You are being missed by me at times,
to be exact,
i hate you more den i miss you.

i used to love you so deeply,
yet in return,
you hurt me more than anyone else.

By buying christmas present to me in compensation,
it doesnt help at all.
Don't assume that simple things like that will simmer my anger.
i'm sorry,
but i really hated you.

My love for you no longer exist,
so stop pestering me and pop out every now and then,
doing little things expecting my attention.

looking back at my previous entries,
i just ponder hard,
thinking to myself why do i love you so much in the past..
but thank goodness,
no longer now..

sparing some time for myself,
i came to a conclusion that i shall not accept your gift.
we aint related at all.
no longer lover,
no longer colleagues,
no longer friends.

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man..
so much wrk to do.
manpower coordination kills.
i need trainers,
i need people who can commit to camp.
anyone?

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9mth had passed.
it jus passed like that within blinking moments.
i love bei more and more each day.
you spartic nerd!
but i just love you so much.

you are the potion in me.