
lolx.









































he got his hair cut.
so ugly.
still prefer his previous hairstyle.

y mus u guys oways brin up issues tt i don wish to touch on.
i'm sori.
i jus don wan to mention anitin.
i've movin on..
reli tryin hard..
stop diggin out wat is x suppose to n let mi move on will u guys plz..?
plz..

mitin cherry tml.
by rite gg to do shu qun camp,
yet din wan to disappoint her hence still stick to my promise.
i'm yearin for a beta 'tml' everiday.
i hope my wish does kam true.
its jus a simple one..
a simple one.. ..

wonder if i can blog durin wk ends.
oni noe i wun b able to blog for the entire wk nxt wk,
sori readers,
will blog soon once i'm bck.

aft lockin myself for so long,
i finally stepped out of my place.
dos enjoyment n leisure kind.

met yx up for pool ytd.
as usual,
he got trashed!
haas~
desiree was here too.
'little ms giggles'
tt shirt jus suit her so much.

desiree went off early as she's wrkin,
leavin behind the borin yx n me.
were walkin ard the entire bugis junction,
realised tt it had changed so much.
it jus shows the period of mi bein isolated to the outside world.

jp came to join us at a ltr hr.
chosen tcc to rest our feet.
















tts the drink we ordered!
jp simply don understand eng,
cuz thru out i was sayin
'we're here for COFFEE!!'
n he ordered strawberry tea..
=.="

yx left for wrk in the evenin,
while jp n i headed dwn to vivo for movie.
waitin for yanqi to arrive,
we bought the tix first.
made up our mind for 'one miss call',
yet bein indecisive enuf,
i chose 'boogeyman 2' in the end.
man~
it sux.
gruesome n gore.
both jp n i almost vomited.
as for yanqi..
i tink she oni watch ard 1/3 of the show.
as she had been coverin her eyes.
lolx!

joke of the day:
jp ate alot b4 the movie starts.
yanqi was lk sayin
'eh.. if u wan to vomit,
vomit within half an hr time so tt i can refund tix lei..'
n jp oni feel unwell aft an hr or so!!!
bo hua!
wakakakak!!!!
(guess oni gv staff understand)

she toked to mi.
true enuf,
i gave off cold shoulder.
given tt kind of damn fark up ans to her.
haas..
hu is she nw to mi?
no one.
y shld i care so much den.
she msged mi at nite,
askin mi wats wif the coldness i had.
don reli feel lk replyin at the first place
thou in the end i still did.
n i tink she's stupid enuf to ask such Q.
u noe it BEST.

u asked mi if i'm revengin.
mayb?
i'm jus gettin bck all the tins tt i've lost.
everi single tin.
if it even means to destroy u to get my tins done,
i will.
u deserve it.
deserve to b left wif nth,
jus lk wat u've done to mi.
don hinder in my way mind u.
jus wana get bck tins tt were once belonged to mi.

will b gg out wif cherry n rashidah dis fri.
to sentosa.
jp cant mk it.
*sad*
n rashidah even asked mi
'u mind her gg? she's bringin him oso'..
funi Q thou..
hu wun mind??
but guess she wun hv the cheek to go either.
no wories den.
quality time spend wif rashidah n cherry!

appointment set wif ze ju dis kamin sun.
gg to watch goldclass wif him.
i jus missed him SOOOOOOOOOOO much!
since he went into NS,
i've x seen him.
aww..
my beluved bud.
if he wasnt attached..
*evil lufter*
lolx!!!
he'll b MINE!!
muhahaha!!!
jus cant wait to see him dis sun~!

my bdae falls on fri dis yr.
such a great impact.
20 u noe..
so old~
hvn been spendin bdae thruout my life.
the most memorable n vivid one i guess is the 18th.
carls staff,
CHEC ppl,
cell grp,
so many ppl celebrated for mi.
was touched n overjoyed.

prepared to spend alone again dis yr.
it jus mks no diff.
search my heart for whr it lies.
to ask mi if my heart is still luv u?
yes..
it still is.
nw i fully understand wen ppl says 'ying ai chen hen'.
tts wen luv turns into hatred.

woke up hvin morn synus.
so xin ku.
guess i wun b gg aniwhr tdy.
can slp for the entire day.
hurraayy~
'slp' is my best frenz.
he's oways wif mi wen i nded him.

k la.
nth much to blog le.
will oni b bck into camp nxt wk,
so..
still hv sum days left to enjoy.
PLAY!!!
weee!!!

bck frm xin min camp.
wat a coincident,
saw my tutee.
she seems shock upon seein mi.
haas..

my kids were gd,
dey listen to mi well n behave well.
hyper wen necessary n kip quiet wen nided.
but still,
i scolded dem as dey cant follow simple instructions at times.

der's no perfect camp.
wen the kids r gd,
it sure means tt the management sux.
dis time round it reli does.

tdy suppose to b our anniversay if we din brk off.
perhaps too wounded,
till i cant feel a tin at all nw.
















lookin at the necklace u gave mi,
it hurts mi so,
yet i noe,
everitin is over.. ..

dono wats wif my neck,
twisted?
heaty?
argh~
i jus cant turn my head.
it swells n hv a huge lump,
i cant sneeze,
cant tok loudly,
cant luff,
cant yawn,
cant even eat properly..
tts horrible.
the pain is unbearable..

lose my voice again.
hvin severe migrain.
the short sharp pain jus seems to b a killer.
i cant stand it..
i don used to hv dis in the past,
but y m i so weak nw..

