bein tgr wif u was one of the happiest moment in my life.
the comfy feelin u gave was sumtin tt i yearned for all dis yrs yet nt received.
but nw i do.
u set aside the formal way of tokin btwn spouse,
n allowed mi to tok lk a buddy to u.
i shared wif u all my ups n dwns,
hapi n sorrows.
nth is hidden,
n der's nth tt u do nt noe.

i'm truely apologetic abt all the hurt i've caused.
even ur precious tears involved.
times n again u emphasized on hw much i mean to u,
i didnt gif a damn in the past,
yet i clearly understood the defination of it nw.

wen i look into ur teary eyes each time,
dis particular sentence jus flashes pass before my eyes.
'bao bei, its my honour to hv u.. ..'
so much so i wanted to tell it to u face to face,
but words jus seems to b stuck in my throat.

hw far can we walk?
i hv no idea at all..
m still wonderin if i'm doin the rite tin.
i wish tt sumone or even sumtin can convinced mi tt i'm rite,
but ultimately till dis beri moment,
nth does.

my mind is bein overwhlemed by all tots.
sumtin jus nid to b eliminated.
which one to?
i dono i dono n i dono.

wen a player plays wif feelins,
it doesnt reflects tt he/she is a player,
it jus shows tt he/she gave in his/her feelins.

i gave in my feelins dis time round.
indeed i do.
fully n totali.

'never says never',
dis slogan still applies..

saw u ytd.
broken up for so long,
yet my luv for u had x subside.
i ran as fast as my feet cld carry mi the min i saw u,
but deep dwn in my heart,
all i wan is to catch one more glimp of u.
tt'll b enuf for mi,
more den contented..

u used to b mine,
nw u're into sumbody elses arm.
the blow is der still,
the pain still lingers within.
i had x goton over yet,
x at all..

the more i tot of it,
it jus strike mi into realization tt i hvn been fair to bao bei.
its reli x fair..

revelation intaked.
its x easy bein a player either.
wen a player plays wif feelins involved,
tts indeed a killer point.
i've broke the rules,
hence consequences r der for mi to face nw.

aft all,
players can b in dilemma as well.
u jus luv both.
1 was the past,
the other belongs to the present.
hw..
tell mi hw..

vex.
super.
i'm strugglin.
still sturgglin.

i nid to b in my inferno to tink n meditate abt issues.
i jus nid sum space to breathe n b alone..
argh.
it hurt pretty much.. ..

i luv u..
luv u too much to mk u mine.
i will den b selfish if i own u foreva..
bein unwillin,
bein reluctant,
i still will..

sori bao bei..

'很爱很爱你 所以愿意
舍得让你 往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情
我才安心'..

din hv a chance to blog as my com had been dwn.
thx to the itchy fingers bro of mine,
he caused the death of my com.
idiot!
muderer!

tins had been so diff nw.
i'm attached,
yes i m.
surprised?
i m shocked myself too.

aft much rejection,
i gave in.
a yes is all u nided.
bein much reluctancy at the beri first place,
situations actuli prove mi wrong,
u luv mi more tt i can eva imagine.

my luv for u ascend as days go by,
it didnt diminish at all.
i mean it n i reli do.
each time i look into ur eyes,
ur eyes speak a thousand words.
u jus seems to b tt brite ray tt shone across the darkness,
oways.

doubts oways linger within us isnt it?
i don mind.
jus lk wat u had told mi,
u will prove mi wrong as time passes.
mi too will b doin the same tin.

hvin u aint tough at all,
but i guess..
lettin u go is the toughest tin i can eva afford myself to do.
i wun,
n i nv will.

amg the weird feelins,
i found comfort wen i'm wif u.
i don care hw ppl look at mi,
at u,
or even at us,
i'm x gg to let go of ur hand.
hold mi tite will u?
don choose to let go..

the storm is der for us to brave,
i nd u to b by my side.
we both noe the final outcome,
fear x,
cuz..
i'm more afraid den u..
blif mi,
i do feel the same fear as u.

the fear of losin u arose day by day.
the confidence mi had became inferior n paranoid.
yes..
all bcuz of u.

my life is a book,
u r fillin chapters aft chapters in it.
u mark the say of hw the content shld b lk,
u call it all.

luv is two, for der is no mi without u..

bao bei,
i luv u..

had nt been hm for so long so long..
lets nt count all dos times whrby i actuli oni dropped by to collect new clothin,
the fact was tt,
it had been nearly 2 mths i'm absence frm my beluved bed..

i had been a wanderer the min i'm footed into camp line.
my presence n absence at hm doesnt mk ani diff,
hence,
y return.. ..

times n again,
i wanted to brin myself bck,
yet situations don allow mi to.

der r many whom lk to escape frm hm for no valid reason,
yet for mi,
i jus wish to return..
but again i said,
i cldnt.. ..

my bagpack is my life,
my tentage is my hm..
nth means more den dis 2 tins to mi for dis veri moment.

life had been gettin more n more unfruitful.
nth to achieve,
nth to aim for.
i'm passin each day as a routine.
is tt gd or is tt bad?
too much brain cells of mine had been killed jus by tinkin abt dis Q alone.

too much to tink,
too little to b fulfilled.

i oways wanted to b the best of the best,
ultimately,
i came to realise tt i submerged instead of emergin amg the rest.
y is dis so..?
no idea..
but it's jus so..

had been wrkin so hard for everi single tin in life.
i gave in my best,
i put in all effort,
aft all tt i've done,
i've gain n achieve nth..
reli nth..
so much time been wasted.
silly mi.. ..

mouth had been kind of tired to b opened.
doesnt feel lk tokin much dis days.
movies is the best leisure n entertainment tt i pretty much enjoyed.
sit in,
air conditionered,
relaxation kams in nxt..
ahhh~
wif dis,
i'm contented.

my synus had been a killer.
so severe tt mucus dripped lk a runnin tap.
argh~
terrible feelin..

felt rather luved dis 2 days,
wif my qin ai de ard,
my bluey day seems to b briten up alittle.
*smile*
















our bdaes..
















spendin my days n nites wif her..
















her place..

cam horin freak of mi.
haas.
our pics r definately more den jus dis 3,
kees.
jus far too lazy to upload everitin.
pardon mi!

nei is bck frm taiwan!
missed her so much sia!
yippee!!!
haas~
she missed the best comedy award show,
our april fool programme!
lolx!!!

will b away again aft dis entry blogged.
headin hm to collect sum clothes in preparation for tonite tent pitchin.
which oso means,
i'm gona b wanderer for the nxt few days.

wen feelins n tots aroses,
i choose to kip quiet.
slience is golden,
n i jus prefer tt way..