will b seein doc.
yucks..
tts the last tin i will eva do.
but i'm left wif no choice,
all the pain r pourin dwn on mi lk nv before..

cina asked mi out for movie wif kat jus nw,
turned her dwn.
don wish 2 b xtra,
nor feel lk gg aniwhr.
aft the brk up,
outside world jus seem so scary to mi.
other den camp,
i'm x gg aniwhr.
it feels more weird wen tdy is the specific date.. ..

i'm super x feelin well.
x gd at all.
nd to catch sum slp..

off 1 day n will resume my camp on mon.
haiz..
i'm reli tired..
reli.. ..

bck frm bowen's camp.
my first camp wrkin for other company.
great oppotunities yet got ruined.
jus cldnt set my mood rite for camp.
everitin seems to go so wrong.
jus so wrong.. ..

lookin at our photos,
memories starts to flash pass my mind.
cina says it tks time to heal,
thou nth mks mi believe it,
but i still hope tt she's rite..

wats the pt of mi wrkin towards hard a high standard,
wats the pt of mi earnin so much money,
wats the pt of mi doin all the bck to bck camps,
wen no one is der to share my hapiness,
no one is der to go out wif,
no one is der to wait for my return animore..

i'm still gd..
still tryin to move on..
don hold mi guys,
i can walk by myself..

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caught myself in the rain for the past 3 days.
been hvin slight runnin nose n severe sore throat.
tts the worse tin tt can hpn to an instructor..
sigh..
yet i still goto shout my lungs out for the kids,
dey're simply morons.

got buddied up wif a gal name wan zhen (zen).
man..
she looks lk cheena,
toks lk a cheena,
but she aint frm CHINA!!!
she's pure singporean,
which even till dis moment,
i still doubt so.

she's a beri blur person.
lose our resort key n was flippin all our stuff outside in,
inside out to look for it.
she'a a gan jiong spider too.
but aniwae,
she's reli nice.
slept wif her in the same rm.
she covers blanket for ppl.
i woke her up the 2nd day,
n she woke mi up on the 3rd day.
fair n square.

wrkin wif ppl frm LDC,
its reli much much beta den wrkin wif ppl frm camelot.
dey r jus so nice,
so naive..
enjoyed moment spent wif jameson,
n wan zhen wen we were all drenched.
was bz suanin wan zhen wen she's lk,
so blur?
haas..

camelot staff aint lk dis can~
dey oni noe hw to step ppl under their feet
jus to push demselves up a lvl higher.
dey sux to the core i can say.

k.
i'm reli tired.
i cant hold ani longer.
eyes closin soon.. ..

we've broken up.
u mentioned it,
till nw i still cldnt get out of such a gr8 impact.

i don dare to step into a new relation,
but wif all ur accurance n affirmations,
i tried..
i fought my way thru n won the victory,
tot i was the victor oreli wen i actuli aint..
u made mi open myself up more n more.
yet nw,
u're the one tt ended it.
3rd party again.
Darius did the same to mi,
nw is ur turn.. ..

i've been paranoid n insecure all along wen i'm in camp,
discussed wif u sayin tt i wana change my job,
yet u said i don hv to cuz u were rather supportive abt it.
i agreed.
here i m packin myself up wif camps,
jus bcux i wan to fulfill ur desire of hvin N76.
but..
u left mi while i'm in camp..

hw mean ur msg was..
everi single words jus pierce rite thru my heart.
u had been toyin wif my feelins..
u don luv mi animore..
u fell for sumone else..
askin mi to forget abt u..
everitin jus flash pass my mind everi min, everi sec..
i din slp the entire nite..
finali wen i was real tired enuf to close my eyes,
i dreamt of u..
dreamt of u leavin mi wif mean n sarcastic words.
woke up wif tears n wif sweat,
hopin tt everitin was jus a dreamt,
but it actuli wasnt..
the fact was tt
u reli left mi..

wat a torment..
i had been askin myself wat i've done wrong..
y mus i b treated dis way.
but u simply didnt care..
u left without lookin bck.
tt hurts me pretty much.

u made mi sank deeper n deeper,
n left mi in the pit.
y mus u b so cruel.. ..

i've fell too badly dis time round.
wounded, burised, hurt n bleed.
i hv totali no idea in pickin myself up..
totali..

i'm cryin in pain nw..
can u hear my cry.. ..?
i guess u cant b bothered even.. ..
*weep in tears*..

haiz.
had a horrible nite ytd settlin stuff.
glad tt nitemare's over.

went to visit ah ma tdy.
baby so cute~
small small size oni.
aww~
















nor! baby!
cute rite!!!
wakaka!
i don dare to hug..
so fragile..
arn gu gu gu~

left ah ma's place n headed dwn to mit dar.
tdy is the last day tt i can mit her le.
tml gg bck camp.
haiz..
christmas eve she's x available.
so is new yr eve.
haiz.
so used to it le.
nvm.. ..

will b mitin gracina, kat n fu jiun for countdwn tonite.
over at ecp.
while spendin our long nite thru over der,
we will b fishin to kill the time!
ahaha!
erm.
breakthru for mi.
i'm jus so afraid of fishes!!!
nonono!!!
dey fish,
i see.
so simple.
wakakaka!~

last day of mi bloggin le.
dono wen can blog again cuz i'm reli super packed wif camps.
sori guys.
will b gone missin again for a period of time.
bear wif it ya?
haas..
tk care guys!
n..
HAPI NEW YR!!